Maybe there's still hope
Goodbye hell , hello heaven
I woke up on June 10th to Ella sitting on me.
" what the fuck?" I groaned pushing her off and hiding in my covers.
" up now" she hissed yanking the covers off. I curled in a ball.
" no.." I wined
" last day of school now come on" she said trying to drag me off the bed which ended with me falling off on top of her.
" Christ sakes I'm up" I groaned standing up and holding my hand out for her. She took it and stood up.
"Good now get dressed and ill drive you" she said and walked away. I closed the door and went to get ready.
It's been two months and things have gotten better. I finally got my cast off. Also Within the past 2 months I've managed to pass the 11th grade, hopefully. It all counts on this final, Math not that I was going to the next grade but it still meant something if I passed.
Ever since that Monday school got better, kids stopped messing with me and if they did, I stood my ground. Burn bright was going great. We currently released a small e.p with 5 songs that was a hit.
My depressions been off and on but I'm trying not to let it control me. The guys released wretched and divine and everything was going good.
I put on my asking Alexandria shirt and red skinny jeans. I left my room and walked down the stairs in the living room. Jake and Ella were on the couch kissing.
" kid in the room keep it PG" I shouted and they pulled apart blushing.
" says the girl who kisses cc every chance she can" jake said and I flipped him off. He laughed and Ella got up.
" let's go child time for school" she said and got up .
" I don't even want to take this i don't even care" I wined
" well you should care, if you fail I'll make you re do the year" jake said and I looked at him.
" you wouldn't dare" I said
" try me" he smirked and I sighed.
" fine" he got up and kissed my head.
" let's go " Ella said laughing as she guided me out the door.
" love you!" Jake yelled
" love you too freak!" I shouted closing the door. Ella was smirking.
" what?" I asked and she shook her head walking to the car.
" nothing it's just you and him are so much alike it's funny to see you butt heads "
I shook my head as I put my seatbelt on.
" you know he waited forever to finally meet you" she said looking at me as she pulled out.
" really?"
" yeah, he's been begging your parents ever since last year but they said you couldn't handle it, until they randomly called one day " she said nodding her head and turning down the street with the school.
" wow.." I said and she nodded again as she pulled in.
" you mean a lot to him, an the rest, and to us girls."
" I know, they mean the world to me, they're pains in my ass but I love them "
She laughed
" yeah they're idiots but they're amazing, now go pass your finals and ill be here waiting for you at 11" she said and I nodded getting out and shutting the door. I walked to the doors and took a breath. This was it, my last day of school ever.
I made my way to my math room taking in the school for one last time hopefully. I walked in just as the bell rang. I took my seat and Justin followed.
" hey! " he said ad I smiled
" hey there"
" nervous?" He asked and I shrugged
" I don't know partly"
" you'll do fine" he said just as the teacher handed us the final. This was it.
I finished my exam and brought it to the teacher. I stood anxiously as I watched her mark it. My leg was bouncing up and down as I watched the ink of the pen go fast down the page. She flipped it and wrote a number on it and circled it.
She turned it to me and it read 82. I sighed in relief and she laughed.
" good job, it was a pleasure having you in class these last 2 months" she said shaking my hand.
" thank you" I said and walked back to my desk as I waited for the period to be over. I looked at Justin who gave me a thumbs up and went back to his work.
When the bell rang I shot up and Justin laughed.
" wooh wooh someone's happy" he teased walking out.
" I'm free! No more school ever!" I shouted and he laughed again slinging his arm around me.
" don't forget about me when your all famous" he said
" what's your name again?" I asked and he laughed walking out the doors.
" ha ha very funny" he pouted and stopped giving me a hug.
" don't be a stranger, see you around" he said and walked to his bus. I saw Ella in the parking lot and went to walk when gen walked in front of me. This would be fun.
" have a nice summer fag" she shouted and I clenched my fist but un clenched it .
" have a nice summer gen I can't wait to never see you again." I smiled and walked past her. I turned around still walking backwards.
