They don't need to understand

Andy*

After I dropped CC off I headed home, Taking it slow so I don't crash. As I was driving my phone started to ring, I didn't dare answer it in fear of crashing. The roads were very bad and I almost slid twice so it was best to keep my phone away from my ear.

I finaly made it home and hurried inside, As I entered the house was dead silent, And it was still freezing, indicating the power wasn't on yet, I shivered slightly and made my way to the living room. As I walked in I saw Meridia curled up into Ashley's chest sleeping, and Ash half asleep himself, I laughed quietly and pulled out my phone ready to take a picture "Don't even think about It" I heard Ash say, I looked up to see him staring at me through a half open eye "Come on" I said laughing again "Nope" he popped the 'p' "What time is it" he asked stretching a bit "five forty-eight" I said taking a seat on the chair across from him "So how bad are the roads?" he asked sitting up putting Meridia's head in his lap covering her up more "Pfft there really bad, saw 3 cars in the ditch and almost spun out a few times" I said as I fiddled with my phone "Thank god you're okay, We just became cool" Meridia's tired voice spoke

Meridia*

"Shouldn't you be asleep?" Andy asked me I sat up and looked at him "I didn't wanna miss My mum and your dad getting back" I confessed Siting up "I would have woken you up when they got back" He said smiling slightly and then, for the fifth time his phone went off "Hello"-"Oh hey dad"-"Ugh Really?"-"Are you serious??"-"It's Christmas, dont they under stand that?"-"Yes I get it"-"I know its a bad storm"-"okay I'm sorry"-"Fine. Love you too"-"Bye" he sighed and slumped back in his chair "A-Andy are they-" "Not yet... He's never done this. before..." Andy said disappointed "Unfortunately I'm used to it" I said barely audible "What?" Andy asked "Hmm? Nothing" I stated quickly trying to cover up what I said "No. Don't pull that, What did you say?" Andy pushed "I said I'm used to it.." I was trying to hold back tears at this point "What do you mean" Ashley asked "I've been ignored and abused almost my whole life. Physical by my father and by Ryan, Mentally by my mother and kids at school" I said starting to cry, I felt Andy's arms embrace me in a hug "It's okay, Mer I promise.. I know-" I cut him off there "No." I said pulling away from him "Don't, Dot for a second try and act like you have a clue about whats going on in my life, Before My mother met your father, She was going out to clubs drinking and fucking anything that moves then she got a job and stopped all that, until she met your dad, now she has another reason to not be around again. I FUCKING HATE HER, I WISH SHE WAS DEAD! " I yelled at him "Listen Mer, I do und-" I shook my head vigorously "No, Andy. FOR FUCKS SAKES YOU FUCKING HARASSED ME FOR THE LONGEST TIME, YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND" I blew up before running to my room and closing and locking the door.

Not even 3 seconds later Andy was knocking on my door "Meridia, Please,Open the door, Do-Don't hurt your self!" I had no intentions of hurting myself I just wanted to be alone and cry, The next thing I know Andy was in the living room babbling about something I heard another knock at my door but didnt respond "Mer.. Love. It's me. Open the door" I slowly stood up and unlocked the door stepping back so Ashley could come in "Hey." He said quietly "Hi..." He sighed and stepped closer "What a fucking great start to christmas eave eh" I said trying to lighten the mood but Ashley saw right through me and as soon as he pulled me in to his arms I started sobbing and he just held me tighter. He held me till there were no tears left and even a little while after "I-I-I'm sorry" I said hiccuping a little "For what?" Ashley asked "I ruined your shirt" I confessed looking at him "I dont care about the shirt. I care if your okay.... And clearly right now you're not" He said holding my hand "Ye-yeah, I am" I tried to convince him "And why dont I believe you?" he questioned I looked up at him slightly.. "Because your..." I sighed in defeat looking down.

"Is everything okay in here?" Andy asked standing at the door "Yeah, Just talking" Ash spoke for me Andy then looked over at me "I'm sorry for what happened, I honestly didn't know what you've been through. I feel like a dick" he stated looking down at his feet "Andy... It's okay, we should all just get some sleep.." I said before turning around and crawling into bed I heard Andy leave the room and Ash crawled into the bed with me. that was when I slipped into a dreamNightmare...

It was a normal day, Went to school. Got harassed same old shit. But as I left the school grounds the scenery changed.. And I was at the park with Ashley on a picnic it was a nice sunny day but then clouds started rolling in and it started pouring thunder and lightening Ash and I quickly ran to a near by shelter to keep dry "you stay here, I forgot the food" Ash murmurer before running out into the rain, A few seconds later I heard a blood curdling scream I freaked out a bit until I felt arms snake around me "Hey Ashley" I hummed "not Ashley" I shot out form the persons grasp to see it was my father "Whe-Where's Ashley?" I Asked "Ouh? You mean this?" He asked as he pulled Ashley's disembodied head from behind his back, I screamed in terror "What did you do?!?!" I yelled, and my father gave a deep chuckle "I haven't done anything... yet" then another person came from out of the trees with Andy and A gun pressed to his head "Now..." He said as he trailed his hands down my sides "Were going to have some fun" I pushed him off me "Don't touch me, You sick bastard" I seethed. That earned a slap to the face.

