An Angels Last Fall

The next morning was awkward, well for me. Andy didn’t seem to remember much, I even tried to egg on what had happened the night before.

“You tucked me in.” He giggled, “God I haven’t been tucked in since what?” He looked to Ashley who was walking into the kitchen to grab water.

“Warped 2011 maybe?” He took the cap off of the bottle and took a drink before speaking again. “Juliet pissed you off and you got shit faced ‘cause you liked h…”

“That’s enough info, Ash, thanks.” I couldn’t see Andy’s face but I could tell by the tone of his voice he was glaring at Ashley.

I gave a small laugh and Ashley looked to me with wide eyes and quickly headed back upstairs. “That’s all you remember?” I asked when I heard a door close upstairs.

Andy looked to me, a puzzled look across his face. He nodded slightly before answering. “I had way too much to drink so I only remember that and I think you said sex somewhere.” He half closed one of his eyes and pointed to me.

I folded my hands in my lap and brought my lips into my mouth, wondering if I would tell him about that part of the night. I finally nodded my head. “You tried to have sex with me.”

“Oh fuck...” he breathed then put a hand on my shoulder. “I’m so fucking sorry… wait we didn’t did we?” He seemed worried.

I shook my head. “I wouldn’t let you.”

He gave out a sigh of relief and turned away from me. “I’m so sorry, Ciarra.” He looked to me then reached into his back pocket and pulled out his phone. He stared at the buzzing screen before answering it. “What’s up?” After a few words from the person on the other line Andy nodded his head and stood up from the couch and made his way toward the stairs. “No, they don’t…”

That was all I was able to hear before he walked out of range. I sighed and stared at the black TV screen. What was I doing trying to make him remember? Wasn’t this better? It would be easier for me to finally let him go. But…what if it was true? What if he did love me but didn’t know how to say it? I shook my head and went upstairs to get dressed for the day. Yes, it was almost noon but I was still in my pajamas.

I met Andy and Ashley in the hall way. “We have to go to the studio to prepare for tour stuff,” Andy wrapped one arm around my waist and kissed my cheek. “We’ll be back by 8 or so.” He smiled and I smiled in return.

“Have fun.” I commented letting them leave to do their band thing.

I sighed once I had reached the warm water of my shower. I ran my hands through my hair, letting the water drench it. I couldn’t let this keep happening. I had to stop it. But I didn’t want to…I loved him.

I finished my shower and dried myself off. I took no time to put clothes on and just wrapped the towel around me and went down stairs to fix myself lunch. On the fridge was a white envelope with Andy’s hand writing. It had my name on it and I tore it off of the tape that held it in place. Inside was a paper and $50.

“Sorry for springing this on you, go get some lunch or dinner or something :).” I smiled and put the money back in the envelope and set it on the island.

I brought my wet hair in front of me and ran a hand threw it as I drank from a bottle of water. I figured since my stomach was already growling that I would go into town and eat at that café where Andy and I go all the time. I threw on a t-shirt, which to be honest I didn’t know what the words meant but Andy had bought it for me so I wore it, a lose pair of pants along with black shoes and a necklace http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=164349258&new_pinterest_publish=on . I grabbed my phone and put it in my back pocket. The café wasn’t that far to walk and it was a nice enough day outside.

I was seated at a table and ordered my favorite sandwich. They had brought me water to hold me off until my food had arrived and I glanced around at the other people in the café. Watching their behaviors and moods. A woman with two children at her side talked on her phone as she shoved her little ones away, a teenage couple feeding each other, and…was that? I cocked my head to get a better look at the blonde with half of her head shaved. She wore all black and had a small brown purse on her shoulder. I had never caught her name, and she did look a lot better after the time she tried to steal from Andy. At least a shower had done her some good.

I glanced around and sighed as I stood to walk to her table. “Hi,” I smiled as I sat down in the empty chair in front of her. When she stared at me with wide eyes and a frown of some sort I stood quickly. “I’m sorry is this chair taken?”

She quickly looked out of the café then back to me. “No,” she shook her head. “You can sit.”
I smiled and sat back down in the chair. After a few awkward seconds of silence I finally spoke up. “I’m Ciarra by the way. How have you been?” She ran a thumb over her glass and nodded.

“Good.” She kept her head low. “I’m Elli.”

She looked around and then back outside. She wasn’t acting right. Although I did not know this girl but it seemed as if she was being forced, or she was on drugs.” I held one of her hands in mine. “Are you okay?”

She looked to me, her eyes softened, she calmly took her hand away from mine and put both of them in her lap. She gave a weak smile and nodded. “I’m fine, you and your boyfriend were really nice.”

I had to think about that word for a moment before I shook my head and laughed. “We aren’t together per say.”

She cocked her head, “oh? It seemed like it.”

“Just friends,” it was my turn to look down at my hands. “If it’s no harm to ask why did you try to steal from us?”

She gulped and looked back outside the café. When she looked back to me she finally looked me in the eyes. “I don’t really have the best living situation, and food is hard to come by when you don’t have money.”

I frowned and saw that my sandwich had been brought to my table. “Have you ordered anything?” I asked. She shook her head and I stood to retrieve my food. “Take half,” I said placing the plate in front of her.

She shook her head sharply and pushed it back toward me. “I can’t do that.”

I gave a stressed sigh. “You tried to steal almost $200 off of us the other day and now you won’t even take half my sandwich?”

She lifted up one side of her mouth and finally picked up half of the sandwich. “It’s just you’re really nice, most people aren’t that nice to me.” She took a bite and chewed slowly.

I picked up the other half and held it in my hands. “What is this world if no one shows kindness?” I took a small bite and chewed. “It’s hell,” I mumbled after I had swallowed. After a few moments of silence as we both ate I set the remains on the plate and cleared my throat. “Would it be completely out of the question to give you my number? In case you need help or something?”

She gave a look of sorrow and looked back out of the café. It was driving me insane not knowing what she was looking at. After she looked back to me she gave a fake smile and nodded. “That would be nice.” Her voice was monotone as she pulled her phone out of her pocket. After an exchange of numbers I smiled and offered if she would like to get coffee or something, humans liked coffee a lot. She shook her head and stood from the table and grabbed her purse. “I have to go.”

“Oh, okay, well text me when you can, even if it’s just to say hi?” I smiled.

She nodded and walked out of the café. I stood in the middle of the café like an idiot, staring at her, now two people on this planet rubbed me the wrong way.

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