sometimes the things that keep us alive kill us

3 years later

I got to Andy's after school since the lucky asshole left 6 months ago, like started getting better after me and Andy became a thing, My mom and dad got divorced and he moved back to Scotland, my big sister lives in London now, more people excepted me for me even my aunt Marry doesn't minds it, my friends and family think I'm transgender though because I haven't been a girl in 3 years. Me and Andy having hung out in a week so we decided to hang out, I've been busy with my band and he been busy with his, I got my key out that Amy give me for whenever Andy forgets his key or I'm saying over, I opened the door and I heard the sound of a moan, I walked to Andy's room and opened the door to reveal him in bed with Scout one of his "friends" "Andy, what the fuck?" I shouted, him and scout looked at me shocked, All the color from Andy's face left "Kyle, I can explain" Andy said grabbing his boxers, I shook me head "no you can't, I thought you loved me" I snapped "I do, I do" he said calm, I felt anger and sadness
"Wait, Andy you're gay?" Scout questioned
"No I'm gener fluid and you are on bed with my boyfriend, wait no ex boyfriend we are over Andy, I'm sorry, I know why you did this you can't stand me begin a guy can you" I said as I walked out of his room "kylie, please I'm sorry I never-" I cut him off by slamming his front door, I felt the tears run down my face, I ran home without even stopped. I was broken.

7 years later

Andy's point of view

"I'm going to miss you" I said after kissing Juliet "call me remember?" We kissed one last time and I went on the bus, we are going on tour again and I can't wait, we've got this new band called "open doors" supporting us because another band pulled out cause their drummers broke his wrist, Ashley is a big fan of this band so he's super stoked and he has a crush on the lead singer Kylie.

We got to our venue and went to our changing room we are meeting the band in an hour so it gives me time to get the Wi-Fi password somewhere

Kyle's point of view

"Mommy, do you have to leave me this time?" Harley said in a baby voice, I went over to my husband and kissed him "babe, call me remember?" Grey said to me and pulled my into a hug "I will don't worry" I said, we stayed like this for a while until our door went, I grabbed my suit case and phone, when John got to the door Harley was talking to my manager "can I come please?" I heard Harley say, I sighed, she never does this, I know her dad's been busy with work lately but she's just been so clingy to me lately, I love it but it just makes it hard when I have to leave "two minutes Kylie I have to make a call" my manager stepped away

Andy's point of view

Ashley was seriously annoying me now "ash, calm the fuck down" I told him, but he didn't listen "I'm sorry but I can't, I'm finally meeting Open Doors" he said.to me
"God Ashley your such a fanboy" CC said as I just shook my head "so if know everything about them, for example they've been together since 2006 but never started doing shows until 2009 then in 2009 they took a break because Harley had a daughter called Harley and she's married to the luckiest men ever" fuck ash really does like this band, I've heard a few of their songs and they done a few BVB cover but only don't know what they look like, Ashley said they are an all girlband, so yeah


Kyle's point of view

"Mom, I can come, I can come!" Harley screamed "daddy, I'm going with mommy" she yelled running into his study then back out, I laughed at her but then caught on to what she was saying "wait, honey who said you can?" I asked her, crossing my arms
"Sammy did" she said referring to my manager, I sighed "come on let's pack" I told her, I grabbed her hand and we walked to her bedroom "I already packed" she smiled at me, I've trained her well, her clothes were neatly packed in her Minnie mouse suitcase "you are so sneaky" I told her, she smiled and marched downstairs proud, I grabbed her suitcase and went downstairs with it, we got to the bus and grey was there talking to my band, "I love you, baby button" he said to Harley who he was holding, I put Harleys suitcase in the hold under the bus "I love you too, big button" Harley said back, I stood next to grey "I also love you middle button" he said I laughed at pulled him into a hug "come on you, let's leave mommy and daddy to do gross things" Mollie my lead guitarist out of Grey's arms, I kissed him and he kissed back, this is the longest I'm going to be away from him, I won't see him for 6 months and he's probably going to be busy with some court case, we are so different but work so well, he pulled away "bye, babe" he said "bye" I said going into the bus, the bus door shut and Harley waved her dad off a the front window, I ran to my bunk "I call shot gun" I said running to the bag lounge where there's a big bunk "fuck sake I wanted that bunk" Mollie shouted "you snooze you lose" I shouted and I got out my bunk singing the bunk plan Sammy has to clam it's mines "fuck you button" she said mocking me "hey, Aunty Mollie,don't make fun of the button family, buttons hold stuff together your annoying" Harley told her off causing my band whole hand to laugh "you just got told" Lexi our drummer shouted,I just shook my head and got ready for our show, my outfit may seem a bit showy but I've dressed like this for a long time, I dyed my hair red 3 years ago and saved the side off, my hair is now down to my mid back and it's actually real.

