Shadow Children
Hospitals... again...
Jay’s POV:
About three days have passed since the competition. As it turns out we won, and I get to tour with the people I love the most in the world. But you know that feeling you get when you feel like you’re so done with a person and you thought that they were never going to be in your life ever again. That one best friend that just ruined everything, your life and your relationship with them. And then that feeling you get when a friend you just recently made becomes friends with that person and decides to invite that person to hang out with you guys and go to practice with you. Well I mean it’s a rare feeling but that’s what I have right now… and I can’t shake it. I made a promise for the second time to quit cutting, but right now all I want is to feel the cool metal blade in the warmth of my hand. I want it to pass through my fingers and just touch my arm.
“Jay stop…” Blade saw me clenching and unclenching my fist. I stopped for a good two seconds and then he grabbed my hand and held it down flat on the table. We were sitting in the studio with BVB and the rest of our band, Sleeping With Sirens and Asking Alexandria and Sammi and Juliet and Matt went back to L.A..
“Okay what’s up? You’ve been in a pissy mood lately and none of us know why…” Andy said.
“Nothing I’m fine…” I said with a slight attitude.
“Bullshit Jay, tell us the truth…” Ashley said.
“Nothing! Okay! I’m fucking peachy!” I yelled getting up off of the couch and walking away. It’s a good thing that only Andy, Blade, and Ash were in the room with me because I didn’t want everyone to see me like this. I didn’t realize it but I was digging my nails into my arm, so much so that blood would drip out at any second.
“Arms down…” Andy said quietly catching up to me and held my arms down from behind. I turned towards him.
“Stop following me! I’m not a baby, and I sure as hell don’t need a chaperone wherever I go!” I snapped.
“Okay enough!” He snapped back, “Take a seat and listen,” I did that without an attitude because he scared me.
“We don’t know what’s been going on, but you need to explain this behavior because we try to put up with it and we can’t stand it anymore. Not even CC! your fucking boyfriend!” I started to scratch my arm.
“Stop!” He said sternly, “and explain, I have all day.” He sat down next to me easing up on the harshness of his last few words.
“Well we started to hang out with that other band, and I like hanging out with their bassist Rickie… but Rickie became best friends with the one person that solely ruined my life forever. She invited him to visit our practice tomorrow and I can’t even look at him with out wanting to cry/ punch him in his dick…” Andy nodded.
“Did you try telling her this?” He asked. I nodded. My phone started ringing.
“Hello?” I asked.
“Justine Grey?” The man on the other line asked.
“Yes this is she…” I answered.
“Sorry for the long delay, but we have your DNA test results from the hospital in New York City. When would you like to come in?” The man asked.
“In about an hour or so?” I asked.
“Sounds great. See you then.” The man said.
“Who was that?” Andy asked.
“The hospital with my DNA results…”
“BVB!” Andy yelled.
“Yeah Andy?” Jinxx called out.
“Get the car ready! We’re going to the hospital!” He yelled once more.
“WHAT’S GOING ON?” CC yelled running out of the rehearsal room and straight into me.
“I took a DNA test in NY and they have the results.” I said calmly.
“Did anyone else notice how pms-ey Jay is today?” Jagger whispered under his breath. Ashley glared at him. CC stood next to me and grabbed my hand.
“What ever this is…” He leaned down and whispered into my ear, “I promise we’ll get through it together…” I looked up into his warm brown eyes and smiled, because for the first time since the competition I felt happy. We got to the car, I sat next to CC in the back with Andy and Jinxx in the front. In the other car was my band, and then Ash took his motorcycle with Jake in the back.
“You’re happy…” CC said. I nodded and kissed him, it was great that CC could be childish but still have that other side to him. The caring, loving one.
“Here we are…” Andy said hopping out of the car.
About three days have passed since the competition. As it turns out we won, and I get to tour with the people I love the most in the world. But you know that feeling you get when you feel like you’re so done with a person and you thought that they were never going to be in your life ever again. That one best friend that just ruined everything, your life and your relationship with them. And then that feeling you get when a friend you just recently made becomes friends with that person and decides to invite that person to hang out with you guys and go to practice with you. Well I mean it’s a rare feeling but that’s what I have right now… and I can’t shake it. I made a promise for the second time to quit cutting, but right now all I want is to feel the cool metal blade in the warmth of my hand. I want it to pass through my fingers and just touch my arm.
“Jay stop…” Blade saw me clenching and unclenching my fist. I stopped for a good two seconds and then he grabbed my hand and held it down flat on the table. We were sitting in the studio with BVB and the rest of our band, Sleeping With Sirens and Asking Alexandria and Sammi and Juliet and Matt went back to L.A..
“Okay what’s up? You’ve been in a pissy mood lately and none of us know why…” Andy said.
“Nothing I’m fine…” I said with a slight attitude.
“Bullshit Jay, tell us the truth…” Ashley said.
“Nothing! Okay! I’m fucking peachy!” I yelled getting up off of the couch and walking away. It’s a good thing that only Andy, Blade, and Ash were in the room with me because I didn’t want everyone to see me like this. I didn’t realize it but I was digging my nails into my arm, so much so that blood would drip out at any second.
“Arms down…” Andy said quietly catching up to me and held my arms down from behind. I turned towards him.
“Stop following me! I’m not a baby, and I sure as hell don’t need a chaperone wherever I go!” I snapped.
“Okay enough!” He snapped back, “Take a seat and listen,” I did that without an attitude because he scared me.
“We don’t know what’s been going on, but you need to explain this behavior because we try to put up with it and we can’t stand it anymore. Not even CC! your fucking boyfriend!” I started to scratch my arm.
“Stop!” He said sternly, “and explain, I have all day.” He sat down next to me easing up on the harshness of his last few words.
“Well we started to hang out with that other band, and I like hanging out with their bassist Rickie… but Rickie became best friends with the one person that solely ruined my life forever. She invited him to visit our practice tomorrow and I can’t even look at him with out wanting to cry/ punch him in his dick…” Andy nodded.
“Did you try telling her this?” He asked. I nodded. My phone started ringing.
“Hello?” I asked.
“Justine Grey?” The man on the other line asked.
“Yes this is she…” I answered.
“Sorry for the long delay, but we have your DNA test results from the hospital in New York City. When would you like to come in?” The man asked.
“In about an hour or so?” I asked.
“Sounds great. See you then.” The man said.
“Who was that?” Andy asked.
“The hospital with my DNA results…”
“BVB!” Andy yelled.
“Yeah Andy?” Jinxx called out.
“Get the car ready! We’re going to the hospital!” He yelled once more.
“WHAT’S GOING ON?” CC yelled running out of the rehearsal room and straight into me.
“I took a DNA test in NY and they have the results.” I said calmly.
“Did anyone else notice how pms-ey Jay is today?” Jagger whispered under his breath. Ashley glared at him. CC stood next to me and grabbed my hand.
“What ever this is…” He leaned down and whispered into my ear, “I promise we’ll get through it together…” I looked up into his warm brown eyes and smiled, because for the first time since the competition I felt happy. We got to the car, I sat next to CC in the back with Andy and Jinxx in the front. In the other car was my band, and then Ash took his motorcycle with Jake in the back.
“You’re happy…” CC said. I nodded and kissed him, it was great that CC could be childish but still have that other side to him. The caring, loving one.
“Here we are…” Andy said hopping out of the car.
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1/12/14