Love-Hate

The past two weeks were going good. I still have radio silence with Lindsay and them but I've been staying at Andy's and slowly either him or Jeremy has been getting my clothes. Ashley almost punched Pete out when I told him what happened though he might have been drunk when he was going to do so.
They were all upset but they need to keep it professional for the sake of the band. I've been working everyday for the past week and a half.
Getting used to the salon and the way things work but I have to admit it's been crazy walking around. I already have regular costumers. I was busy curling a young girls hair for her prom and she was very talkative.
"This is my first prom. My date is my best friend." She said looking on her phone.
"That's sweet Anna." I smiled and then she went on to tell me how excited she was.
"I'll come in soon to tell you how it went." I nodded even though she couldn't see me. About twenty minutes later I was finished and was caught off guard when she hugged me.
"Thank you so much Catherine. I love it." She squealed happily before running away to she a woman who looked almost like her so I guessed it was her mom. I turned off the curl iron and straightener and cleaned my work space before telling John I was going for lunch.
I looked at my phone and there was plenty of texts from all the guys asking when I'd be off for lunch but I decided I wanted to eat alone.
My mind was occupied from missing Lindsay and I loved the guys, I do. But I miss her a lot that at night I get lonely. I grabbed my things and walked outside of the salon onto the streets of the city.
It was sunny and there was a light breeze. I wanted some good burgers so I walked a little ways before finding a small shop that looked so cute and went in. My eyes looked around and my eyes went wide when I seen Lindsay sitting there with Maddison.
The door closing made Lindsay look up and she stared right at me.
Actually seeing Lindsay was a whole different story, my feet dragged me towards me and she met me in a well needed hug.
"I missed you Cat." Lindsay said into my ear. I closed my eyes and felt incredibly guilty.
"I missed you too Lindsay." I sighed happily and hugged her tighter. We let go and I knelt down to the ground and smiled at Maddison.
"Hi Maddy." I smiled happily. "Hi Kitty." She said and hugged me for a few seconds then went back to her sandwich. "I didn't expect to run into you guys here." I said standing to meet Lindsay's eyes.
"This is our favourite sandwich shop. I take Maddison here every chance I get." She said. I pulled up a chair and sat down.
"How have you been?" I asked.
"We've been good, I guess you hitting Pete knocked him into senses. I'm not used to the surprise kisses and such." She bit her lip from smiling. I nodded.
"Yeah me either."
"How have you been?"
"Good, you know where I work and I love it there. Though the guys won't leave me alone and I really miss girl time." I laughed. We haven't spoken in a couple weeks but it feels like we never stopped talking.
"I know. The only girl friends I have are Maddison's friends moms." Lindsay laughed.
@We should do something tonight!" I exclaimed loudly. "Yeah! It's been so long since I actually went out without Pete or the guys." She smiled.
"Okay we'll talk after I get something to eat since I'm starved. What's good?" I said.
After I gotten my food and sat down Lindsay and I got into talking about what we should do. Maddison was busy colouring.
"You know what I'm excited about this. I'm excited to go dancing and just be with you again." Lindsay giggled. "Me too."
When my lunch was up I told Lindsay I'd call her later and we parted ways, the rest of the time of work breezed by and soon I was getting picked up by Andy. I leaned over and gave him a kiss on the lips.
"You know who I saw today?" I said with a big smile. He shrugged.
"Who did you see today?" "I seen Lindsay and Maddison. I went to go for lunch and seen them both at this one sandwich shop." Andy's eyes became unreadable.
"That's nice." I didn't let it bother me.
"Oh yeah we're going out tonight. Just Lindsay and I. We need girl time." Andy stopped at a red light.
"Do you think that's a good idea?"
"Why wouldn't it be?" I laughed.
"Well because of what happened Cat. It was rude and she didn't even say anything to defend you."
"I don't need defending. You and I both know I can handle myself." I began to feel uneasy of where he was going with this.
"I know but you'd defend her if it was me talking to her like that wouldn't you?" I cocked my head to the side. "What kind of question is that? Of course I would."
"And she can't do that for you? That's all I'm saying." I furrowed my eyebrows getting upset.
"She has always defended me. Always. Especially in high school when you thought it would be fun to make all those rumours about me." Andy sighed.
"It wasn't fun for me."
"Then why'd you do it?"
"Because I couldn't stand seeing you with someone else that's why."
"Yet you think it was easy for me to see you kissing girls all the time?" I spat back and that's when he went silent. "I thought we were getting past this." He sighed. "I was, clearly you weren't!" I said looking out the window of the car and then the light turned green.
"I am, I'm just worried about you."
"I'll be fine. Lindsay has been my friend since forever. You know that." I finally looked at him but he was concentrated on the road.