" try to avoid direct sunlight, wouldn't want your plastic body to melt" i shouted as I smirked holding my middle finger up. Her mouth widened and I turned around as I came up to Ella's car jake was in it.
The windows were rolled down and Ella was laughing as I got in.
" Jesus Christ Jess I really love you sometimes" Ella said laughing.
" ha you liked that?" I asked and she nodded
" very much so"
" I agree that was a good one, how'd your test go?" Jake asked as he started to drive.
"I passed" I said and he smiled
" good job" he said
My phone went off and I picked it up.
" hey"
" Jess!!" It was Matt his voice was full of excitement.
" hey Matt what's up why are you all crazy?"
" ill tell you why! jess! we're playing warped tour !" He shouted and my mouth hung open
" no way! How!" I screamed causing Ella to look at me weird.
"Ill explain in a minute" I mouthed and she nodded before turning back around.
" a band bailed so were playing all the dates!!" He said and I smiled
" no way!! That's in 6 days, we need to have transportation, and a set list" I said starting to get worried.
" we'll we are taking a 16 passenger van and a trailer as for the set list, 2 songs from our e.p , 4 from our earlier cd and then some covers but we need to practice our asses off" he said and I smiled
" I can't believe it" I said
" I know. Who knew wed get so far" he said just as jake pulled up to cc's house.
" I have to go ill call you tomorrow" I said
" bye!" He shouted.
I laughed and hung up as Ella and jake got out. I followed behind them.
" so what was that about?" Ella asked
" I'll explain inside" I said just as cc opened the door. He grabbed me and hugged me tight.
"Hey "
I hugged him back and reached up and kissed him
" don't mind us" jake said walking past. Cc laughed and let them pass.
" so how'd the final go?" Cc asked closing the door and walking to the living room.
" I passed"
" that's my girl" he shouted as we went in the room. Andy ,Juliet ,Ashley, jinxx ,and Sammi were there.
" I take it you passed?" Andy asked and I nodded.
" good job! See wasn't it worth it don't you feel good?" Jinxx asked and I shook my head.
" no"
he laughed
" We'll we should start practicing for warped" Andy said standing up.
" wait! I have big news " I said and they all starred.
" go on.." Ashley said an I smiled.
" burn brights going to be on warped tour!" I said and try all smiled
" no way?!" Andy said and I nodded. Cc picked me up by my waist and spun me.
" we get to tour together!" He exclaimed and the rest joined the hug as cc set me down.
" how are you going to get there though you have no bus" jinxx said as we released.
" they have a 16 passenger van that were using"
" oh god the van stage have fun" jake said and I laughed
"that's still amazing!" Juliet said.
" I know I can't believe it! Im so excited" I said
Cc kissed my cheek.
" we'll I think that means we need To go shopping" Sammi said and I groaned.
" come on you need stuff for warped tour!" She said and I sighed
" I guess"
" yay!" Sammi said hi-fiveing Ella.
" as I said last time Sammi, be gentle she's just a child" Andy said laughing as he kissed Juliet good bye and patted my head.
" let's go!" Juliet said walking out.
" have fun" jake said hugging me and walking after Andy. Ashley messed my hair up and jinxx hugged me.
Cc hugged me and kissed my lips.
" I'll see you later, I'm taking you out tonight , ill pick you up by 5" he said and I smiled.
" can't wait"
He kissed my lips again and walked down the hall.
I heard honking and I laughed as I ran out the door. I got in the backseat next to Juliet. As we drove along my stomach was going crazy half about warped and half about me and cc's date. We haven't had an official date just got stuff to eat or something but always was with the guys.
After 4 hours of shopping at a mix of journeys, hot topic, and target it was 4 and i had everything I needed ad probably more.
Me and Ella got dropped off and headed to my room to put my stuff in it. We put it in the corner and I fell on my bed.
" dear god I hate shopping" I said and she chuckled.
" your such a guy"
" am not.." I wined and she laughed.
She got up and want to my top drawer and pulled out a pair of black boxers. My face reddened.
" sure not a guy" she muttered. I threw my pillow at her.
