Listen to while reading - Tongue Tied by Faber Drive

Nikki's POV:

I gasped as Andy reached his other hand up to cup me cheek, a well s promptly bring me down into his lap. I didn't mind; my brain was currently too distracted with the wonderful sensation of his lip ring pressed against my mouth, and the nostalgia feel of our lips moving in sync with one another.

My lungs began to burn with the lack of air, and I knew that I would have to pull away soon, but I didn't want it to end, because when I pulled away, things would end. I just wanted to lose myself in Andy, I wanted to stay in this moment forever, content with the feel of his soft lips pressed against mine. Yet, this was reality, and in reality, dreams do not come true.

We both reluctantly pulled away, but Andy was quick to lean his forehead against my own, breathing in each other's air. When I finally got my breathing under control, a wave of embarrassment and longing passed through me, colouring my cheeks.

Andy was the first to break the tense silence, "I-I, I miss you, Nik."

His confession was enough to make my heart swell, and I fought desperately to stop it; I couldn't be falling for him again. "I-we can't do this again, Andy!" I exclaimed, standing up from his lap and began pacing.

He watched me silently, eyebrows raised, "why not? We both admit we're perfect for only each other. why can't we try again?"

"Because we just can't! It would be a stupid idea, since I'm here, and still in high school, and you're in California, doing god knows what!"

"I'm in a band," he says with a small smile, and for a brief moment, pride floods my chest. He always claimed that he would start a band, and while I knew that he had an amazing singing voice, wasn't too sure fi he would ever create a band.

"That's amazing! Why didn't you tell me sooner?" I ask, turning to face him.

He sighs, "we weren't really on speaking terms Nicole," he adds coldly, and I resist the temptation to wince at the harshness.

Of course, we were, still are broken up. But he still could've called to check in or something. I mean, I kept tin contact with Alex and Oli over the years, why not Andy?

As if reading my thoughts, he hastily adds, "i mean, it would've been awkward to call you out of the blue. And we were broken up as well."

Moments of silence pass between u, none of us wanting to speak up, until I finally give in. "i broke up with you because I felt I no longer knew who you were. You were constantly with Danny, and from the stories I heard, you were doing drugs, Andy. Drinking excessively, staying out late. It's a miracle that you even graduated high school. But I just could't deal with it anymore, especially since you were being so rude to Cody, who is my friend."

He runs a hand anxiously trough his long hair, thinking, "I know I fucked up, Nikki. But, I'm trying to get better, honestly. I don't know what I was doing tow years ago, but I'm done with that shit, mostly anyways. I just miss you so much, miss calling you min, and having you for myself. Please, please baby I will do anything for a second chance, please Nikki."

I look away from him and cross my arms over my chest, blinking back tears. He can't be doing this anymore, he just can't. He broke my heart, he ruined me, why does he insist on hurting me even more?

"Please, say something," he begs.

"I-I can't!" I gasp out, "you ruined me, Andy! I loved you, so much, and you threw it all away, for fucking drugs of all things! I know that you think that I'm the same girl that you loved all those years ago, but I'm not. I've changed, and she's moved on. so should you." My words are coming out through gasps as I try to reign in my sobs.

I curl up around my arms, holding myself as I cry silently. He truly messed me up.

"Nikki, I-"

"Just leave me the hell alone!" I shout, surprising both of us. I've never shouted i my life; I guess I really have changed.

"you know what, no. I'm not losing you again, because I can't live without you. It physically hurts and you're always there, always on my mind. I need you, baby. And I'm not going to give up on us, not this time, and not ever." he pulls me flush against his chest and holds me within his strong arms, keeping me close.

I spin in his arms and slap him hard, across the face. He seems shocked more than hurt as our eyes lock, and my emotions come rushing out as I begin to cry again. He runs his hands through my hair and down my back, soothing me and kissing the top of my head soothingly.

"Don't leave me," I murmur against his chest, my eyes tightly shut.

"Never," he whispers back confidently, kissing my head again.

Notes

BAM!
I liked the chapter tbh, it felt dramatic with the song. Did you listen to the song while reading? did ya, did ya?