"I'm sorry for getting mad."
"It's okay. But I'm still going out with Lindsay." I told him. "
"I'm coming with you."
"No, it's a girls night out. Just Lindsay and I and until you grow lady parts you aren't invited."
Andy was quiet the rest of the ride and I knew he didn't want me to go out alone but I needed girl time and hoped he understood that. I love the guys, I do but it's nice just to have some actual girl time.
When we go back home I went straight into the washroom stripping my clothes on the way before slamming the door shut and standing under the hot water. I don't know why I was so upset with Andy talking bad about Lindsay but I knew at the same time, she was my best friend and has been long before Andy came along.
I don't mean to choose sides since I love them both so much. The door opened and Andy came in throwing my clothes into the laundry basket.
"So how was work?" He asked. I peaked through the curtain and he was leaning against the counter.
"It was good." I said and grabbed body wash. I jumped when the curtain was ripped open and Andy climbed into the shower with me. Obviously naked.
"Well sure, join me why don't you." I say in a jokingly manner. Andy kissed my forehead.
"You honestly think I could ignore that my hot naked wet girlfriend was in the shower, mad at me." He said with a sly smile.
I rolled my eyes and turned away from him while I washed my body slowly. I turned back and he was still standing there watching me.
"Stare much?" I said in a seductive voice causing Andy to go back into whatever daze he was in.
"Fuck." He whispers when I start to kiss his chest and work my way down.
Once my lips are wrapped around his member I stare up at with him innocent eyes causing him to close his eyes and throw his head back.
I swirled my tongue and Andy grabbed ahold onto my hair before trying to move my head more closer to him. I gagged and pulled away before standing up and leaving him in the bathroom probably stunned.
I hadn't mean to leave him but the sandwich I ate at the shop was going down wrong and I didn't want for him to see me throw up so I ran into the kitchen naked as the day I was born and threw up in the garbage.
Once I was done I walked back to the washroom and Andy was just shampooing his hair.
"So what was that about?" He asked. I tried to find it in his voice to see if he was irritated but he just seemed concerned.
"Bad sandwich." I say and wave him off.
"Can I ask you something? Don't freak out okay." I nodded at him and began to brush my teeth.
Andy sighed before stepping out of the shower. "Are you pregnant?" I choked on the toothpaste and had to spit it out right away. I looked over at Andy with amusement dancing in my eyes.
"I've been on birth control since last year Andy." He frowns at me.
"So I've been using a condom this whole time for no reason?" I giggled at him with a blush on my cheeks, I just liked being completely safe at least until I was sure I had wanted a baby. I looked at myself in the mirror, my wet hair dripping onto my chest.
I couldn't imagine myself being pregnant. At least not right now.
Would I have Andy's babies? I shivered when Andy gave me a towel.
"I love you." He whispered in my ear making me smile.
"And I love you." I say before giving him a sweet kiss. We both went into his room and got changed, I just wore shorts and a tank top since I had to get ready soon anyways. "Where are you guys going to go?" Andy said sitting in the couch with me. I shrugged.
"Dunno. We hadn't planned that far yet." I was engrossed in the movie Pearl Harbour that was playing. I was glad that I wasn't in a position that Evelyn was in, loving two guys at the same time.
Loving one more but giving her heart to the other one because they're having a baby together.
As usual, when the ending came I cried my eyes out like a baby.
All Andy did was chuckle and bring me closer to him. "That can't be how it ends!" I blubber into his chest. I don't know why I'm so surprised when I've watched this movie countless times. It hurts more than the last time I've watched it. When the credits rolled up I pulled away and let Andy pick something to watch.
The past two hours were spent with me watching a movie that when I checked my phone Lindsay told me she was coming over when she was done getting ready.
I grinned and walked to Andy's room. I still don't call it our room because I've been thinking of getting a place on my own, I didn't want to move too fast with Andy but here I am. Practically living in his house.
A big part of me knew that Andy would never let me get a place of my own, he'd probably try and move in with me. Andy wandered into the room not long after and laid on the bed.
"Can I at least come?" He asked not looking at me. "No." I replied curling the ends of my hair like I usually do. "Fine." He pouted.
I rolled my eyes and finished getting ready, I was excited to go dancing and just finally be alone with Lindsay. Andy wasn't making anything easier, he's acting like I'm going to go party in Paris or something. Like he'll never see me for a couple of years.
"I won't bother you guys-"
"God Andy!" I shouted turning to him. "You don't need to watch over me like I'm some toddler! I'm old enough to handle myself!" I regretted yelling as soon as I did. Before I could say anything Andy walked out of the room.
