My Darkest Desire

The tension that filled the room was so thick, you could cut it with a knife. The silence though was much worse, it was so quiet, you began to hear a faint ringing in your ears. You stood there for what seemed like hours, when in all actuallity, it was no more than a few seconds. None the less, it was long enough to cause a near panick attack that made a little voice in your head say "I told you this was a bad idea now run! Get out of there!". & You were close to doing exactly that. Before you could though, you were suddenly being pulled into a tight group hug that consisted of your Grandparents. A few Aunts & Uncles, Counsins, & your Mother.

All of them going on & on about how happy they were to see you, how long it had been, & asking questions like. "Where have you been?" "Why didn't you come to see me?" "Who is that you came in with?" "Is he wearing makeup?" Automatically all your panic & fear melted away, leaving a couple chuckles & a smile in their wake.

"Alright, alright! One at a time, please." You shouted, everyone immediately stopped talking. "I'm sorry for disappearing for so long, I had to take some time off for me. Some of you might not understand why I had to cut everyone off the way I did, & I understand that, but I needed a break from everyone & everything. Especially after what happened.." You paused to look around at the people surrounding you for a moment. Including Andy, who gave you a confused look. "I'll explain later, Sweetheart." You smiled warmly at him, even though the warmth in your smile didn't match the icey feeling creeping through your veins & heart as you thought about what had happened. "Anyway, I apologize to anyone & everyone I hurt when I walked away that day, & never came back. Never called, never even wrote an email to anyone. I had to though, & I'm so much better now that I've had some time to myself." A single tear slid down your cheek, which your mother quickly wipped away.

"Oh Baby, you never hurt anyone. We weren't even upset. A little worried, but nothing more. We're so glad you're ok now though." She pulled you into a tight embrace, while everyone else nodded their heads in agreement. "Personally, I don't blame you for what you did. I would have done just the same." She whispered, low enough for only you to hear before pulling way. You mouthed a 'Thank you' before brushing away the few tears that had wear now staining your cheeks, & turning to Andy. You held out your hand to him, which he gladly too in his own ink stained one, squeezing it tightly as he did.

"Now, as far as the questions about this man here goes. This is Andy, he's in a band, that's one of the main reasons why he wears makeup. That & well, because he can." You laughed, causing everyone else to do the same, except for Andy who just smiled & nodded. "Oh, & he's kind of, my boyfriend.." Almost everyone in the room stopped what they were doing & looked at you wide eyed. All except for your Mother, who didn't look shocked or appauled in the least. She knew your type. & Suprisingly enough, your Grandmother, who just gave him a quick look over, then nodded approvingly.

"Well, as long as he has manners & treats you right, I approve. I always use to think tattoos & piercings were disgusting. & For delenquents, burn outs, slobs, hood rats. Until I realized, a tattoo can be a very beautiful, meaningful thing. & Piercing, you can always just take the rings out. Besides, some people look cute with piercings. Hell, your cousin got her nose pierced the other day, & I think it suits her. Maybe even makes her look prettier, if that was possible. Same goes for you." She grinned, placing both hands on your shoulders & squeezing them lightly in a loving manner. "As long as he treats you right, he's a good person, & you care for him. I don't see a problem." She winked at you, causing a wide smile to plaster itself on your face before moving over to Andy. Holding out her hand to him, & introducing herself. He shook her hand & greeted her like a true gentleman, then going around & doing the same with everyone else.

"Thank you." You said, as your Grandmother walked back over to you with two cups in her hands. You were so preoccupied watching Andy, you didn't even see her go get drinks. She handed you one before looking you dead in the eyes.