" oh fuck off they're comfy" I said and she laughed
" oh I'm joking, calm down little one" she said as I went through the bags finding something for tonight.
" ohh someone looking for something to impress cc on their date"
" shut up, " I muttered.
We heard a door slam.
" honey I home!" Jake yelled and we laughed.
" get dressed ill be downstairs " she said and left closing the door.
I looked at what I had on and decided to change it to black skinny jeans and a white skellington tank top. I straightened my hair and put on a line of eye liner. I looked in the mirror and looked at myself. My eyes were they're usual Carmel color with green tints. I smiled and checked my phone. It was 4:45 and I had one message from cc.
- be there soon<3
I smiled before I put it in my pocket. I opened the door and went down the stairs. Jake and Ella were on the couch watching tv. I sat on the chair and jake looked at Me.
"Hey there wooh. I don't think I've ever seen you not in a band tshirt" jake teased and I flipped him off.
" oh fuck off Jacob" I said.
" ahh you love me" he said getting up and sitting on my lap. I huffed at the weight.
" your so fat get off" I said and he chuckled
" don't think I will"
" jake.." I wined and saw Ella laughing. I sighed.
I grabbed his neck and threw him off making him land on the ground. I sat on his back.
" get off!" He yelled but it was muffled by the carpet.
Just then cc walked in chuckling. He had on black skin tight jeans and a plain black tshirt.
" hey jake, how is it down there?" He asked
Jake raised his middle finger.
Cc came over and took my hand helping me up. Jake got up and fixed his hair.
" thanks for suffocating me"
" anytime" I smirked.
" ready to go?" Cc asked and I nodded smiling.
" take care of her" jake said and cc nodded.
" of course"
" have fun" he said and went to sit with Ella who smirked at me.
Cc put his arm around me as we walked out the door. We got in the car and he looked at me smiling.
" finally we get a whole night to our selfs no interruptions, or idiots just me and you" he said leaning and kissing my lips. He pulled away and started the car leaving one hand entwined with one of mine. This was going to be a great night I thought as I sat back in the seat smiling.
" what the fuck?" I groaned pushing her off and hiding in my covers.
" up now" she hissed yanking the covers off. I curled in a ball.
" no.." I wined
" last day of school now come on" she said trying to drag me off the bed which ended with me falling off on top of her.
" Christ sakes I'm up" I groaned standing up and holding my hand out for her. She took it and stood up.
"Good now get dressed and ill drive you" she said and walked away. I closed the door and went to get ready.
It's been two months and things have gotten better. I finally got my cast off. Also Within the past 2 months I've managed to pass the 11th grade, hopefully. It all counts on this final, Math not that I was going to the next grade but it still meant something if I passed.
Ever since that Monday school got better, kids stopped messing with me and if they did, I stood my ground. Burn bright was going great. We currently released a small e.p with 5 songs that was a hit.
My depressions been off and on but I'm trying not to let it control me. The guys released wretched and divine and everything was going good.
I put on my asking Alexandria shirt and red skinny jeans. I left my room and walked down the stairs in the living room. Jake and Ella were on the couch kissing.
" kid in the room keep it PG" I shouted and they pulled apart blushing.
" says the girl who kisses cc every chance she can" jake said and I flipped him off. He laughed and Ella got up.
" let's go child time for school" she said and got up .
" I don't even want to take this i don't even care" I wined
" well you should care, if you fail I'll make you re do the year" jake said and I looked at him.
" you wouldn't dare" I said
" try me" he smirked and I sighed.
" fine" he got up and kissed my head.
" let's go " Ella said laughing as she guided me out the door.
" love you!" Jake yelled
" love you too freak!" I shouted closing the door. Ella was smirking.
" what?" I asked and she shook her head walking to the car.
" nothing it's just you and him are so much alike it's funny to see you butt heads "
I shook my head as I put my seatbelt on.
" you know he waited forever to finally meet you" she said looking at me as she pulled out.
" really?"
" yeah, he's been begging your parents ever since last year but they said you couldn't handle it, until they randomly called one day " she said nodding her head and turning down the street with the school.
