You Again

It's the twenty first day of warped tour and I've had a great time so far. I've gotten to know a lot of bands and gotten to hear a lot of stories from fans. Even one fan brought a fanfic she wrote, the guys didn't want it, but I kept it to read around the bus.

"Ashley pushes me up against the wall and whispers, "I want you babygirl.", he starts kissing down my neck and nibbles on my-"

"Okay enough Belle." Andy says, CC and I laugh our asses off.

"You didn't let me get to the good part." I fake whine.

"Yeah I wanted to hear what happens next." Ashley says making Andy take a face bomb. There's a knock on the door.

"Ashley go answer the door." I say.

"Why do I have to?" He asks getting up.

"Because last I did it and one of your whores bitched at me." I say.

Ash opens the door. "Belle, your whore's here." He says and I look at him confused. I get up and walk to the door.

"What do you want?" I ask crossing my arms.

"I just wanted to apologize for what I said back at the pizza place. You know I didn't mean to upset you." Oil says and I roll my eyes.

"Is that it?" I ask.

"Yeah, but seeing you're still really mad, you probably don't want to hang out." He says.

"You guessed right, bye." I slam the door shut and return to sitting next to Ashley and Jinxx on the couch.

"Is Oli still trying to fuck you?" Jinxx asks and I nod. "Do you want to talk about it kiddo?"

"Jinxx, you sound like my mom right now." I say making Ashley chuckle.

"I'm gonna go for a walk." Andy announces.

"Great I'll go with you." I say.

"No, I just need to clear my head." He says and walks off the bus.

"Do you want to talk about that?" Jinxx asks and I nod.

"Come on Ash, let's get Jake and go to a bar or something." CC says. After the rest of the guys are gone, Jinxx hands me a beer.

"I want to fuck him." I confess.

"Who?" Jinxx asks.

"Oli, but I don't want to lose Andy. I'm not going cheat on him, just part of me has feelings for Oli."

"It's understandable to have feelings for someone else, just why Oli?"

"It's like he said to me, he only wants to fuck me and he's honest about it. I used to think that Andy only kept me around to fuck me and once he became bored is why he went to Juliet. Plus Drew cheated on me too, and I feel like he only wanted to fuck me in the first place. So when a guy is up front with me about wanting to fuck me and that's it, I find his honesty extremely attractive."

"I see."

"I love Andy, and I don't want to jeopardize our relationship. I want to marry him and maybe one day have his kids. I want to become all wrinkly and old with him, and freak out about grey hairs. And I want to be buried with him."

"I wish some girl would say that about me."

"In good time Jinxx. I just find it weird that Andy didn't want me to go for a walk with him."

"Yeah, he loves be around you."

"What if? No I shouldn't think like that."

"Like what?"

"Before I found out Andy was cheating, he'd say he'd be working late or would go out for long walks alone."

"Belle don't think like that."

"I know, I just don't want to go through all of it again."







Flashback:

"Miss Greco, you may go in now." The receptionist says. I walk into Dr Rose's office and take a seat.

"How are you today Isabelle?" She asks.

"The same." I respond.

"Can we cut the bullshit?"

"What?"

"I don't know how long you've been in therapy, but you've been in my office for a little over six months now. I'm sorry to break this to you but he's gone, Andrew has made his choice. But you can still find love. You aren't some fifty year old divorced single mom of three, two who are still in high school. You can and will find someone new who will bring you out of this slump."

"But I'm in love with Andy!"

"And I was in love with my ex husband! It's time to move on enjoy life."

"You say that like it's easy."

"It can be if you let go."


End Of Flashback.






"Whatever happens between you and Andy, I'm here for you Belle."

"Thanks Jinxx, I think I might take a walk."

Notes

I'm back!!!!!

I can't live without this book, this has been the most difficult two weeks ever! Funny how I have so many ideas for the one I put on hold while I'm floating with the others. Think I might put Bittersweet Revenge on hold though, not really sure what to do with that one.

I also found out I have a chance with my crush who's like eighteen years old, I'm like fourteen tho so... But anyhow, how are you guys? I've missed you guys so much.


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