Heart of Fire

It was a week now that I moved in with the boys.

Andy went shopping with me, we were in different stores when I saw a hair salon. I pulled slightly on Andys shirt. "Something wrong Kitten?" He bent down to me and I pointed at the hair salon. "You wanna change your hair?" I nodded and leaned over whispering in his ear "c-colour"

I only spoke with Andy and when I started to talk to him he didn't even laugh at my accent but hugged me smiling. "Which colour do you want?"
I shook my head, I didn't want to tell him.
He only nodded chuckling and led me to the hair salon, then he walked over to the cafè that was next to the salon.

I walked over to the woman and told her what I wanted to have done with my hair. On one side it was hard to talk with a complete stranger but I wanted a change so I had to do it.

They dyed my hair and then they curled my hair. When they were done I looked into the mirror. It wasn't a huge change but somehow I liked it.

I paid them before leaving the salon then I entered the cafè and searched for Andy.

When I found him I walked over to him and sat down, he looked up and widened his eyes "Kitten?"
I nodded smiling slightly at him, he stood up and hugged me "You look so cute, little Kitten"
I giggled softly and hugged him back.

We sat down and he gave me the menu "What do you want to eat Kitten? I pay."
I bit my lower lip and shook my head, shoving the menu back to him I whispered "I-I'm not hungry"
He sighed and ordered pancakes for both of us.

When we got the pancakes he told me to eat, so I ate. I didn't want to disappoint him. I ate slowly because at the first bite I already felt full and sick. When I were done with eating I stood up "T-toilet"

I walked to the restroom and closed the door behind me, I felt so nauseous. And then I vomit everything I ate.
You're such an ungrateful and pathetic bitch!
I heard this voice shout again. While everyone maybe thought that I were okey or didn't care, I still wasn't. But I hid it behind fake smiles, even in front of Andy. I liked him, when I'm crying in the night he always suddenly showed up. I cried again, I felt guilty, he paid this food for me and cares for me but I waste it again.

Someone knocked on the door, "Kitten are you still in there?" Andy asked. I rinsed my mouth quickly and opened the door smiling brightly at him. "D-done" I whispered, he chuckled and we left the cafè. "Kitty, we need to buy you a bikini. Cc wants to go to the beach desperately" he laughed but I shook my head quickly. I didn't want to swim, they will see my ugly body. "You can't swim?" I nodded. "Don't be afraid I will tech you" Andy smiled at me and I sighed.

We entered a shop with lingerie and beach wear. I gulped.
I took a swimsuit but Andy shook his head, "No, with this body you can easily wear a bikini." So he chose a bikini for me, it was too revealing for my taste but I didn't say anything. He bought it and we drove home.

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