A Saviour Will Be There, When You're Feeling Alone
To heal, your scars I will give you everything I can
Alexandria’s POV
It as been four days, so today it’s Friday...
Life is...well the same...
Ryan bullies me but only when I’m not with Andy...
Yes, Andy, I think that in 17 years of my life I never had a true friend and a person that I could call as best friend.
Andy is basically me but in a male form and taking out the part that I’m bulimic and I self harm...
I started to throw up again...
I’m so fat and ugly like Ryan and Ariana say...
“ALEX!” Madison started to scream, “ALREADY AWAKE!” I screamed back at her, I had been awake since 3 am.
I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t eat, if I ate I would throw up everything, I just can’t...... live...
I picked my clothes for today and walked to my bathroom, I had a bath. I then dressed myself but before putting my jacket I picked the friend that will never leave me, the friend that it’s always there for me... The Blade...
I made 10 cuts biting down on my lip as the pain passed throw my body.
I looked at my reflection in the mirror and saw my face and body...
“Disgusting...” I muttered.
I gazed my cuts and put my jacket, I picked my MCR backpack and shuffled to downstairs.
“Here’s your breakfast.” Madison said giving me a plate of pancakes with nutella.
“I already ate.” I lied.
Madison nodded her head and put the plate back on the table.
“Then let’s go!” She said showing me her car keys.
No, I’m going to walk to school.” I said.
Madison nodded her head but has a confused look on her face.
I walked out of my house and started to walk to school.
“Oh look who decided to walk to school today!”
I heard Ryan said behind me.
I kept walking praying that if I ignored him he would leave.
Risk that out he didn’t leave, instead he grabbed my shoulder and pushed me to the ground.
Ryan started to kick me, hitting me on my belly, legs, everywhere.
He hit on me one last type with as much force that he had making me groan and cough blood.
Ryan laughed and walked away leaving me now bruised on the ground.
I didn’t even try to get up, I just lied there on the floor wishing that he just killed me.
“ALEX!” someone yelled my name.
I didn’t respond to it or even move my body.
I started to see black dots on my vision and I gave in and closed my eyes.
Someone shook me and suddenly I opened my eyes seeing that piercing blue eyes that I love so much.
“Alex stay awake! I’m gonna call an ambulance.” I heard Andy said.
“N-no...” I tried to say, shocking in my own words.
“Then we have to take you home!” Andy said looking at my body.
“No!” This time I said it properly.
“Then I’m gonna take you to my place and clean your wounds, and we can ever skip school today if you want and we can just chill out together, maybe watch Batman?!”
I nodded my head and Andy picked me up bridal style and I looked at his face.
He looked angry but sad and worried at the same time.
He looked down at me, “Everything is going to be okay, I’m here for you.”
I tried to smile at him, I wanted to tell him that this wasn’t his fault.
I heard Andy searching for something on his jeans pocket, he then took out some keys and opened the door and went inside me still in his arms.
We went upstairs and he opened a door, I guess this is his room he put me down in his bed.
“Take off your jacket so I ca clean your wounds.” He said.
My eyes widened and I shook my head.
“Alex, I have to clean your wounds. Let me help you...” He said sitting in front of me.
I looked down and noticed tears were trying to get out, I blinked them away and let Andy take my jacket off.
My body was shocking in fear that he would leave me like everyone else.
He touched the gaze that was around my cuts and then looked at me, his eyes showed pain and sorrow.
He slowly took off the gaze and I think that I saw a tear sled down his face when he saw my cuts.
Suddenly he did something that I wasn’t counting on him to do.
He kissed them! He kissed my cuts...
“Please don’t do this to yourself again Alexandria.” He said.
It felt weird that he had called by my entire name, he always call me Alex.
“I don’t know if I can stop...” I told him.
“You’re strong enough! I’m here, I will be here when you’ll feel alone, I’m going to be here for all that you do, I will always be here.” He said.
“But you don’t understand, people never understand, the always leave me...”
I said crying.
“Alex... I get it... I do get it because... I used to cut too, but I stopped because I believed in myself. To heal your scars I will give you everything I can.” Andy said.
I looked down at my wrists and looked at my cuts, “I’m sorry.” I said.
He hugged me, “Don’t be, this is not your fault, its society fault.”
I nodded my head and hugged him back crying into his shoulder.
After some time he broke the hug and kissed me on the cheek, “Come on I still have to clean your wounds...”
Andy disinfected my wounds and then he gave me a pair of basketball shorts and a plain black t-shirt.
He then left the room so I could change clothes.
I dressed myself and when I was done I went downstairs.
I heard pooping sounds, so I walked to the kitchen Andy was walking around, he picked two monsters some coke, some snacks and then popcorn.
He stopped when he noticed that I was looking at him.
He smiled at me, “Hey” he said, “Hey” I said chuckling.
“We’re going to watch Sweeney Todd, I hope you don’t mind.” Andy said putting his hand on the back of his neck, “Are you kidding me?! I love Sweeney Todd!” I said smiling.
“AWESOME!” Andy said, “BTW my clothes look better on you!” He said chuckling.
I blushed.
It as been four days, so today it’s Friday...
Life is...well the same...
Ryan bullies me but only when I’m not with Andy...