"I meant every word. You know I have a very strong gut instinct don't you?" You nodded, looking at her with confusion written all over your face. "Well the minute you two walked in the door, I could tell there was, & still is a whole hell of alot of chemistry between you two. The kind I've only seen maybe twice before. I can tell this isn't one of those High School 'Relationships' that seems promising to the couple, but only lasts a couple weeks before ending in disaster. This is something strong, real. Which means, you have my full support. Unlike some people in here, I can see past a little ink, eyeliner, & TWO. No more than TWO metal rings." Automatically, you knew who she was talking about, & glaced over at your Father who hadn't moved since you walked in. He looked pissed, he was glarring at Andy like a Priest would glare at the Anti Christ. He never did like tattoos, or piercings. Much less makeup on a man, even if it is just some smudged eyeliner. "All I see, is a man that looks at you with nothing but admiration in his eyes, that he also can't seem to take off of you." You couldn't help but smile at her words. "He's quite the Gentleman as well, he even said 'Pleased to meet you Ma'am' rather than just 'Hi' or 'What's uuup?!' I like him already just for that." You just about died at the voice & hand gestures she used while saying 'What's uuuup?!' Imagine a 64 year old woman trying to act like a Swagster/Wangster.

"Ohh, I have missed you." You told her when you could finally breathe normally again, resting your head on her shoulder. "You & Mom both more than anyone else."

"More than your Father?" Lifting your head off her shoulder, you threw her a 'Really? Do you really need to ask that?' look. "Kidding, I know you two haven't gotten along well since the divorce." You rolled your eyes & took a sip of, what you realized was iced tea, before glancing over where your Father was moments before. Only for him to be gone.

"What makes you think we ever 'got along' well?"

"I honestly don't know." She replied, then kissed you on the cheek & began to walk off. "Keep your chin up, Darling." She called back over her shoulder.

"I will. Love you!" You shouted, grinning afterwords as random family members gave you strange looks.

You took another sip of your tea as you turned your attention back to where Andy was before, finding him again in no time, chatting with your Uncle. Your Mom's brother, about what seemed like music since they were both air guitaring. You had almost forgotten he wanted to be a musician when he was younger. Finally, someone Andy got identify with.

"I don't like him.." A loud voice boomed to your left.

"Hi Daddy." Replied, rolling your eyes before turning towards you Father, standing a couple feet from you.

"What is with you & men that look like they belong passed out in an alley, strung out on herion.. You're dating Sid Vicious, you know that." The grip on your cup tightened, but you kept your face free of emotion. Except for the smirk that decorated your lips.

"Awe, not even a 'Hi' back? Can't really say I'm suprised but it has been what, over a year?" You asked, your smirk widening as you tilted your head to the side a bit. Feeling a little like the Joker as you did, before setting your cup down on a near by table & crossing your arms.

"A year & a half, actually."

"That's what I thought, yet, still. No hello." You faked a pouty face. Before he could answer, you felt a slender arm snake around your waist. You Father took one look at the person behind you & scoffed in disgust. "Hiya Honey. Or should I say, Sid?" You asked the man behind you cheerfully.

"He's bad news, Ember. All people like him are." Was all your Father could say, before stalking off.

"What the hell was that about?" Andy asked in an irritated tone as you turned to face him. His eyes were flickering from electric blue to that feline like yellow you see whenever he's emotions are running high. Quickly, you grabbed the pair of sunglasses he had stuffed in his pocket & handed them to him.

"Put these on then follow me, we need to have a little.. Chat."

Notes

Hey guys, I'm so so sooooooooo very very sorry for being so late with the update (that rhymed), due to computer. Family, & health problems, I couldn't get this damn chapter done. Everythings alot better now & I hope you like the new chapter. I apologize for any misspellings/typos, I was just rushing through this chapter & more than likely fucked up words no human being ever has / ever should & I'm sorry. Anyway though, hope you guys liked it & a huge huge THANK YOU!!!!! <3<3<3 To anyone who has subscribed/commented/rated/ etc. You guys are amazing, I can't believe how many people like this story.. I literally cried when I saw the number of subscribers I have today. It really means the world to me that you all like it so much, I'm such a perfectionist, I never thing anything I do is good enough. The fact that so many of you like my story, makes me heppier than I can put into words, so again. Thank you!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 Until next time xoxoxo