My Darkest Desire

With Andy hot on your heels, you quickly, quietly, snuck past your family & up up a flight of stairs that lead to the second floor of the old house you knew so well. Upon reaching the second floor, you took a sharp left & headed for the second door down. A white door that's bottom half was covered in black scuff marks from being kicked open by a pair of combat boot clad feet, & a home-made sign tapped to the upper half that read "Beware! Opening This Door Without Knocking First May Result In Sharp Objects Being Thrown At Faces!" that made you & Andy both laugh when you caught sight of it.

"Don't even ask." You chuckled as you swung the door open to reveal your favorite place growing up. Your old(ish) room. It was a small room, with scarlet walls littered with band & movie posters. A bed, a desk, a black bean bag chair, & medium sized shelf that was now almost completely bare were the only things you had left in that little room. Besides the posters ofcourse, but even the ones that still hung on those crimson walls were less than half of the ones you owned at one point. They were only there incase you ever decided to visit, so you didn't have to stay in a plain old room with nothing but red walls & black & grey furniture.

You let out a happy sigh as you walked into the room, the feeling of being home again rushing over you like a tidal wave, before walking over to the bed & throwing yourself down on it.

"Wow.." You heard Andy breathe before he stepped in himself & closed the door behind him. "When you moved out, you really moved out." You sat up & saw him scanning the room over with his eyes, smiling every now & then. You guessed it was pobably because of your posters.

"Uh, yeah.. I actually wasn't planning on coming home for a long long while at the time. Actually, I didn't think I was ever coming to come back." You admited, looking down at your bed spread & running your hands gently over the soft material. Andy was silent for a moment.

"What happened?" He asked, taking off the sunglasses you handed him a few minutes before. You patted the bed next to you, & without saying a word, he sat down beside you & waited for your reply. You took a deep shaky breath & began.

"What I'm about to tell you is something not many people know about. My family knows, Lily knows, & the other people that were involved know, but that's it. Beth & Zach don't even know.. It's something I have a hard time talking about. One because I don't like thinking about it. ANY of it.. & Two.. Well, I can't really explain it yet, but long story short. There are alot of people in my life that would write me off in a heartbeat if they ever found out even just some of the things I went through.." You paused to calm your nerves & felt Andy's ink covered hand slip into yours & you squeezed it tightly.

"What happened?" He repeated, this time softer than before. Tears began to flood your eyes, blurring your vision, & causing your lip to quiver. All the memories began to creep out of the box you locked them away in & stored in the back of your mind, overwhelming you, & you began to shake. You looked up into his crystal blue eyes with your own bloodshot Jade ones. He saw it then, the hurt & despair you had been carrying around not just for the last year or so, but many many before. Suddenly, his eyes began to change, but not to that firey, wolf like yellow this time. To black. It started at his pupils before bleeding outward, like spilled ink, consuming his baby blues. The whites & all. & Though it was something you'd never seen before, & it was almost frightening to see. You didn't move, didn't speak, your expression never changed because the pain growing in your chest overpowered the shock & fear. "Tell me.." He almost begged, cupping your face with his hands. "Please." He waited for you to respond, but you couldn't. You tried, but nothing happened. You tried to speak but all that came out was a whimper. It was liked someone had clipped your vocal chords. "What happened to you?"

Those words hit you like a train, shattering every bit of strength left in you, all the strength you were using to hold back the rivers of tears you knew were fighting to spill down your cheeks. All the strength you were using to hold back the memories. To keep yourself in one piece. Gone. Dust. & For the first time in almost a year.. You broke.

Notes

Cliff hanger!! Dun dun duuun. Sorry it's so short & it took so long guys, it's been a hell of a month so far.. Had my 21st Birthday, got my heart broken, had an early "mid life crisis", delt with enough family drama to last me a life time, found out a family member's a junkie (who happens to be almost too young to even know what drugs are), thought I was dying due to my heart being a damn spaz, & on top of it all, I just found out that half of the people in my life hate me for no reason & I don't know how to fix it or atleast apologize to them because I don't know what I did.. Haha So again, I apologize for taking so damn long, it always seems like when I finally get time to write, all holy hell breaks loose.. BUT, I'm actually doing ok now. & Actually, the main thing that's getting me through it all right now is my readers & my story. When I'm ready to go on a mass killing spree & I get a new comment or a new subscriber, etc. it makes everything better. So thank you guys, truely, from the bottom of my heart. Anyway, thank you everyone for subbing/commenting/rating/etc. I love you all, I hope you're all doing ok, I'll have another chapter up asap, & thank you again! xoxo Dahlia