Yes, Andy, I think that in 17 years of my life I never had a true friend and a person that I could call as best friend.
Andy is basically me but in a male form and taking out the part that I’m bulimic and I self harm...
I started to throw up again...
I’m so fat and ugly like Ryan and Ariana say...
“ALEX!” Madison started to scream, “ALREADY AWAKE!” I screamed back at her, I had been awake since 3 am.
I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t eat, if I ate I would throw up everything, I just can’t...... live...
I picked my clothes for today and walked to my bathroom, I had a bath. I then dressed myself but before putting my jacket I picked the friend that will never leave me, the friend that it’s always there for me... The Blade...
I made 10 cuts biting down on my lip as the pain passed throw my body.
I looked at my reflection in the mirror and saw my face and body...
“Disgusting...” I muttered.
I gazed my cuts and put my jacket, I picked my MCR backpack and shuffled to downstairs.
“Here’s your breakfast.” Madison said giving me a plate of pancakes with nutella.
“I already ate.” I lied.
Madison nodded her head and put the plate back on the table.
“Then let’s go!” She said showing me her car keys.
No, I’m going to walk to school.” I said.
Madison nodded her head but has a confused look on her face.
I walked out of my house and started to walk to school.
“Oh look who decided to walk to school today!”
I heard Ryan said behind me.
I kept walking praying that if I ignored him he would leave.
Risk that out he didn’t leave, instead he grabbed my shoulder and pushed me to the ground.
Ryan started to kick me, hitting me on my belly, legs, everywhere.
He hit on me one last type with as much force that he had making me groan and cough blood.
Ryan laughed and walked away leaving me now bruised on the ground.
I didn’t even try to get up, I just lied there on the floor wishing that he just killed me.
“ALEX!” someone yelled my name.
I didn’t respond to it or even move my body.
I started to see black dots on my vision and I gave in and closed my eyes.
Someone shook me and suddenly I opened my eyes seeing that piercing blue eyes that I love so much.
“Alex stay awake! I’m gonna call an ambulance.” I heard Andy said.
“N-no...” I tried to say, shocking in my own words.
“Then we have to take you home!” Andy said looking at my body.
“No!” This time I said it properly.
“Then I’m gonna take you to my place and clean your wounds, and we can ever skip school today if you want and we can just chill out together, maybe watch Batman?!”
I nodded my head and Andy picked me up bridal style and I looked at his face.
He looked angry but sad and worried at the same time.
He looked down at me, “Everything is going to be okay, I’m here for you.”
I tried to smile at him, I wanted to tell him that this wasn’t his fault.
I heard Andy searching for something on his jeans pocket, he then took out some keys and opened the door and went inside me still in his arms.
We went upstairs and he opened a door, I guess this is his room he put me down in his bed.
“Take off your jacket so I ca clean your wounds.” He said.
My eyes widened and I shook my head.
“Alex, I have to clean your wounds. Let me help you...” He said sitting in front of me.
I looked down and noticed tears were trying to get out, I blinked them away and let Andy take my jacket off.
My body was shocking in fear that he would leave me like everyone else.
He touched the gaze that was around my cuts and then looked at me, his eyes showed pain and sorrow.
He slowly took off the gaze and I think that I saw a tear sled down his face when he saw my cuts.
Suddenly he did something that I wasn’t counting on him to do.
He kissed them! He kissed my cuts...
“Please don’t do this to yourself again Alexandria.” He said.
It felt weird that he had called by my entire name, he always call me Alex.
“I don’t know if I can stop...” I told him.
“You’re strong enough! I’m here, I will be here when you’ll feel alone, I’m going to be here for all that you do, I will always be here.” He said.
“But you don’t understand, people never understand, the always leave me...”
I said crying.
“Alex... I get it... I do get it because... I used to cut too, but I stopped because I believed in myself. To heal your scars I will give you everything I can.” Andy said.
I looked down at my wrists and looked at my cuts, “I’m sorry.” I said.
He hugged me, “Don’t be, this is not your fault, its society fault.”
I nodded my head and hugged him back crying into his shoulder.
After some time he broke the hug and kissed me on the cheek, “Come on I still have to clean your wounds...”
Andy disinfected my wounds and then he gave me a pair of basketball shorts and a plain black t-shirt.
He then left the room so I could change clothes.
I dressed myself and when I was done I went downstairs.
I heard pooping sounds, so I walked to the kitchen Andy was walking around, he picked two monsters some coke, some snacks and then popcorn.
He stopped when he noticed that I was looking at him.
He smiled at me, “Hey” he said, “Hey” I said chuckling.
“We’re going to watch Sweeney Todd, I hope you don’t mind.” Andy said putting his hand on the back of his neck, “Are you kidding me?! I love Sweeney Todd!” I said smiling.
“AWESOME!” Andy said, “BTW my clothes look better on you!” He said chuckling.
I blushed.
Notes
So I hope you enjoyed this chapter, I wrote this chapter today while I was on my Science class because I just had this idea and I have to write it down. In my hand writing this chapter filled 6 pages of my notebook but I took some parts of so yeah....But well I hope you enjoyed, PLS comment telling me what you think of this chapter and the story so far!
Bye! ^^
5/15/13