My Heart Of Ebony

"...WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT! ?"

"Sir, your gonna need to calm down or I'll have security excort you out of the hospital."

Ughh what's going on? My head hurts like a bitch.

"Andy?" I ask softly my voice sounding gruff. He doesnt hear me so I say it a little bit louder, "Andy?"

Is he fucking deaf? "Andy!"

He turns his head over his shoulder and see that I'm awake and rushes to my side grabbing my small hand in his larger hands.

Andy lets out a sigh, " Hey baby, how you feeling?" He asks saying his words softly and quietly as if I'm a new born baby he doesnt want to wake.

Baby. . .

"Charlie princess are you ok?" He shakes my arm a little bit.

I shake my head snapping out of my trance. "Huh? Oh yeah im fine just lost in thought. "

The doctor now enters the all white room and says " Well Mrs...Reed, Do you know what happened?"

I let out a heavy sigh, " Yeah...I had a seizure didn't?"

"Very good, so you remember?" He questions.

I decide it's honest hour. "Yes. I know I'm epileptic." I clear my throat, "Once upon a time my father used to beat me and had no boundaries...he would hit me in the head over and over again until I blacked out. One day in the middle of class I had a seizure and they sent me to the hospital, but they just sent me home after a few hours. Anyway it happened again when I was walking on the street and again when I was in the grocery store. Eventually the doc diagnosed me as an epileptic. The end." I tell this story with as little emotion as I can manage so they dont really know how weak I am.

Andy stares at me with a blank expression on his face but soon recovers and he kisses my knuckles.

The Doc on the other hand looks at me stunned and then regains his cool composure, "So I see you know all there is to know about your problem so I wont hold you too long, maybe another half hour then your free to go."

He gives both Andy and I a half-hearted smile and exits the room.

"What time is it?" I ask. I am completely obsessed with time.

He pulls his black Iphone out of his front jeans pocket and turns on his phone, "Uhh it's 10 : 26 " He says looking across me.

I follow his gaze and see darkness outside and know he means night instead of day.

Andy continues to play with my hands staring blankly at them like he is in a really deep thought.

"What're you thinking about?" I question removing my hand from his to gain his full attention.

"Nothing." He mumbles.

"No babe tell me." I say sternly.

He gives up on being stubborn and pulls a metal chair over to the right of my hospital bed. Once again he grabs my right hand in his hands, " I was just thinking about how upset I was and how confused I was not knowing what had happened to you. And especially the thought of losing you so suddenly. "

I look down at this man with sympathy. I cant imagine how teribble i must of made him feel. He could of lost me and didn't have the power to stop it.

BooHoo, poor Andy. He needs to grow up. Oh my god Charlie could of died, blah blah blah. As if he would of really cared you died.

He would of cared i know he would. He loves me, h-he said it to my face, well he kinda said it i think.

Ha so even your doubting him, isnt that funny. How was that dream Charlie? How did it feel to know that you killed him! That poor innocent baby! You Charlie! YOU DID IT! YOU KILLED HIM!

SHUT UP! THAT WASNT ME! IT WASMT MY FAULT! I WOULD-COULD NEVER DO SUCH A THING! GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY HEAD.

"Charlie, please stop fighting with yourself. You're just gonna put yourself in a bad mood." Andy says looking me straight in the eyes.

I release a sigh "You're right it does put me in a bad mood, I'm sorry. Not just for me fighting with myself but also for scaring you so much, i shoulda told you."

Andy brings his hand up to my cheek and slowly strokes it with his thumb leaving my cheeks looking as red as a tomatoe. "It's ok. How about we get outta here and pick up something on the way home and just have a movie night."

I nod my head, "Sure. Get the Doc so we can leave."

Andy does as he's told and retrieves the Doc for me. I sign a couple forms and paper then I'm out and headed back to our apartment. We pick up a vegetarian pizza from papa john's head home.

Once we get in i shut the door behind us and Andy places the box of puzza on the dining room table.

"Hey baby, i dont really think im up for the whole movie night thing, I was thinking maybe we could just eat and hit the hay." I say fake yawning.

The truh is I'm really not in the mood to socialize right now, that dream is stuck in my head and I dont think my subconscious is gonna let me forget i ever had that dream. They always said that there is some truth behind every dream you've had.

"So, eat, shower, sleep?" He asks confirming. i nod my head and take a few slices of pizza and sit down at the dining table and he joins me.

After that delicous pizza filled our tummies we take our showers. Andy takes his first then i take mine last. We havent really gone farther then what we did the night he left with Ashley so I haven't fully exposed myself to him yet. Im beginning to think that we will never be intimately close, but who knows, maybe one day we will.

By the time I finish my long heated shower i dress myself in a black tight long sleeved shirt and baggy sweats. Thats one thing I truly love about him, he doesnt care how i look or present myself because he loves my heart that is soon to be a brilliant red instead of Ebony.

I walk out of the bathroom half expecting to see Andy awake and waiting for my arrival but instead im greeted by a sleepy Andy. It's actually kinda cute really him sleeping with his mouth wide open making a small snoring sound and his hair a mess. Things like this make me fall in love with him all over again.

I crawl underneath the blanket next to him and give him a kiss on the cheek. I turn my body to where im facing away from him. The bed shifts and I feel Andy's arm slouch over my waist pulling me closer into his chest. I turn my head to the side to see if i woke him but it turns out he's doing this in his sleep.

Ahh i love this man so much i think it might kill me.

Tonight I'm going to sleep with a smile on my face something that hasn't happened for a while now.

I'm happy.

I'm safe.

And I feel loved.

For now.

Notes

Yes finally i know, a semi long chapter. I had time today so i thought why the hell not.

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