We got to the venue and I had to wear blind fold, we got in and the blind came off, Harley was holding onto my hand, "the band are waiting down there for you" A backstage person told us, I picked up Harley and placed her on my hip, we called to were they said the band was and my heart dropped

Andy's point of view

I looked up at the band in front of me and my eyes went straight to the girl in the middle holding a little girl, Kyle, I haven't seen her in 7 years, her thighs tattooed and she had to half sleeves but the one tattoo that stuck out to me was the AB one she got on our year Anniversary, she had a sparkling diamond ring on her finger, "Black Veil Brides this is Open Doors" Jon our manager said "this is Kylie Anderson and her daughter Harley Anderson, Kylie is the singer and bassist, Ashley remember she's married so don't try anything, this is Mollie Thomas, the lead guitarist, Lexi Collins the drummer and Amber Mccan the guitarist and back up singer" he told his "I'd watch out for Mollie and Kylie, they are the biggest pains, pranksters and party animals even though Kylie had Harley and she's married to a lawyer" their manger said

Kyle's point of view

"I'm not that bad" I said in my defense "no you're worse, for example that time you set the fire extinguisher off and the foam went all over me, then you throw the extinguisher and smashed the TV" Sammy said, I started laughing at the memory "in my defense Harley wasn't on this.tour" I said, key put her down as my phone started to ring, it was grey "can I take this it grey?" I asked Sammy he nodded and went off "hey, can you hear me?" I asked
"Yeah, hey, babe how's tour so far even though you've been away for 2 hours?" He said "it's good, the band we are supporting are BVB" I said
"Baby, that's amazing" he said
"How's work?"
"Its getting there, but I got a call from my mom asking if I can come visit her in hospital" he said
"Wait, Why is she on hospital?" I asked
"She fell and hurt herself really bad she was asking for you, you know she misses us" I smiled at this, Grey's mom is such a sweetheart, she adores me and I adore her, she was so supportive over the birth of Harley and our marriage. "You should go see her, I would but obviously I'm on tour" I told him, I miss him so much already "I will, I better get going, I learned 've you millions and our little devil, goodbye"
"I love you too, bye" we hung up and I felt sad, but I was soon pulled back to my mothering duties when Harley came over "mommy, I've peed myself" she said "Harley, you k ow how to use the toilet!" I raised my voice a little "it wasn't my fault, it was Aunt Mollies" she whined
"How was it?" I asked her, looking at her blue jeans
"She gave me and fright" I sighed, Harley has this thing when she gets scared she pee's herself, I wanted to cry, I hate changing her, grey always done it but done the potty training "Mollie, I'm going to kill you" I snapped at her as she talked to Jake, I seen the smirk on her face
"You know what She gets like when she's scared, next time she has an accident you can clean it" I told her, I gently grabbed Harleys hand, I went to go out but I was stopped by Andy "where are you going?" He asked me "to my bus, Harley pee'd herself" I said a bit off with him
"Can I come?" he asked "I mean to told not to see you change Harley but so we can talk" he said I laughed "yeah, if you want" I said not really bothered, we all went to our bus, Harley picked her clothes and I went in to the bathroom with her "so how long have you been married?" Andy asked, from outside "5 years, 6 months and 4 days" I practically sang "how long were you guys together before"
"A year and a half, I know it seems like we rushed into it but when your hearts in the right place, then little Harley came along"I explained
"So am I the reason you have bright red hair and actually look like a girl"he asked as opened the bathroom door and Harley ran out, I put her clothes on a plastic bag and tied it "no, I was planning on doing it for a while before we broke up and after you left I guess I just had the motivation to do it" I explained
"Why didn't I see you around after you caught me?"
"I stayed in Ohio"
"But the week I left you went in what so ever, when I went to your house, you dad was there for some reason and he said you weren't in and every time Christmas came, I'd come visit my mom and dad and you'd never be home home whenever I visited"
"Andy, you hurt me, I was a state I'm surprised I graduated school, you probably did see me because I seen you but you probably didn't notice me, after 6months I was saved by grey, I took drugs and I could have killed myself but I didn't, Grey asked me to marry him at my return from rehab concert,we got married a few weeks later, it was a quiet wedding, me, my mom, grey and is brother, mom, dad and sister, then before we know it I was given birth do Harley and we moved to La " I told him, "And you never once thought about being in contact with, you never thought maybe I'd want to know you were okay, My life was hard trying to get over you"
"Hard, Its was hard feelings of you, I walked into the man I wanted to be with for the rest of my life in bed with another girl and I had to deal with seeing you two on social media being all lovey, I just you slip out of my fingers, but you must know how I feel because scout also fucked you about" I said, I picked up Harley and walked of the bus "are you just going to walk away, again?" He said, this kind of startled me
"You were the only who let me walk away" I snapped "Hey, Harley go inside and hang out with Aunt Lexi" I told her, she marched like a trooper and left "well maybe if you put up a fight" he said coming closer "so your putting this on me, I wasn't the one caught naked in bed with someone else was I, no I wasn't, you told me Scout was your friend, you didn't see me sleeping with Dean, I had no other choice but to avoid you, you should have stopped me from running, you should have came to my house straight after but you probably stayed with Scout so don't go putting this on me" I didn't realize we were shouting but we were but that isn't going to stop me "I tried, I tried to stop you but I kind of give up, I losted you and I don't know if I can forget you because I always think of you"
"No, Andy. All you think about is yourself, I was the one that ended with up getting the worse out of it, I lost my best friend,I lost the love of my life, I was the one that got a drug addiction, I was the only that got broken, you got LA, a band, a beautiful girlfriend, your dream life, you got everything you ever wanted." I was started to get angry then his lips flow to mines but I pulled away "see this, it's a ring, Its a commitment I made" I said pointing at me ring then I ran in, I can't be in love with him again, no I'm happily married I can't.

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