The next thing I know my cloths are being torn off me "STOP! PLEASE DON'T" I cried then Andy shouted "LET HER GO YO-" but then he got shot in the head "ANDY!" I screeched "Now you little slut" My father started to say "You're going to pay" I waited for the blow But heard someone shout my name

"MERIDIA!!!" Ashley shouted, with panic in his voice, I sat up tears streaming down my face as I let out a scream of terror "Hey, It's okay.. You're okay, I have got you. It is okay" Ashley said as he rocked me back and forth trying to calm me down, after a while I was calm enough to talk "Are you okay?" he asked rubbing my back "Ye-yeah, I think so.. What time is it?" I asked regaining my breath "Nine twenty five in the morning" I sighed "I guess we should get up" I said putting my feet on the cool ground and walked out of my room, Ashley followed as I walked into the kitchen aria a waft of bacon and eggs filled my nose and I felt like throwing up "good morning" Andy said in a happy voice "Foods ready if you want any... Oh and Mer" He said turning to face me "You have no choice" He handed me a plate of scrambled eggs and floppy bacon "But-" "No buts eat" I slowly brought a fork full of eggs to my mouth "How much do I have to eat?" I asked looking up through my eyelashes "Try and eat enough." And said turning around "How much is enough" He sighed and came over to me taking my plate and scraping some in the garbage, coming back over to me I saw that there was little to no food on the plate "At least eat all of that" I too a second look at the plate and agreed.

I left the kitchen and sat down in the living room with my plate and slowly began eating, I got done and put my plate in the sink and started washing the dishes "Thank you for eating mer" Andy mumbled "Mhm" I hummed "Hey Ash I gotta go and get last minutethings for tonight's dinner, can you keep thing's under control while im out?" Ashley spun around "Of coerce" "Thanks man" Andy said before leaving "I'm gonna go get dressed" I said before running up the stairs, Was I actually getting dressed. No. I needed to get rid of anything I ate.
I forced my fingers down my throat and started purging, then my hair was being pulled away from my face and someone was rubbing my back "This needs to stop Meridia" Ashley said softly "I can't, you dont understand.. I can't" I choked out , He pulled me onto his lap and held me tight.. "I Know you can. And you will get through this" he said as he kissed my forehead "Please don't tell Andy, I promise ill do better, I dont want him knowing" He looked at me and sighed "Only if you get better"

After a while Andy came back and we started to set up the table for dinner then Andy's phone rang "ANSWER IT!" I yelled "Hello"-"Hey dad" "PUT IT ON SPEAKER" I shouted and Andy chuckled and put it on speaker "We just Landed now, We should be home in an hour" Andy;s dads voice came through the phone "Okay dad be safe" "Will do see you soon" then they hung up "see I told you they would be home for Christmas" I looked up and nodded but I had an awful feeling in the pit of my stomach... And that feeling became reality only 45 minutes later

The phone rang and this time I answered it.. Because it was the house phone "Hello?" I asked and Andy and Ashley came in from out side "Is this the biersack residence?" the unfamiliar voice asked "I guess you could say that.. Who is this?" 'who is it' Andy mouthed I held up a finger "this is gracevill Hospital, We have mister and misses biersack There had been and accident and we are sorry to inform you that they were Dead On Arrival" My whole world stopped I almost dropped the phone, But Andy took it from me and Ashley came over to hold me up. I just couldn't take it.. It was christmas Eve.. This was all my fault..

After andy hung up the phone then threw it across the room "FUCK!" he yelled "GOD DAMN FUCKING SHIT" For every syllable Andy shouted I flinched, I knew this all to well. Some one was going to get hit "A-Andy" I reach out, tears streaming down my face he spun around "THIS IS YOUR FAULT!" he shouted "Wh-what?" I asked choking out a suppressed sob "IF YOU AND YOUR MOTHER HADN'T HAVE WALKED IN OUR LIVES, AND FUCKED EVERYTHING UP, MY DAD WOULD NOT BE DEAD RIGHT NOW!" he just kept shouting and throwing things "Andy, just calm down" Ash tried "HOW CAN I FUCKING CALM DOWN" Andy said finally breaking down falling to his knees "Andy I-" "I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT MERIDIA, FUCKING LEAVE, YOUR MOTHER'S DEAD, YOU ARE NO LONGER MY FAMILY!" now that hurt. I didn't even give it a second thought, I ran out of the house barely hearing Ashley telling Andy off. and down to where ever.

I found my self in an open aria with no one around. I finally just let it all out. "WHY!" I screamed at the sky hoping my mom could hear me "HOW COULD YOU FUCKING DO THIS TO ME, I NEEDED YOU, YOU FUCKING LEFT AND I HAVE NO ONE! FUCKING NO ONE! YOU WERE MY MOTHER. WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?!?!? GOD DAMN FUCKING DAMN IT FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!" I kept screaming until my voice gave out. I collapsed to my knees in the snow, Crying and choking on sobs, I started to hear people calling my name but I ignored it, Feeling quite tired. I mean with it being -18 and im out here in a dress no wonder im getting hypothermia.

I curled my self up in a ball not caring if I freeze to death, The voices were getting louder stopping me from my endless slumber they were saying my name "Meridia,?'' "Mer, Please where are you?" "Fuck... Ashley, You don't understand.. I cant, Not her to, I CANT FUCKING LOOSE HER, SHE'S MY FUCKING SISTER!" That was Andy.. I couldn't concentrate properly and everything was growing fuzzy and suddenly I didn't want to leave, Even though Andy don't really care.

I saw a light flash over my way and then stop "Andy-" "This is stupid she's not out her.. Fuck I lost her, What if she's dead wh- "ANDY STOP. there's someone over there" I heard feet break out into a run and then someone slid down beside me "Meridia?" he asked panic rising I felt a warm hand on the side of my face I attempted to talk but it come out in mumbles "A.. AmdiImSsoreh" My strength was weakening "Ash asHLEY BRING THE CAR AROUND NOW!" Andy nearly screeched and brought me into his lap, I was to week to push away from him and I mumbled a "Put me down" but he helt me tighter soon enough the car was right infront of us and I was placed in the back seat, And sitting on the floor in the back "Stay with us... I am NOT fucking losing you too, I can't fucking loose you" Those are the last words I heard before blacking out.

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