My Life

(3 Weeks Later)

Ugh! I want to rid myself of this stupid phone! Alex has been non stop texting and calling me, he even leaves abundances of voice mails, which I force myself to listen to. You're probably asking, why not just delete them? Well I feel like I deserve to put myself through this misery because I threw his life away. I was a selfish inconsiderate bitch, and now this is my karma.

"Mom just turn the phone off." Johnnie says.

"Aren't you supposed to be at school?" I ask crossing my arms.

He makes fake coughs. "I'm sick, now turn off your phone and stop putting yourself through this." He says sitting next to me.

"No, he's heard what I had to say, now it's time for me to."

"It's just that I love you and I hate to see you sad." I smile and hug him.

"You're not actually sick, are you?" He shakes his head. "Good, let's go out."

"Where to?"

"I don't know, the mall?" He nods, we drive down to the mall.

"Ooh Mom can we go into Hot Topic first?" He asks like a child. I nod and he runs inside.

He grabs Supernatural Tshirts, black jeans, a couple Panic! At The Disco tees, and a Black Veil Brides tag necklace. I smile at the necklace and get one myself. Then Johnnie pulls me over to Starbucks for over paid coffee. Afterwards we went to see a movie. I enjoy my time with Johnnie, I don't get to have much of it now that he has Jessica, but he's just growing up. God I sound like such an adult. I drop him off at Jessica's afterwards, and go home.

I sit on the couch and turn on my phone again. 6 voicemails, 3 missed calls, and 20 text messages. At least there's less than the last time I checked. I check the last voicemail.

"Listen Scar, this is my last message so please just listen to this one. I'm so sorry for what happened the night of the formal, I never meant to make you feel that way. I love you so much and I just want to talk to you before I sign the papers you sent. If there's a time you could arrange to talk, I'd appreciate it. I love you and I'm sorry." The voicemail finishes and tears swell up in my eyes.

Andy walks in and rushes over to me and holds me. He pulls me onto his lap and wraps his arms around me tightly. "Shh... Shhhh, what's wrong?" He whispers. I hand him my phone and cry into his chest. He replays the voicemail and puts down the phone. "Scar don't go see him, you're not ready for that yet. I know you still care for him, but you just can't."

I get up, grab my coat and keys, and walk out of the apartment. I drive down to Blake's mansion. I walk right in and look in the living room. Blake sits on his chair.

"What are you doing here kid?" He asks, I ignore the comment.

"Where's Juliet?" I ask.

"She's over at Ella's house, why?"

I turn around and walk out the door. I drive down to Ella's and Jake's house. I knock until there's an answer. Ella opens the door.

"Hi Scarlet, are you here to pick up Johnnie already?" She asks.

"Is Juliet here?" I ask.

"Yeah, come in." We walk into the kitchen and sit down at the table.

"Hey Scar, what's up?" Jules asks.

"Alex wants me to meet with him." I say.

"Juliet please catch me up." Ella says.

"She asked for a divorce with her husband and neither of them are taking it well. She wants to move on with Andy, but she still has feelings for Alex." Juliet says. Ella nods.

"So what do you want to do?" Ella asks.

"I want to talk to him, but I'm not ready. I need to get these emotions out of my system." I say.

"Text him that you're not ready to meet yet, but you will arrange a date to meet you." Jules says.

"But what if I'm never ready? What if he doesn't sign the papers after we talk?" I ask.

"Trust me, you will be ready and he will sign the papers. Everything in your life from here on will get better, I promise." Ella says hugging me, and Juliet joins in.

We hangout for a bit and then there's a knock on the door. Jake runs downstairs. "I'll get it!" He yells and answers the door. All of Black Veil Brides enter the house along with Amy.

"Hey mom." Amy says giving me a hug. "Hey Ella, Juliet." She gives a little wave. The guys enter the kitchen with boxes of pizza.

"Scarlet!" CC yells, we run to each other and hug. So that's how our relationship is.

"CC can you please get off my girlfriend?" Andy asks, I blush. Funny, fourteen years later and I still blush because of him.

"Nope, she's mine." CC says, I giggle. I kiss CC's cheek and make my way around. I hug Jinxx and Jake. I stop at Ashley.

"So we meet again." Ash says.

"I'm willing to restart this relationship and put us on good terms." I say.

"Agreed." He says and we have a short hug.

I move over to my boyfriend and just stare. "You got a hug for me?" Andy asks.

"Depends, what do you have for me?" I ask.

"How about I give you a kiss?" He asks.

"Uhh... Not good enough." I say, I turn around and begin to walk away. My waist is grabbed and I'm turned around by Andy. He kisses me and gives me a big hug.
"Jinxx, where's you wifey?" I ask.

"Me and Sammi got a divorce a few years back." Jinxx says.

"I'm sorry." I say and give him a kiss on the cheek.

Amy goes upstairs and hangs out with Johnica. Yeah me and Ella shipped them. The night carried out pretty well and I've gotten to know everyone and found a new appreciation for them too. Andy drives us home. We're all pretty quiet until...

"Johnnie and I can't share a room anymore." Amy spits out.

"Why not?" Andy asks, he's kinda clueless.

"Andy, they are too old to be sharing a room. We're going to have to find a new place to live soon." I say.

"I agree, I need to have privacy when Jess comes over." Johnnie says.

"Privacy is the last thing you're going to get when Jess comes over." I say.

"Come on Scar, he's a young man." Andy says.

"Andy can you just be on my side?" I ask.

"Well they're my kids too you know?" He asks.

"More of mine than yours." I say.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"It means that I raised the kids without you for fourteen years."

"I wanted to raise the kids, but no. You ran away with Alex and didn't look back."

I roll my eyes and the drive home was silent.

Notes

Shout out to IzzieDeadnow

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