Leaving me feeling shitty. I just wanted to go out, I was excited and Andy is ruining it for me. Sighing I go search for him.
"I'm sorry baby." I said wrapping my arms around his body. "I don't want to leave knowing you're mad at me." Andy didn't reply he just looked away from me.
"Maybe I should find my own place." I trailed off when Andy snapped his head towards me with wide eyes. "Why?" He grunted.
"I'm getting on your nerves, you're getting on mine. Maybe it'll be better?" I offered.
"We're supposed to fight Cat, I can be mad and so can you. It's just that I've lost you for five years. Five long years. Mainly six since the last year of high school. I just feel like I'm going to lose you again." He ran a hand through his hair. "You won't Andy.
I'm here, I'll only be gone for a few hours and call you to pick me up." I leaned forward and kissed him hard on the lips. The doorbell ringing pulled us apart, I got up to answer the door only to yelp when Andy slapped my butt as I got off the couch.
"Watch it." I said swaying my hips on purpose to tempt him.
"You're killing me Cat." I opened the door and screamed when Lindsay was there with a bottle of aoclhol. "This will be fun!" I about hugging her like I hadn't seen her in years. Two weeks felt like two years.
I stood at the bar with Lindsay by my side, both sipping on our Pornstar's.
It turns out it took some convincing from Pete foley Lindsay out as well but he gave in when she mentioned it was the first time we had gone out ever.
We decided that we should just keep bar hopping since this street was full of them. I could already feel the buzz from the bottle we drank back at home. Home.
That's a new word I hadn't used to describe Andy's place. Originally I was supposed to move in with Lindsay and Pete but things didn't go as planned since I've practically living with Andy.
We drank and gossiped, hell even danced on the dance floor but I noticed them before Lindsay did.
"They're here." I sighed pointing to the guys, with Andy and Pete.
"What the fuck did they find us?" She groaned leaning her head on the table. I shrugged and grabbed onto Lindsay's hand running towards the bathrooms.
"If we're sneaky enough we can escape them." I say leaning against the countertop.
"I don't think so Cat. One of them will be at the front doors. Plus I bet one of them is outside the bathrooms." I was really annoyed with Andy at this point.
So I stuck up my head and walked out of the bathrooms with Lindsay trailing behind me.
She was right, Jeremy was standing outside the doors of the bathroom. I ignored him and continued to the bar to get myself some shooters.
"Did you see his face?" Lindsay said with a big grin.
"Two shots of grey goose, each." I said to the bartender who I noticed was checking me out.
"I always liked a girl that could handle her liquor." He winked making me laugh at him.
After we took our shots I slammed the glass down on the counter.
"So do you have a boyfriend?" He asked me while Lindsay glared at Pete who was watching us. I opened my mouth to answer.
"She does." The deep voice of Andy said behind me. I turned and quirked an eyebrow upwards at him.
"Oh I didn't know." The bartender smiles.
"I was hitting on you or anything. It's just easy conversation." His smile was genuine and I just smiled back, Andy on the other hand narrowed his eyes towards him.
"Stop it." I said elbowing him slightly in the stomach. I grabbed Lindsay's hand dragged her out of the club.
I couldn'thave fun anymore, well I could but this was supposed to be Lindsay's and me time. Then the guys just have to go and ruin it.
Sighing I brought out my pack of cigarettes I don't usually smoke but tonight I'm stressed and angered. Maybe the other guys didn't know that it was only supposed to be the girls, what if Pete and Andy just made it seem like it was a good night out with the boys or maybe they thought we wanted them to come along.
"I didn't know you started again." Lindsay commented. "I didn't. I just I'm upset." I frowned at the thought. "I know you are.
The boys aren't all that bad though Cat. They're fun when they want to be."
"I know they are Lindsay, I've drank with them before. You on the other hand I hadn't. It was supposed to be just us two. Not them so sue me for being angry." I flicked the remaining tobacco onto the ground.
"Well you're about to be a whole lot of upset because they're following us." She said and I turned to see indeed that they are following us.
"Cat!" Jake yelled running towards me like an idiot. "Hey Jakey." I said hugging him even though I just seen him yesterday.
"Where are you guys headed? I'll come." His dorky smile made it incredibly hard to stay mad at him so for now I will let it go. But one day Lindsay and I will go out alone, maybe they're on tour. Which reminds me.
"Hey Jake when are you guys leaving for tour?" I said. He frowned at me.
"I thought Andy would've told you. We leave tomorrow."

Notes

Okay so I know it's been forever! I apologize, I just have a hard time to write because I'm raising my baby who will be 1 soon! ❤️❤️❤️ Hope this chapter. Ales up for it! Love you!
P.s. Chapter thirteen is in process so hopefully another update soon!