One Of The Guys

As we walked back to our bus, we left a trail of water behind us from our soaked clothes. Andy held my hand the whole time. We walked in silence for a while, enjoying each other's company, until I finally broke the silence.
"Andy?"
"Mmh-Hmm?"
"Why are you being so nice to me now?" I asked. It was a question that had been bugging me for weeks. I still couldn't understand his mood swings, being an asshole to me one week, then being a gentleman the next. I needed a straight answer.
"What do you mean Little Hurricane?" he replied.
"You know what I mean. You were so mean to me the first couple months we knew each other, and ever since then you've been hot and cold with me. One minute telling me you like me, then the next ignoring me and insulting me"
Andy let go of my hand and stopped walking. He had a look on his face as if I had pushed on a topic he was uncomfortable about, and didn't want to talk about. His eyes wouldn't meet mine, avoiding eye contact. He scratched his head and looked into the distance.
"Uhm.. Can we not talk about that right now? I was having a really enjoyable night up until this point"
I was kind of shocked at his response to be honest. What could possibly be going on inside his head?
"Andy please, I'm going crazy trying to figure you out. You can't keep playing with my emotions like this. At some point you're going to have to at least talk to me about it. I don't know how long I can continue this."
"Continue what?" he asked.
"See Andy, that's exactly what I'm talking about! Continue what? Whatever this is between us, because we still haven't specified what 'it' is. Are we friends? No, friends don't have sex. Fuck buddies? Well, no because I have feelings for you and I think you have feelings for me too?" I sighed. I don't know why I was rambling like this but it felt good to finally say it out loud to him. "Andy, I just.. I just need to know what we are. I'm either a part of your life or I'm not"
I could see Andy was getting agitated. His jaw clenched and he chewed on the inside of his cheek.
"Please [Name], I really don't want to get into this now. Can't we just enjoy the time we spend with each other without putting a label on it?" he asked, while taking both my hands in his.
It wasn't the answer I wanted, but I didn't want to start another fight. It seemed that all Andy and I did was fight and have sex, and I had had enough of fighting with him.
"Okay, fine" I sighed.
His mouth formed into a weak smile, he leaned in and kissed my cheek. I couldn't help but smile back. He took my hand and walked me back to the bus.

*
It was pretty late when we got back to the bus. The rest of the guys were nowhere to be seen, probably still at the bar. We took off our wet clothes and dried off. Andy got into his bunk, I was just about to climb up into mine then I got flashbacks of what happened to me after the party with Ronnie. I stared at my bunk. The thought of sleeping alone made my chest tighten and my heartbeat quicken.
"Uhm.. Andy.." I nervously said.
He held open his covers and gestured for me to join him. I didn't need to tell him how I was feeling, he knew from my body language.
"Come here, Little Hurricane"
I gently climbed into his bunk and pressed my bare back against his smooth chest. He wrapped his arm around me and softly kissed my shoulder. His fingers idly traced my arm, making me feel safe and sleepy.

*

I hadn't realised I had fallen asleep until I was jolted awake by a nightmare. I dreamt of Ronnie again. Even though he didn't get the chance to enter me or physically harm me in any way, the thought of his grimy hands touching my body, restraining me was enough to haunt my dreams.
Thankfully this time I didn't wake up screaming and Andy was still asleep. I stared at his cute sleeping self. His hair was matted from the pillow, and his mouth slightly open as his breathed deep breaths.
Damn, he was so cute when he wasn't awake and being an asshole.
I needed a cigarette before I could go back to sleep, to put me at ease. I found one of Andy's shirts laying on the ground and slipped it over my naked body. It shouldn't be too cold outside.
I crouched on the ground and rested my back against the bus. As I lit my cigarette, the bus door opened. CC exited, and got a fright when he saw me.
"Jesus [Name], you fucking scared me"
I giggled a little.
"I'm sorry"
He crouched down beside me and lit his own cigarette. We sat in silence for a while and it was awkward. I didn't know what to say, because no matter what I said I didn't know how he was going to react.
"So how are things with you and Leda?" I asked. I couldn't hold it in any longer. I was too curious, I had to know.
"Who?" he questioned. I wasn't expecting that response from him.
"My friend. Leda. Purple hair. You were making out with her at the party before you walked in on me, well, uhm.. you know. Before you walked in on that whole situation"
"Oh yeah, purple haired chick. I haven't seen her since that night. To be honest I'm pretty sworn of dating for a while" he said.
Ouch. Low blow CC.
"CC, I don't know if I've ever told you that I'm sorry for all that I've done to you. I put you through hell and you didn't deserve it"
My heart went out to CC, it really did. He was once my best friend. If anybody else had put him through what I did, I would have killed them for him.
He took a drag of his cigarette and blew out the smoke.
"Don't worry about it. I'm over it. Plus, we were never meant to be. It was always going to be you and Andy" he finally turned to face me, meeting a confused face.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"I see the way you look at him on stage. Your eyes sparkle, filled with awe. You look at him in a way you never looked at me"
"CC.."
"And it's not just you [name], you've changed him too. You know since meeting you, he hasn't been with any other girl since? He used to have a different girl every week before you came along, you changed all of that" CC smiled at me.
It gave me butterflies to think that Andy hadn't been with anyone else, considering his history. Did he really like me that much? I think CC was happy about the change too. Andy was his friend after all, and he was proud to see him change for the better. All I could do was smile.
CC spoke again;
"I'm happy for you. I really am. Maybe we should have stayed friends and never taken things further"
"We can still be friends" I said excitedly. "I mean, if you want to.."
"Of course I want too" CC smiled. "It's been killing me all these weeks finding funny videos and not being able to laugh at them with you"
An even bigger smile spread across his face, revealing his little gap tooth.
I laughed and he laughed too.
"Well I hope you saved them all, because I'm expecting you to show me all of them!" I exclaimed.
"Of course" he chuckled.
"Hugs?" I asked.
Without warning CC crashed into me, squeezing me tight and giving me one of his famous CC hugs.
*
I slept night, nightmare free, in Andy's arms.

Notes

So I haven't updated in well over a year.
I have no excuse other than the fact that I'm trash x3
Enjoy!
-Lauren x