Ambers pov--------------------- me Andy and Juliet finally made it back to the bus and we all sat down. I hadn't stopped crying,if anything my crying had gotten worse. I started to remember all the things that drove me to self harm.all the names,the punches,and...other things. My breathing started picking up. I started to over think and remember every bad thing ever that has happened to me,or because of me.I was so upset,so worried and so horrified with my life that I started to have a panic attack. "amber!breathe!please!"Andy pleaded. I tried but I just Couldn't. I saw a look of worry and anger spread across Andy's features then ran out of the bus shouting Juliet to help me. ''right amber,sweeties down need you to breathe." Juliet said. I nodded and tried to obey. It didn't work at first but gradually my breath began to regain normal speed. Juliet breathed a sigh of relief and smiled "good,now.tell me everything. We haven't had a chance to get to know each other backgrounds fully has told vaguley about yours two childhood and you have told me aspects aswell.but in order to help you ,I need to know it all". I nodded and took a breath."well,growing up I've always been different was really tomboy and I loved rock music. I never fitted in and everyone though I was a freak had no friends,apart from Andy .at the age of 8 I started dressing in band tees and wearing black skinnnys. I was bullied for that aswell.I was called fat.ugly,emo,goth,freak.I was told to go kill myself and this was from age 8 . When I started secondary school at age 11 I was bullied more serveley. I was called a slut,a slag a attention seeking whore. I was called fat ugly and all that shit. After the first few months of year7 I took a razor to my wrist and started self har. I have always been constantly bullied and it didn't help my parents were no help at all. My dad was always working and I hardly got to see him,although I knew he loved me. My mother howevere was an alcoholic and a drug addict. She used to beat me and yell insults at me. At one point,when I turned 17 she tried to sell me to a man in his 50's for sex in order to pay for both of her addictions. Before he could touch me I jumped out of the window and ran. I phoned Andy and him and his parent picked me up. I managed to get a job and an apartment.I met Louis,Ryan and Kyle. Kyle was from Sheffield England,Louis from Newcastle and Ryan from Yorkshire.Thet had moved over to America together to find a singer and guitartist for their band.I moved to LA with Andy and the boys. My boys auditioned me and welcomed me to the band.that's it,apart from the obvious warped tour,recording and shit." I said,a few tears escaping my eyes at the memories of the darkness that is my life. Juliet had her mouth hung open,a couple of tears falling from her eyes."wow,you have gone through so much and have been so srtong and you still are.no one should be made to feel like that. You are a beautiful,strong,amazing,talented young women and they're all just jealous. And as for Ben,he is a cunt that has no right to say those things because he has no idea what yove beend through." I smiled "thank you". We hugged and decided to watch some movies. Andy'sPOV-------------- I ran out of the bus,fuming. My fists were clenched and my blood boiling. I made my way back to the red room to show Ben not to make amber cry. Bens POV---------- As soon as the words left my mouth I felt like shit. I saw amber burst into tears and run out of the club. I stood there,not sure on what to do. I took a sip of my beer and sat down. After about 10 minutes sammi and Ella came running over to me. I was slapped,hard by sammi and punched by Ella."why the fuck would you say that!?! How did you fucking find out!?!"Ella screamed "I swear to god!?! Give me one reason why I shouldn't kill you right here and now!!!" "you sstupid twat,you reaalise what yove done." sammi spat and then she dragged Ella back to jinxx and the guys who all were giving me death stares. I sat there for about half an hour wheb I decided to go out for a smoke. I leant back on the wall and took a long drag of the cancer stick that lie on my lips.only for it to be knocked out of my mouth and onto the floor,as was I as a punch came flying at me. I looked up to see Andy standing there,fist clenched and anger his only expression."you fucking asshole!z!! I'm going to kill you!! How did you even know?!?" Andy screamed as he repeatedly punched me. "stop it!please. Iu'll explain!'' I. Yelled. But Andy still punched me.that was until Danny had lifted him off of him,while shooting me a death glare. "let him explain" Sam said. Andy spat onto the pavement "fine" he grunted "go n then" I nodded and began ''...

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