Ambers POV: --------------- I looked in the mirror,analysing every hidious point about me.right now,there is not one beautiful part of my body that can even try to tolerate.I sighed and added the finifhing touches to my outfit. I was wearing black super skinny jeans,a black over sized t-shirt and a pair of black vans.I had my usual thick flick of black eyeliner,with a bit Of mascara.I had somed black bracelets and cuffs on my wrists and a sliver chain with a batman pendant around my neck.I grabbed my phone and put it in my front pocket along with some money,and then I put my cigarettes and lighter in my back pocket.I left the bathroom and made my way to the front of the bus where BVB,my boys and AA standing there. "about time"Ben mumbled,crossing his arms across his chest. "sorry,some people try to look decent,love" I said looking him up and down.he grunted and looked away from me."stop it,tonight we are going out to have fun.not to have another one of you stupid arguments"Andy sighed "sorry,let's go out and have some fun" I said,trying to be enthusicac.I looked at Juliet,sammi,Lauren and Ella.they all looked stunning in their tight dresses that hugged their perfect figure just right and their heels,making their legs look longer.I wish I could be as beautiful as them,but I guess I won't."let's go partayy!!''cc yelled "yeah,let's go" ash chuckled. We all left the bus and started heading towards the red room club.I stayed quiet all the way and I could see Andy getting worried."amber,what's wrong?"he asked "nothing,I'm fine"I lied,plastering a fake smiled on my face "don't lie to me,I know There's something wrong" "There's not,I'm fine" "no,stop it.you're not" "just leave it Andy,I'm fine" "I will for now,we're talking tomorrow though".I sighed in defeat "fine" "good,now hurry up and walk faster" Andy smiled triumphantly as he dragged me the group of people talking.I rolled my eyes and went along with it. We finally arrived at the club and everyone went off in their couples or to find someone to get with for the night,to my suprise Ben was still standing at the door by my side.I ignored him and headed to the bar "what can I get you?l the bartender asked,loking me up and down "a jakc daniels please" I said politley "I'll have a beer" I heard Ben ask.the bartender nodded and handed us our drinks after we paid. I turned my back to Ben and completely ingnored him,even though he wasn't sayong anything to me. I glanced around the club to see ash making out with some blonde chick. Louis flirting with the girl with black hair and a top that couldn't be classed as a bra and a skirt that barley covered her ass. Kyle was paraticaly fucking some bimbo in the corner. Ryan was talking with some girl with blue hair.she was wearing a black skater skirt,a black belly tee and a pair off heels.how cute,he looks like he really likes her.Danny James and Cameron were doing shots and Sam just walked out of the bathroom.Juliet and Andy were sitting at a table with Ella and Jake and jinxx and sammi. While Lauren was trying to prevent cc from singing on the tables. I laughed light at my friends,these people are the only family I've got.I was pulled out of my thought Ben "oi,I'm trying to speak to you!" he yelled,he wasn't at all drunk,whick was unusual. "what" I snapped "well it doesn't matter now,does it"he stated more than asked "well then why make a big deal out of it" "don't be a bitch" "huh,I'm not being a bitch I just asked you a question,you're the bitch here" "am not.you know what you are a selfish,idiotic twat" Ben spat at me "well at least I'm not a drunken druggie man whore that probably has aids" "at least I can get some,little miss -i still have my virginity'." "I don't give a fuck if I still have my virginity,at least I show I don't give myself away like some people" "no,you just feel so insecure about yourself that you won't let anyone take your virginity.you result to slicing up your body you stupod bitch!!!" he screamed at me.that hurt,a lot.how did he even know about my self harm?.the tears flowed freely down my cheeks.I got up and ran out of the club. "amber what's wrong!?!?" Andy yelled,running after me,Juliet hot on his tail.along with Jake,Ella,sammi and jinxx.I continued to run until I fell to my knees,outside of the club.I cried and cried and cried.yes he hated me but why bring that up? "amber what's wrong?" Juliet asked sitting beside me "Ben" "what did he say?"jinxx and sammi said in unison. "he said that I'm a stupid bitch and that I result to slicing up my body because I feel so insecure" I cried.I saw the anger in andys eyes "WHAT?!? That's too far!that cunt!" Andy got back up and headed to the club "no Andy,he's right" I yelled and he stopped and turned to face me,a horrified look plastered on everyone one of facial features "what!? No he's not,you are not a stupid bitch,yes you can be a bit bitchy and dumb but you are not that.don't listen to him" Andy said pulling me into his arms.I cired into his chest. "that asshole had not right to say that" Ella spat "was he drunk?" Jake asked ''not,he was completley sober and only had one beer" I sobbed "and he still said that!? How did he even know,the only people that know are the bvb guys,and me,Juliet ,Ella and Lauren.not even Danny or Sam know" sammi asked.Danny and Sam are the ones I'm closest to out asking alexandria,although I'm pretty close to all of the,except Ben,of course.''I don't know"I cired "shh,shh,its okay.I'm gonna take her back to our bus.Juliet can you come aswell,I think she needs some girl time,something I can't actually give her."Andy asked,Juliet nodded"we're gonna tell everyone where you guys went"jinxx nodded,while standing up.they all said goodbye and hugged me or kissed my forehead and tthen head back to the club. "come on,sweetie.let's go back to the bus"Juliet said putting her arm around my shoulders. I nodded as Andy put his arm around my free shoulder.I had a feeling I would be spilling my life story to Juliet tonight.

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