Heart of Fire

After the incident at the cafeteria Hiro came over to our house when everyone was out and he apologized to me. He said he loved me and it hurt him to see me like this, we cuddled and watched movies till he had to go.

Time went slowly it was a month since the incident in the cafeteria, now it was Friday. I got out of bed and everything hurt. It was a daily routine to beat the shit out of me since a month. Mostly girls, because somehow it leaked out that Hiro and I were a couple. Someone made a photo of us kissing and hung it as a poster on the bulletin board at the entrance of the school.

Even with the things that happened I were so excited, today. It was Hiros birthday and I baked a cake for him. I showered and then I dressed up for school and covered the bruises with make up, I didn't want to go but I had to. My attendance register was perfect and I didn't want this to change so I drag myself to school everyday whatever happened in this building. Cherry-Neechan told me to be strong and fight, I won't let her down. When I got into school I looked on my timetable after homeroom I had P.E. I hate this class.

Homeroom was over and then there was lunch, I quickly went to the cafeteria grabbed a cereal bar and a bottle of water, before I rushed out and upstairs to the rooftop. I eat the cereal bar and drank my water while looking over to the forest that enclosed almost the whole school. I sighed when the bell rung again too quickly. I didn't want to got to P.E.
I went to my locker and grabbed my workout clothes it was also an uniform everyone wear the same sports clothes. The only different were the underwear and shoes.

I went ino the gym and stood in a corner far away from the others. Some guys ran around and the others stood in groups chattering loudly. When the teacher came in everyone got quiet. "Today we will do gymnastics as a warm up and then we will play basketball." I groaned softly I hate basketball like hell. So we did some gymnastic it were easy exercises.
But then there was basketball. "Here come hell..." I mumbled.

At the end I were in Rumis team. Of every teams I were in hers, it's official my life sucks. We started playing, or more like I pretended to play.
I felt a sharp pain on my head and I sunk to my knees, when I looked up I saw Rumi smirking. "Oh SluttyKitty did I hurt you? I'm sooo sorry" I shrugged it off and stood up
walking over to her "I would be sorry too, if I were you. For annoying others with your presence. Fake ass bitch." I hissed before walking to the toilets. After I locked the door
I sat down on the ground, my head still hurting. I sobbed softly "why does everyone hate me so much? What have I done to deserve this? It's not my fault I were born I didn't ask for it."

I stayed in the toilet till P.E. was over then I walked slowly to the changing room. I opened the locker were my uniform was in and got a shock. My uniform was soaking and ripped to shreds. My hard work lay there ruined, my eyes filled with tears, I worked the full summer vacation to buy this school uniform. I grabbed the remains and tossed them in the bin, then I left the changing room, we had only one class anyway and that was an elective course. I went to the music room and sat down, this was my favourite class, even when some jerks were in it. Today everyone had to play a song. I were the last to perform and I've chosen "Murderous Urge" from Yohio, he always was one of my favourite singers, but he's from sweden and he doesn't come oftn to Japan, so I never were on a concert.

I walked to the frond and took a electric guitar before starting to play.

My heart is beating faster, faster
There is an urge inside of me
That special day I glanced into the
unchangeable reality

The ones of you who called me a liar
I have a big surprise for you
You were the ones that made me suffer
Now i will make you suffer too

I looked at the students, at everyone who took part in turning my life to hell. While still singing.

Listen closely to the words I say
You will not be able to change me

All the things you said echoes in my head
and it's all because of my murderous urge
Right now I feel no pain
I will make you pay
Make you fade away
Like a flower my true color never change
You'll not be able to kill me

The teacher interrupted me, "This is a elite Highschool! And here's no place for such a grotesk rubbish!" he screamed and suspended me from this course. I rolled my eyes and walked out from the school building. I drove home with the bus.

At home I let some water in the bathtub, and sat in it sighing an close my eyes.

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