" wow.." I said and she nodded again as she pulled in.
" you mean a lot to him, an the rest, and to us girls."
" I know, they mean the world to me, they're pains in my ass but I love them "
She laughed
" yeah they're idiots but they're amazing, now go pass your finals and ill be here waiting for you at 11" she said and I nodded getting out and shutting the door. I walked to the doors and took a breath. This was it, my last day of school ever.
I made my way to my math room taking in the school for one last time hopefully. I walked in just as the bell rang. I took my seat and Justin followed.
" hey! " he said ad I smiled
" hey there"
" nervous?" He asked and I shrugged
" I don't know partly"
" you'll do fine" he said just as the teacher handed us the final. This was it.
I finished my exam and brought it to the teacher. I stood anxiously as I watched her mark it. My leg was bouncing up and down as I watched the ink of the pen go fast down the page. She flipped it and wrote a number on it and circled it.
She turned it to me and it read 82. I sighed in relief and she laughed.
" good job, it was a pleasure having you in class these last 2 months" she said shaking my hand.
" thank you" I said and walked back to my desk as I waited for the period to be over. I looked at Justin who gave me a thumbs up and went back to his work.
When the bell rang I shot up and Justin laughed.
" wooh wooh someone's happy" he teased walking out.
" I'm free! No more school ever!" I shouted and he laughed again slinging his arm around me.
" don't forget about me when your all famous" he said
" what's your name again?" I asked and he laughed walking out the doors.
" ha ha very funny" he pouted and stopped giving me a hug.
" don't be a stranger, see you around" he said and walked to his bus. I saw Ella in the parking lot and went to walk when gen walked in front of me. This would be fun.
" have a nice summer fag" she shouted and I clenched my fist but un clenched it .
" have a nice summer gen I can't wait to never see you again." I smiled and walked past her. I turned around still walking backwards.
" try to avoid direct sunlight, wouldn't want your plastic body to melt" i shouted as I smirked holding my middle finger up. Her mouth widened and I turned around as I came up to Ella's car jake was in it.
The windows were rolled down and Ella was laughing as I got in.
" Jesus Christ Jess I really love you sometimes" Ella said laughing.
" ha you liked that?" I asked and she nodded
" very much so"
" I agree that was a good one, how'd your test go?" Jake asked as he started to drive.
"I passed" I said and he smiled
" good job" he said
My phone went off and I picked it up.
" hey"
" Jess!!" It was Matt his voice was full of excitement.
" hey Matt what's up why are you all crazy?"
" ill tell you why! jess! we're playing warped tour !" He shouted and my mouth hung open
" no way! How!" I screamed causing Ella to look at me weird.
"Ill explain in a minute" I mouthed and she nodded before turning back around.
" a band bailed so were playing all the dates!!" He said and I smiled
" no way!! That's in 6 days, we need to have transportation, and a set list" I said starting to get worried.
" we'll we are taking a 16 passenger van and a trailer as for the set list, 2 songs from our e.p , 4 from our earlier cd and then some covers but we need to practice our asses off" he said and I smiled
" I can't believe it" I said
" I know. Who knew wed get so far" he said just as jake pulled up to cc's house.
" I have to go ill call you tomorrow" I said
" bye!" He shouted.
I laughed and hung up as Ella and jake got out. I followed behind them.
" so what was that about?" Ella asked
" I'll explain inside" I said just as cc opened the door. He grabbed me and hugged me tight.
"Hey "
I hugged him back and reached up and kissed him
" don't mind us" jake said walking past. Cc laughed and let them pass.
" so how'd the final go?" Cc asked closing the door and walking to the living room.
" I passed"
" that's my girl" he shouted as we went in the room. Andy ,Juliet ,Ashley, jinxx ,and Sammi were there.
" I take it you passed?" Andy asked and I nodded.
" good job! See wasn't it worth it don't you feel good?" Jinxx asked and I shook my head.
" no"
he laughed
" We'll we should start practicing for warped" Andy said standing up.
