My Life

As we drive back to Andy's apartment, Andy stops and pulls over.

"Scar what's going on? I thought you'd at least want to stay and dance a bit." Andy asks.

"Nothing's wrong, now keep driving." I say.

"Not till you tell me what's wrong." I nod and get out of the car. Andy drives slowly beside me. "Please get back in the car." He pleas.

"No, you want me to talk out my feelings and I just want to fuck you." I say walking quickly.

"I just want you to be okay."

"Yeah well I'm not okay!" I yell.

"I'll see you at home I guess." He says and drives off.

I can't talk to Andy, he'll only hurt Alex and even though Alex has his faults, I still don't want him hurt. Alex was a great father and the way he reacted was much worse than I thought it would be. I need to talk to someone, but just can't. Well there is one person I could probably talk to. I take out my phone and dial her number.

"Hey Juliet, are you busy right now?" I ask.

"No, what's up Scar?" She asks.

"Can you pick me up in front of my old high school?"

"Sure I'll be there soon." I hang up and start walking back to the school. I get there as soon as she arrives. I get into the passenger's seat.

"So why didn't you walk home?" She asks and I just start bawling my eyes out. "Shh sweetie, it's okay." She tries to calm me down.

"But it's not... I broke things off with Alex... We both had been cheating on each other, but he still wanted me. Fourteen years and he still wants me... And I still don't want to let go... He's the one who encouraged my writing and because of that I help people. He's the one who stood by me, and never stopped loving me. I just don't want to let it all go. I had the best experiences of my life with him and no it's going to be gone. I am in love with Andy, but that doesn't take away the fact that I love Alex." I force myself to say through cries.

Juliet gives me a sympathetic smile before saying; "I know how you feel, or more how Alex must feel. I'm starting this new relationship with Blake but I still do love Andy. It was hard letting go of those years with Andy, even after all he put me through. But these are the sacrifices we make for the people we love."

"Yes, but what if this is a mistake? What if Andy is the death of me or my children?"

"Don't think about the future, focus on now. And maybe I'm wrong about Andy, I was really pissed off that day. Where do you want me to take you?"

"Have you and Blake visited Rick and Tess?" She nods. "Okay I have to pick up some belongings from there and then can you drop me off at Andy's apartment?"

"Sure Scar... You know if Blake and I tie the knot, I'm going to be your mom."

"Having my idol as my mom doesn't sound half bad."

She drives me to Ricky's, I get all the suitcases, and then she drops me off at the apartment. I text Andy telling him to help me move the stuff. He arrives almost instantly.

"How are you feeling?" He asks picking up the kids' bags.

"Better, sorry for the out burst." I say pulling along my bag into the building.

"Why are you apologizing? You didn't want to talk about it and I was being pushy." He says opening the apartment door. We both enter and put the stuff down.

"No you were right, but I just didn't want to talk about it with you. I thought you'd be mad if I told you I still have feelings for Alex."

"I'm not mad, I would be lying to you if I told you I don't have feelings for Jules. But I know I'm completely in love with you." He kisses me passionately and slightly picks me up when hugging me. "Hey do you still have the envelope?" He asks. I shake my head.

"I'll get it from Alex when he calms down." Andy nods.

"Well the sooner's the better."

Notes

Sorry for the short chapter. I've been in this weird mood for a few days and I didn't want you guys to get a shitty chapter. Well this might still be a shitty chapter, but whatever. I'd love it if anyone would comment some ideas for the next chapters. I love hearing your guys' ideas, it really helps when updating.

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