Love is a Bitch

Andy looked at me hurt. "Alix.." "Alice." I interrupted. "I go by Alice. I haven't gone by Alix in years.." My voice trailed off. "Why?" Andy sat against the bed board. "It's a long story." I mumbled. "I've got time." Was his only reply. I frowned. Andy grabbed me and pulled me to his chest. "Talk." He demanded.
I sighed and pulled my knees to my chest. "Alix died the day you left." I said looking at him. "I wasn't her anymore. I wasn't happy. I didn't want to go out like Alix did. I didn't want to wear skirts and dresses. I hated myself. I couldn't even look in the mirror without feeling disgusted."
"I've changed Andrew. Look at me and tell me how I can possible be that girl who knew that she was gorgeous. Who knew what she had and prided herself on who she was. So, I started going by Alice. I cut off all my hair, i shaved it all off. After awhile, i started to grow my hair back out..but i couldn't stand it. So i started shaving it into a mohawk."
"I felt so much pain after you left...I'd come to relise that it had been you I'd loved all along Andy. I hated myself for hurting you. And...for hurting Jinxx, he'd always been so sweet to me. I hurt so much inside..I wanted to hurt on the outside too. So i started cutting...I've wanted to end it all so many times. I've come so close to doing it.." "Thats enough." Andy demanded. He stood up fast, almost dumping me into the floor.
"You wanted to know." I said. He whirled on me. "I dont want to hear about you wanting to die, Alix." "Alice!" I corrected. "I dont give a fuck about what your going by, you will always be my Alix." I stared at him. "You will always be mine!" He yelled before his lips met mine.

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