Heart of Fire

Summer school and the rest of my vacation was over and today will be my first day as a highschool student. Im so excited... not!
I already know that everyone of my last grade will be in this school too, so it will be just like the last 2 years. Annoying as hell.

Even the uniform was the same, so I didn't have to buy a new one and change anything, I could still wear my old ones. This time I woke up early, but I weren't that hungry so like usual I only eat an apple as breakfast. I know it's not healthy to eat so little but when i'm not feeling hungry I can't do anything. I went to school by bus nd it was the same as before no one wanted me to sit next to them so I stood two hours in the bus.

What changed was the school building was further away from the bus stop and I got a new locker which was still clean and shiny. But that won't last long.

I got my timetable and a map of the school. It was big, bigger than the middle school was.
the first two lessons were homeroom. They explained when will be the first exams, the summer fest and that we will be going on a school trip to France after the autmn vacation also that on the last day before christmas there will be a prom with the topic 'a night like a fairytale'. When the teache was done he left the room. Everyone started to discuss who will be the Prom Queen and King. Most of them said it would be definitely Shizuka. Then I heard something that made me furious "I think the best Prom King will be Hiro, he's so hot, have you seen his abs? He and Shizuka would be the hottest couple of this school history"
I bore my long nails into my palms and mumbled "they didn't say that, they didn't. I won't let this happen never. Not with this vixen, he's mine!"
"Did you say something Freak?"
I looked up and saw Rumi and her followers. Out of all people who could be in my class, why her again?!
"No, I didn't say anything and now stop shoving your fake boobs into my face and turn around."
I said through gritted teeth. "Awww is SluttyKitty, jealous becaus I HAVE boobs?"
Everyone laughed, it was my sore point but I didn't want that they noticed it so I didn't run away like I truly wanted.
"At least mine are natural and I didn't need to pay for them or wear huge push up bras" I said sweetly to her. "You little slut!"
Then she slapped me across my cheek, it stung. I had two options:
1. Slap her back and then the whle class will stand behind her back.
2. Be a coward and do nothing.
I decided for the first option and slapped her as hard as I could across her cheek before running away when I saw how everyone jumped out of their seats.
I hid myself in the infirmary, I told the nurse that I had a stomach ache, she gave me a tea and told me to lie down.

The bell rung and I went to my locker to get my money. On the ground before my locker lay my books torn to pieces and they were soaked. On my locker were scrawled over again, this time there stood "Go die freak, rot in hell whore, you will regret being born" I teared up, I were so stupid to think that in this school it would be different it was still the same shit. Why am I a freak? why am I a slut or whore? I'm still a virgin for gods sake!

I took my money and walked to the cafeteria, there I got an apple, small bowl of chicken soup and a bottle of water. I looked around for an empty table and went across the hall full of students, when someone suddenly stand before me. I looked up it was Rumi and behind her were the tabe with the popular students. Shizuka sat there also, then my eyes fell on Hiro. He looked at me shortly but then looked away the next thing that happened hurt me more than any physical attack. Shizuka fed him and he smiled at her while she pressed herself on him.
"Hey SluttyKitty." I looked back to Rumi, "is the little whore, anorexic now to get more attention?" She asks smirking and took the bowl looking at it, she showed the guys next to her the bowl and one of them spit into it. She took a spoon and hold it on my lips "Open your lose mouth. Here comes something disgusting for the little disgusting SluttyKitty." I shook my head and two of the boys stood up and hold my arms tightly, I tried to push them away but they were much stronger than me. Rumi pressed the spoon harder against my lips but I shook my head, then Shizuka stood up. "Stop!" I widened my eyes and looked at her shocked, she would never help me, she took the spoon and looked at it disgusted.

Then she looked at me and smirked, "Come on little Kitty open your mouth. You don't want the food to get spoiled right? Be a good little Kitty~" She says with her annoying high pitched voice. I shook my head slighty. "Rumi, open her mouth."
Rumi came over to me and hold my nose with, boring her fingernails into my skin. I opened my mouth and gasps out of pain and because I couldn't breath. Shizuka shove the spoon into my mouth, before filling it up again and shoving it again in my mouth. It burned my throat, I couldn't breath and the thought alone that some jerk spat into it made me feel nauseaus. After a few spoons more I couldn't take it anymore and sit everything out, the guys who held me let me go and I sunk to my knees still spitting everything out and coughing, I held my throat that felt like it was on fire.

"Tsk Tsk, you bad little kitty. Look what a mess you've done." Shizuka said I looked up to her. "Your bad behaviour and ungratefulness against your older sister, must be punished. Don't you think?"
Shizuka hold the bowl over my head and pours the contend over my head. I screamed because it was still hot. "Awww poor little Kitten, is it hot?" She asks 'sweetly' and emptied the water bottle over my head. "Better?"
The bell rung and all the students left, I looked at Hiro but he also left.
"Hiro..." I called softly but he didn't hear me.

I sat alone in the cafeteria and cried. I felt humiliated and everyone watched, no one helped me.
Hiro why? You still love me right?

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