All I Can See Are These Flames Around Me

You tell me what's wrong with this fucking picture: Trying to do something nice, I let the biological father of my son share a special moment with the baby he's pretty much ignored since its conception. But when the moment was over, Ashley got way too close and I went into panic mode. So that when he started kissing me and I was unable to think, let alone do anything to stop what was happening I was found by Andy. Who is a totally fucking different person than he was when he left, started calling me a whore.

Now how fucked up is that?

Sorry that I my body went into "holy fuck, what do I do" mode, and I couldn't fucking move. Covering my tear stained face with my hands I waddled away from the bus. All I wanted to do was see Andy and take a nap. Clearly neither of those things are happening.

Using my wrists as tissues, I didn't get a chance to notice that Jake was coming up to me before it was too late and I had crashed into him. I nearly screamed when he grabbed my arms to keep me upright. A worried look was plastered to his face. How much you want to bet that Jinxx sent out a mess text to be on the look out for me?

“Nikki?” Cautiously Jake looked me over.

“J-Jake.” It took me a second, but after a second or two my initial shock wore off and I was throwing my arms around him and crying into his neck.

Jake is one of the few people that I know won’t hurt me. He's become one of my best friends.

“What happened?” Not sure what to do, Jake rubbed my back.

“A-Ashley kissed me and I couldn't move to push him off. Andy found us before it could g-go any further. But he freaked at me then told me I was a w-whore and to get out. He doesn’t want to see my face again.” Sobbing into his shoulder I hoped that he had understood everything through my cries.

"Andy did what?!” Sniffling I nodded into his neck. “I’ll fucking kill the both of them. Neither of them have any right to be fucking around with you like that." Shaking my head I continued crying.

“P-please let it be Jake. I’ve already caused enough trouble. Can I go see Chris? I don’t know where else to go.”

“Of course. I’ll take you. Come on.” Jake lead me to their bus and helped me up the stairs.

When I got on the bus the first person that saw me was Ricky. His eyes went wide and he looked at Jake for an explanation as to why there was a random crying woman on his tour bus. Jake beckoned him over with his hand and he quickly whispered everything in his ear.

“Chris?" Ricky called over his shoulder before taking me from Jake and he helped me to the couch.

What the hell am I supposed to do now? Andy has basically thrown me out of his life. Where the hell am I supposed to live? I moved out of my apartment completely when he asked me to move in. And I know it's already been rented again. Could I go stay with Brit and Katie?

“Yeah?" Chris replied as he walked into the room. He had to do a double take before he could fully comprehend the sight in front of him. Ricky mouthed a few things to Chris before he left the room.

“Oh, Nick.” Sitting down beside me Chris wrapped his arms around me so that I was tight in his grasp. I was thankful for the positive physical contact.

“I’m fine, I promise." I mumbled into his shoulder. "I think I’m just going to call and get a flight back to LA tonight and then-” Chris cut me off.

“Nikki don’t leave! You can stay with us, the guys would love to have you!”

I could see that he was trying to cheer me up. To keep my mind off everything that had happened he would keep me busy by staying the night with him and the guys.

“Yeah, we can have a party tonight we can stay up all night doing each others nails and hair I’ll even swap you my make up tips for your skin care tips.” The playfully sarcastic words that were falling from Chris's mouth made me chuckle. How can I say no to that? As long as I stay away from Andrew and Ashley I should be fine.

“Oh just for that I’m going to have to say yes.” Chris laughed and hugged me tighter.

“Yay! Girls night-I mean not girls night, it will be a guys night with one girl in attendance.” Rolling my eyes I laughed as I patted his shoulder, he tries so hard.

I had finally stopped crying and we were having a perfectly normal conversation when a crashing sound could be heard at the front of the bus. Giving each other confused looks we assumed that someone had fallen or something.

“What the-” Chris spoke at just the right time, because just as he opened his mouth Andy burst through the door.

Great. Just what I wanted to have happen.

Chris stood and hid me behind him. I gnawed a my lower lip and peeked around Chris's arm to see Andy. His eyes were wild. What the fuck happened to him? Not too far behind him I could hear the sounds of Jake and CC stumbling up the stairs trying to catch Andy and stop him.

“Where is she? I need to talk to her?!” Jake and CC tried to pull Andy away as he was talking.

“Andrew, you can’t see Nikki right now!” CC screamed at him as he tried to pull the over six foot man out of the bus.

“Why not?! She’s the mother of my fucking child!” I groaned, I would rather be anywhere but here right now.

Pulling my knees up to my chest the best I could I hid my face behind my knees. Why can't he just leave me alone? He doesn't want me anymore, and I don't need him coming here just to remind me of that.

“Because you need to calm down and sober up before you see her.” Even though I couldn't see what was going on due to my tightly closed eyes, I could hear what sounded like CC, Jake, and Chris trying to get Andy to leave.

“Please get him out of here.” With tears in my eyes I hissed up at Jake, CC, and Chris.

“NIKKI!!! GODDAM IT JAKE! LET GO OF ME!” I guess the guys must have got him out because everything fell silent.

“C-Chris?” opening my eyes I was surprised and terrified when I found that I was alone

He must have gone outside with Jake and CC. My breathing was erratic. So Andrew was drunk? That still is no call for the way he acted. But I guess him being intoxicated would help to explain how he thought that Ashley trying to make out with me was me attempting to cheat on him.

My eyes open when I heard the door open again. “Guys?”

“It’s just us.” Chris, Jake, and CC walked up the stairs watching me carefully.

Jake sat down next to me and embraced me. "No one would leave you Nikki.” Resting my head on Jake’s shoulder I closed my eyes and sighed

“Thank you, so much.” Hugging Jake back I glanced up at the two other men that were watching me. “Is Andrew gone?”

CC nodded but wouldn't make eye contact. “Yeah, Jinxx and John are watching both him and Ash.”

“I never meant for any of this to happen. I’m so sorry.” Everyone looked at me like I was fucking insane.

“Nikki you do not need to feel like you’ve done anything wrong. Its those two who have fucked up.” Chris stared at my intensely.

“John even told us that you were coming and to be on our best behavior.” Jake gave me a sympathetic look. “He was trying to avoid something like this from happening.”

“I-I’m-” Chris stopped me.

“No, don’t be sorry. This isn’t your fault.” Chris patted my shoulder. “You might think it is but it isn’t. Just relax.”

I guess he’s right. No matter how much I don’t want to admit that he is. All I can do it try to relax and not think about it.

But that’s always so much easier said than done.

Notes

I kind of hate the way the last two chapters have come out...
This will be the last update for the night my darlings!
I'm tired as fuck.

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