" wait! I have big news " I said and they all starred.
" go on.." Ashley said an I smiled.
" burn brights going to be on warped tour!" I said and try all smiled
" no way?!" Andy said and I nodded. Cc picked me up by my waist and spun me.
" we get to tour together!" He exclaimed and the rest joined the hug as cc set me down.
" how are you going to get there though you have no bus" jinxx said as we released.
" they have a 16 passenger van that were using"
" oh god the van stage have fun" jake said and I laughed
"that's still amazing!" Juliet said.
" I know I can't believe it! Im so excited" I said
Cc kissed my cheek.
" we'll I think that means we need To go shopping" Sammi said and I groaned.
" come on you need stuff for warped tour!" She said and I sighed
" I guess"
" yay!" Sammi said hi-fiveing Ella.
" as I said last time Sammi, be gentle she's just a child" Andy said laughing as he kissed Juliet good bye and patted my head.
" let's go!" Juliet said walking out.
" have fun" jake said hugging me and walking after Andy. Ashley messed my hair up and jinxx hugged me.
Cc hugged me and kissed my lips.
" I'll see you later, I'm taking you out tonight , ill pick you up by 5" he said and I smiled.
" can't wait"
He kissed my lips again and walked down the hall.
I heard honking and I laughed as I ran out the door. I got in the backseat next to Juliet. As we drove along my stomach was going crazy half about warped and half about me and cc's date. We haven't had an official date just got stuff to eat or something but always was with the guys.
After 4 hours of shopping at a mix of journeys, hot topic, and target it was 4 and i had everything I needed ad probably more.
Me and Ella got dropped off and headed to my room to put my stuff in it. We put it in the corner and I fell on my bed.
" dear god I hate shopping" I said and she chuckled.
" your such a guy"
" am not.." I wined and she laughed.
She got up and want to my top drawer and pulled out a pair of black boxers. My face reddened.
" sure not a guy" she muttered. I threw my pillow at her.
" oh fuck off they're comfy" I said and she laughed
" oh I'm joking, calm down little one" she said as I went through the bags finding something for tonight.
" ohh someone looking for something to impress cc on their date"
" shut up, " I muttered.
We heard a door slam.
" honey I home!" Jake yelled and we laughed.
" get dressed ill be downstairs " she said and left closing the door.
I looked at what I had on and decided to change it to black skinny jeans and a white skellington tank top. I straightened my hair and put on a line of eye liner. I looked in the mirror and looked at myself. My eyes were they're usual Carmel color with green tints. I smiled and checked my phone. It was 4:45 and I had one message from cc.
- be there soon<3
I smiled before I put it in my pocket. I opened the door and went down the stairs. Jake and Ella were on the couch watching tv. I sat on the chair and jake looked at Me.
"Hey there wooh. I don't think I've ever seen you not in a band tshirt" jake teased and I flipped him off.
" oh fuck off Jacob" I said.
" ahh you love me" he said getting up and sitting on my lap. I huffed at the weight.
" your so fat get off" I said and he chuckled
" don't think I will"
" jake.." I wined and saw Ella laughing. I sighed.
I grabbed his neck and threw him off making him land on the ground. I sat on his back.
" get off!" He yelled but it was muffled by the carpet.
Just then cc walked in chuckling. He had on black skin tight jeans and a plain black tshirt.
" hey jake, how is it down there?" He asked
Jake raised his middle finger.
Cc came over and took my hand helping me up. Jake got up and fixed his hair.
" thanks for suffocating me"
" anytime" I smirked.
" ready to go?" Cc asked and I nodded smiling.
" take care of her" jake said and cc nodded.
" of course"
" have fun" he said and went to sit with Ella who smirked at me.
Cc put his arm around me as we walked out the door. We got in the car and he looked at me smiling.
" finally we get a whole night to our selfs no interruptions, or idiots just me and you" he said leaning and kissing my lips. He pulled away and started the car leaving one hand entwined with one of mine. This was going to be a great night I thought as I sat back in the seat smiling.
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2/20/14