Maybe there's still hope
At the edge
I woke up alone. Cc came in last night but he must of left. I looked at my phone and saw it was 11. I sighed and got up. My hand killed and I could barley open it. I was still in the cloths from yesterday and my hair was a mess. I brushed it quickly using my left hand.
I sighed. I didn't want to face everybody.I got up slowly and walked down the hall. I heard them talking in the living room. I walked down silently. I went in the living room and they all looked at me.cc got up and kissed my head.I sat on the couch and he sat next to me putting his arm around my waist.
" hey Jess" Sammi said smiling. I gave a soft one back.
" hey." I mumbled.
" feeling a little better?" Jinx asked and I shook my head.They frowned.
" I'm sorry about the walls jake.. Il pay to fix them" I said and jake laughed slightly .
" don't worry about it, I'll fix them, I am worried about your hand though" he said and I looked at him.
" I looked at it last night" he said.
" it's fine" I mumbled and cc shifted. He touched it and I winced.
" fine you say?"Andy asked raising his eyebrow. I sighed.
cc lifted my wrist up and looked at it.
" holy fuck" he said.
" it's way worse then last night"
They all got up and went over to me.
" Jess you need to get this looked at ,it looks like it hurts like a bitch" Ashley said and I laughed softly.
" it does"
" I'll take you" Ella said
"Okay" I mumbled
" go get dressed well go now" she said and I sighed getting up and walking slowly up the stairs. My body felt hollow. My eyes were dry and my heart was aching even more.
I kept on the jeans I had on from yesterdat and took my shirt off. I put on an A day to remember shirt and brushed my hair not bothering to do makeup or anything. I trudged down the stairs And into the living room.
" ready?" I asked and Ella stood up.
" yeah let's go." She smiled and kissed jake.cc came over and hugged me an kissed my lips.
" I love you" he whispered in my ear and I smiled kissing his cheek.
" I love you too"
He smiled and I walked out the door with Ella.
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After waiting about an hour in the E.R i was finally taken in and given x-rays. After they took them me and Ella were siting in a room. I hadn't talked to whole time only nodded and muttered a " yeah" occasionally.
I leaned against her and he put her arm around me.
" it's okay sweety" she said. I gave a weak smile just as the doctor came in. I sat up.
" we'll you did quite a job" he said with a chuckle.
" you fractured all your fingers except your thumb, you'll need a cast on for about a month, not that bad. " he said and I sighed
" sorry kid" Ella said smirking a little
" what color would you like?" The doctor asked standing up.
" black "
He nodded an left to get the stuff.
" hey think of it this way, if the guys are being idiots you can hit them " Ella said I laughed.
" I guess" I said.
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An hour later we arrived back at the house. We got out and walked in. They were all in the kitchen minus Sammi and Juliet , they must have went out somewhere.
" hey how'd it go?" Andy asked and I held up my hand.
" maybe next time you won't go punching walls" Ashley said . I walked over to him and smacked my arm across his head.
" shit" he cursed holding his head. The others were laughing.
" good girl" Andy said patting my head. I chuckled.
" she has weapon now against you smart asses" Ella said and they chuckled again. I smiled softly.
" I'm going to my room" I said.
" wait don't you want to eat? Im sure your starving " jake said and I shook my head.
" I'm fine"
I went over to cc and kissed him.
" do you want me to come up with you?" He asked and I shook my head.
" I just want to be alone" I said and waked past them and up the stairs to my room. I closed the door and slid down it.
I took my phone out and dialed Johnny's number. Part of me wanted him to answer but the other Half knew he wouldn't. It picked up to voicemail and his cheery voice came through.
" hey it's John! Sorry I missed your call, leave a message and ill get back to you"
I smiled alittle as tears fell down my cheek. I missed him like crazy I can't believe my best friend was gone.
I sighed and leaned against the door looking at the ceiling.
Why was god throwing all this on me. I don't know how much more I could take.
I sighed. I didn't want to face everybody.I got up slowly and walked down the hall. I heard them talking in the living room. I walked down silently. I went in the living room and they all looked at me.cc got up and kissed my head.I sat on the couch and he sat next to me putting his arm around my waist.
" hey Jess" Sammi said smiling. I gave a soft one back.
" hey." I mumbled.
" feeling a little better?" Jinx asked and I shook my head.They frowned.
" I'm sorry about the walls jake.. Il pay to fix them" I said and jake laughed slightly .
" don't worry about it, I'll fix them, I am worried about your hand though" he said and I looked at him.
" I looked at it last night" he said.
" it's fine" I mumbled and cc shifted. He touched it and I winced.
" fine you say?"Andy asked raising his eyebrow. I sighed.
cc lifted my wrist up and looked at it.
" holy fuck" he said.
" it's way worse then last night"
They all got up and went over to me.
" Jess you need to get this looked at ,it looks like it hurts like a bitch" Ashley said and I laughed softly.
" it does"
" I'll take you" Ella said
"Okay" I mumbled
" go get dressed well go now" she said and I sighed getting up and walking slowly up the stairs. My body felt hollow. My eyes were dry and my heart was aching even more.
I kept on the jeans I had on from yesterdat and took my shirt off. I put on an A day to remember shirt and brushed my hair not bothering to do makeup or anything. I trudged down the stairs And into the living room.
" ready?" I asked and Ella stood up.
" yeah let's go." She smiled and kissed jake.cc came over and hugged me an kissed my lips.
" I love you" he whispered in my ear and I smiled kissing his cheek.
" I love you too"
He smiled and I walked out the door with Ella.
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After waiting about an hour in the E.R i was finally taken in and given x-rays. After they took them me and Ella were siting in a room. I hadn't talked to whole time only nodded and muttered a " yeah" occasionally.
I leaned against her and he put her arm around me.
" it's okay sweety" she said. I gave a weak smile just as the doctor came in. I sat up.
" we'll you did quite a job" he said with a chuckle.
" you fractured all your fingers except your thumb, you'll need a cast on for about a month, not that bad. " he said and I sighed
" sorry kid" Ella said smirking a little
" what color would you like?" The doctor asked standing up.
" black "
He nodded an left to get the stuff.
" hey think of it this way, if the guys are being idiots you can hit them " Ella said I laughed.
" I guess" I said.
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An hour later we arrived back at the house. We got out and walked in. They were all in the kitchen minus Sammi and Juliet , they must have went out somewhere.
" hey how'd it go?" Andy asked and I held up my hand.
" maybe next time you won't go punching walls" Ashley said . I walked over to him and smacked my arm across his head.
" shit" he cursed holding his head. The others were laughing.
" good girl" Andy said patting my head. I chuckled.
" she has weapon now against you smart asses" Ella said and they chuckled again. I smiled softly.
" I'm going to my room" I said.
" wait don't you want to eat? Im sure your starving " jake said and I shook my head.
" I'm fine"
I went over to cc and kissed him.
" do you want me to come up with you?" He asked and I shook my head.
" I just want to be alone" I said and waked past them and up the stairs to my room. I closed the door and slid down it.
I took my phone out and dialed Johnny's number. Part of me wanted him to answer but the other Half knew he wouldn't. It picked up to voicemail and his cheery voice came through.
" hey it's John! Sorry I missed your call, leave a message and ill get back to you"
I smiled alittle as tears fell down my cheek. I missed him like crazy I can't believe my best friend was gone.
I sighed and leaned against the door looking at the ceiling.
Why was god throwing all this on me. I don't know how much more I could take.
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2/20/14