Bullied

"I hate this goddamn school"
Jenny's message was pretty... direct.
That wasn't the Jenny I used to know. No.. No way.
The real one was a happy girl who loved to smile, to laugh, to enjoy, to make other people glad. She was a little sunshine. If her depression didn't exist she still was like that.
But life sometimes doesn't do what you want it to do.
I missed the time when we were about 7 or so and the whole world was perfect. When we lived like there was no tomorrow. When we were outside together every day and nobody put pressure on us.

Back to reality.
I directly called her. To be honest Jenny's message made me nervous.
The time I only heard the beep noises I nearly went crazy. The only thing I cared about was Jenny...
Then I heard her lovely voice "Andy?"
High and female as alays. She had a typical girly appearance - but well... her music taste might destroy that appearance pretty fast.
"Jenny... Is everything alright? Where are you?" my voice trembled.
".. I'm at our place"

That meant she sat in front of a small river in a bright forest. We used to hang out there as long as possible. We didn't do much - talking and joking.
Jenny was one of those persons you could easily speak with. She always knew how to act, what to say, how to make you laugh.
A real sunshine.

It was quiet for some seconds.
"I miss you. School is pure shit without you" I told her
"I miss you more..."
"Tell me what the boys did to you today"
"What? Uh nothing" she lied
".. Do you remember when we promised to have no secrets in front of each other?" I tried to not cry again. I couldn't keep that promise...
Jenny sighed "they did nothing really bad"
"So then you can tell me. You know I only want your best and keeping it to yourself isn't the best"
"... Phil punched me.. "
Phil always held himself back. He was more the glue which held the 5 boys together. He was the quiet, tall boy in the background with big muscles - never said a thing which didn't mean he was shy - he was more the brain of them. Watching you. Trying to find your weak spot.
So it was a little surprise that he started to use his muscles.

"That bastard" I whisper-shouted
"Andy don't be angry. I heard of some problems in his family. Maybe he ju-"
"That's no excuse" I interrupted her "Jenny, realize that there isn't anything good on the inside of them. What they do is not acceptable in any way. They abuse you verbally and physically. You can't just hope that it will have an end someday. You have to fight"

What did I tell her? To fight? Why didn't I do that? Why didn't I just pull Felix out of that school after the lesson's end? Why did I leave him with those bastards (who might puch him) alone?

"You don't know what it feels like to not be accepted" Jenny cried "It was always ok for everyone that you are different. You don't know what it feels like to have to fight... You have no idea"
~If you just knew~
I played with the thought of telling her about my problems. Maybe...?
No it wouldn't make anything better - Jenny would just become sader.
"I'm going to call you tomorrow after school" she sobbed "think about it until then. See you"
She just hung up. I couldn't even say goodbye. Was she angry at me?
Fuck it. Now I was alone again with my trouble and the faults I've made.
Alone with my mind.

Notes

Heey, seems like I'm getting more spare time what means more updates! :D