The Darkness Dies
what do i say?
Ambers POV;
its been 3 days since the clun incident,and i havent even made eye contact with ben.why whould i? he is an asshole. i dont know how he found out about my self harm and its bugging me.i guess i just hve to push it to the back of my mind.
we were in ohio and me and the boys were just getting ready. it took an hour,with the fighting over hair spray,eyeliner and hair straighterners. i was wearing-http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=86330397.
after we had finished,we set off to the stage."im huuunnnngrrry" kyle whined,dragging his feet along thegraasy floor. "you ate like 3 cheesburgers,4 apples,1 cake,a packet of gummy bears and and a choclate bar. how in the shit can you be hungry" louis asked,dumbfounded "its called my stomch digested my fppd and i shat it out and now im empty" kyle retorted "yeah,but seriously?!?! thats unatrual" "you're unatrual" "what the cock os that suppose to mean?!" "you're unatrual,its means you're unatrual.duh! dumbasss" kyle tutted. me and ryan rolled our eyes and walked ahead of them. which didnt work on the fact we wanted to lose them. "tryin' to lose us aye mate?" louis said,failing at an australian accent. "yes,we were.you two are stupid" ryan chuckled. kyle and louis just wiggled their eyebrows aimlessly.i shook my head "what the fuck am i going to do with you lot". suddenley i was tackled to the floor by 9 fully grown men "the fuck?!?! get offof me you dickbags!" i yelled,trying to push andy,ash,jake,jinxx,cc,james,cam,danny and sam off of my body. "nah-uh. your comfy"cc said childshly. "get the fuck off of my you fat cunts!!" i yelled,laughing slightly. "amber,why the fuck are you so skinny?!?!" andy yelled. i kept quiet as everyone removed there selves off of me. i looked at the floor awkwardly,not moving from my spot on the grass. "amber" andy spoke sternly,his filled with love and care. i jumped up "we've got to get to the stage,we're preforming in 15 minutes. come on boys." i said quickly and hurried off. i cant tell andy,not yet. not ever. it would crush him. but he cares. he needs to know . he doesnt,he does,he doesnt. urghh. the voices kept battelimh. what do i say?
its been 3 days since the clun incident,and i havent even made eye contact with ben.why whould i? he is an asshole. i dont know how he found out about my self harm and its bugging me.i guess i just hve to push it to the back of my mind.
we were in ohio and me and the boys were just getting ready. it took an hour,with the fighting over hair spray,eyeliner and hair straighterners. i was wearing-http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=86330397.
after we had finished,we set off to the stage."im huuunnnngrrry" kyle whined,dragging his feet along thegraasy floor. "you ate like 3 cheesburgers,4 apples,1 cake,a packet of gummy bears and and a choclate bar. how in the shit can you be hungry" louis asked,dumbfounded "its called my stomch digested my fppd and i shat it out and now im empty" kyle retorted "yeah,but seriously?!?! thats unatrual" "you're unatrual" "what the cock os that suppose to mean?!" "you're unatrual,its means you're unatrual.duh! dumbasss" kyle tutted. me and ryan rolled our eyes and walked ahead of them. which didnt work on the fact we wanted to lose them. "tryin' to lose us aye mate?" louis said,failing at an australian accent. "yes,we were.you two are stupid" ryan chuckled. kyle and louis just wiggled their eyebrows aimlessly.i shook my head "what the fuck am i going to do with you lot". suddenley i was tackled to the floor by 9 fully grown men "the fuck?!?! get offof me you dickbags!" i yelled,trying to push andy,ash,jake,jinxx,cc,james,cam,danny and sam off of my body. "nah-uh. your comfy"cc said childshly. "get the fuck off of my you fat cunts!!" i yelled,laughing slightly. "amber,why the fuck are you so skinny?!?!" andy yelled. i kept quiet as everyone removed there selves off of me. i looked at the floor awkwardly,not moving from my spot on the grass. "amber" andy spoke sternly,his filled with love and care. i jumped up "we've got to get to the stage,we're preforming in 15 minutes. come on boys." i said quickly and hurried off. i cant tell andy,not yet. not ever. it would crush him. but he cares. he needs to know . he doesnt,he does,he doesnt. urghh. the voices kept battelimh. what do i say?
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12/19/14