My Darkest Desire

"Babe, stop picking at it, you're going to make it worse.." Andy whispered, his husky voice making you jump slightly as you were pulled from the depths of your mind & back to reality. Quickly, you moved your hand away from the run in your tights you had been pulling & poking at while your mind, as well as your emotions ran wild as you sat in Andy's car. That at the time being, was parked outside of your Parents place, & you're old home.

It was Thanksgiving, & you were on the verge of an anxiety attack. Except for your younger Brother & your Grandparents, you hadn't seen the rest of your family since Christmas the year before. You had no idea how they were going to react to seeing you again after avoiding them for almost an entire year. Not to mention in all your tattooed & pierced glory, & with a "Rockstar" boyfriend on your arm that has five times as many tattoos as you do, was wearing about as much makeup as you were. Rocking a mohawk, a leather jacket & boots, & an addiction to cancer sticks that was twice as bad as yours.

Your knee bounced furiously as you thought about what your day was going to be like. It was a nervous tick of yours, along with bitting your thumb nail or lip. & At the moment, you had your black pointed thumb nail clasped tightly between your teeth. You were terrified of what was going to happen after walking through that front door, if you decide to walk through that front door, that is.

Suddenly, you felt something press down on your leg right about your knee, ceizing your bouncing. You blinked a couple times as you snapped back to reality before turning & looking straight into a pair of warm crystal eyes.

"Stop it, right now.. Take a deep breath & relax for a second." Andy cooed, trying to calm you. You did as you were told, & after exhaling you felt your body, as well as your mind, relax a bit. "Now, you need to calm down, Honey. Stop getting yourself so worked up over this, you're going to make yourself ill." With his free hand he reached up & brushed a chunk of obsidian hair away from your face, before caressing your cheek with his thumb soothingly. "I understand you want today to go well. I understand they're your family, your flesh & blood, & their approval means something to you, but.. If they're honestly going to lose it over a couple pieces of metal you can always take out if you want, & or some ink on your skin that means something special to you, something so special you wanted it permanently put on you to show off to everyone & to carry with you for the rest of your life. Or even over a boyfriend who they don't approve of because I too have tattoos & piercings. I even wear more makeup than you on a rare occasion.." He paused to smile at you, a smile that melted all your fears away in a matter of seconds, & caused a smile of your own to creep across your lips. "Fuck'em. Fuck their opinions too, those are such minor things to obsess about, if they give you shit for any of those things today. Honestly, I say fuck'em. Don't let them get to you, one day they'll open their eyes & see some ink on your skin, or a ring through some part of your body, even some eyeliner smudged around someone's eyes does not make a person bad or even good for that matter. They're decorations, nothing more. An apperance & the person that apperance belongs to are to totally different things. Some ink, some pieces of metal, some makeup does not create a person... It just makes them more fun to look at." He winked, causing you to giggle. He always knew just what to say. "Anyway, I'm rambling now, but my point is. Even though their family, & it hurts when they don't approve, especially when they say it in hurtful ways. You can't let it get to you, because I can promise you. One day, they'll realize that the things they don't approve of are nothing but petty little things." You couldn't help but smile as he gave you your pep talk. " Besides, I don't care what they think about me. I care dearly for you, & if they can't see past the tattoos & piercings & see that. Fuck'em. As long as you can see it, that's all that matters. So don't worry about them disapproving of me. I don't care." You couldn't help yourself, as soon as he finished, you grabbed his shirt collar, pulled him to you. & Kissed him lovingly. As soon as your lips touched you could feel him smile into the kiss, resulting in a swarm of butterflies to flutter about in your stomache.

"Thank you.." You whispered as the kiss ended.

"You're ever so welcome, Love. Now, let's do this." He grinned deviously as he jumped out of the car, bounding around to your side & opening the door for you.

Once you made it up to the front door, you took a deep breath before ringing the door bell, & prayed one of your less jugemental family members would open the door. & Low & behold, your elder cousin opened the door.

"Baby girl, you made it!" She jumped at you, embracing you in a tight hug that almost knocked you over, & almost caused the drink in her hand to spill all over you. You laughed & quickly took it from her before returning the embrace as you tried to kick Andy who was behind you, giggling like The Joker. "I'm so happy to see you, it's been too long." She pouted as she pulled away.

"Oh I completely agree." You smiled as you handed her back her drink. "Oh, real quick. There's someone I want you to meet." You side stepped so she could get a good view of Andy, who introduced himself & held out his hand for her to shake.

"Well it's a pleaser to meet you, Andy. I'm Victoria." The three of you chatted for a few minutes until she decided it was too hot to stay outside any longer, even November is hot in Arizona. As the three of you turned to walk inside, she speed walked over to you, linked her arm with yours & leaned in like she was going to tell you a secret. "Goddamn, nice catch, Darlin'." You couldn't help but let out a giggle, which caused Andy to look at the two of you suspiciously.

"She says you're hot." You called out over your shoulder, Tori playfully slapped your arm before walking inside ahead of the two of you. A mortified blush on her face & a small one on Andy's too.

You walked through the door, only to slam right into Tori who had stopped right in front of you.

"Smooth, Sweetheart." She teased, & you stuck your tongue out at her. "Ready?" She asked suddenly, you reached behind you & grasped Andy's hand tightly who squeezed yours comfortingly before nodding.

"Hey everybody, look who decided to join the party!" She announced without warning. Your eyes grew wide & your anxiety spiked as you watched everyone turn & stare at you with bug eyes. You caught a glimpse of your Mother & Father, only to see them look at you & Andy with startled expressions. Too shocked to even move, the cup in your mothers hand slipped & clattered to the floor, spilling its contents. Soon after, the room went dead silent.

"Um.. Hi guys.."

Notes

So so many typos in this chapter, but I have no time to edit sadly.. So, sorry guys. Anyway, I hope you guys like this chapter anyway. Thank you all soo sooo sooooooo much for the comments/feedback. It really means alot. & Another thank you to everyone's who's also rated/subscribed/etc. You guys are amazing! Truely, truely amazing. <3