Love is a Bitch

I pushed Andy away from me. My hand went to my lips as i stared at him. "Why did you just..." "Don't you get it Alix? I never stopped loving you." He said stepping close to me. "But..What about Juliet?" I took a step back, the back of my legs hitting the bed. Andy gently cupped my face. "I got with Juliet, because i couldn't have you. I thought I could make myself love her, I thought i could get over you. But i couldn't." He moved to kiss me again. I turned my head to the side.
He looked hurt. I couldn't do this to him. Not again. I couldn't take him back. "Get out." I whispered. If he stays he'll get hurt. "Leave!" I shouted. He looked taken back. "What?" He asked. I pushed on his chest. "GET THE FUCK OUT!" I yelled. He stepped back and looked hurt. Suddenly his pain turned to anger. "So, you're going to just shut me out?"
"So what if i do! Just leave already!" I screamed. "I love you Alixa, doesn't that mean anything to you?" "Yes. It means you'll get hurt." My voice dropping back to a whisper. "Oh you stupid girl." He sighed. "I hurt you as much as you hurt me. Give me a chance to fix it."
Tears ran down my face. "Please leave.." "What the fuck ever." He said slamming the door as he left. I sank to the floor, letting the tears go. Sobbing uncontroble, as i made the decsion to end it all. I got up and grabbed the bottles of pills out of my cabinet. I took a combination of them all and went to lay on my bed, waiting for death. "Good bye Andy." I whispered as i drifted off to an unending sleep.

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