The Moment

Rain's POV (' ' = Rain's Brain)
'Wonder Pets! Wonder Pets! We're on our way. To help a baby panda and save the day!'
WTF Brain? Stop...
'We're not too big...'
NO!
'And we're not too tough..'
Brain, what is wrong with you?!
'But when we work together we've got the right stuff!'
STOP. NO BRAIN. STOP IT!
'Sorry... :('
It's okay, just no more wonder pets.
'Okay, how about some wicked dream about some bands?'
Okay!
Wait... Why am I having a conversation with my brain?
'Because I'm the only one that can hear you.'
What do you mean you're the only one that can hear me?
'Well, you're in a coma. I don't know how much longer I can hold on in this state either...'
Oh... Well if I'm going to die can I at least have that wicked dream?
'Sure.'
~Rain drifts into a dream~
Ash's POV
It's been a week since Rain has been put into a coma.
The only time I've left her side was to shower, and even that wasn't too far from her.
Thank God they have mildly decent showers at this hospital.
The guys have tried getting me to leave Rain to sleep in an actual bed, but I can't bring myself to leave her.
Even if I did leave I wouldn't be able to get proper sleep, so here I am, refusing to leave her side.
Occasionally I'll leave the room to get food from the drab cafeteria on the first floor.
Dingy grey walls of Rain's room and the faded yellow paint peeling off the cafeteria walls are being imprinted into my mind.
I have my routine here and the more I continue it, the more depressing it grows.
I fear that soon I will reach my breaking point, and fall into such a depression that causes my own hospitalization.
And in turn I will deteriorate into nothingness.
Poetic, isn't it?
It's how I feel, but if Rain knew that she would kick my ass from where ever someone goes when they're in a coma.
Dreamland maybe. It sounds more pleasant to think of it like that.
People in comas disappear into their dreamland until they wake up.
If they wake up.....
Today was the day we were supposed to resume our tour, but due to the circumstances we felt it best to push things back a week or so.
None of us are in our right minds, and we will not risk the quality of performance for our fans.
The fans, who were very understanding, hoped that Rain would get well soon.
Maybe they're acting so kindly because we didn't mention that her and I are together.
I'm sure some of them would be bitter towards her if we did, but I shouldn't be thinking about that.
Soon it might not even matter.
Unfortunately, if Rain doesn't wake from comatose by then I will have to do one of the hardest things I can think of.
I will have to leave Rain.
A few short hours after Rain was put into a coma she was put onto life support.
I will have to tell the doctors to pull the plug, to turn off her life support.
I'm going to have to give up on my girl, no matter how much I don't want to.
It's what has to happen. Once we leave there won't be anyone to watch over her.
Her mom is somewhere drunk as a skunk, and her dad is who knows where.
Skylar and her parents can't spend the time needed for watching over my sweet, so it resorts to the worst thing possible.
I don't know what I'm going to do.
How will I muster the strength to tell them to flip the switch, to end it all.
Most of all how will I be able to keep myself from falling back into my old ways.
The ways where I took what I could, and didn't care who got hurt in the process.
I promised Rain that I wouldn't fall apart if she died.
I will do that one thing for her, even if it means not feeling anything at all.
"Ashley, you need to get out of this room for a while." Jinxx said from the door.
"I've been out of the room." I answered truthfully.
"To go to the cafeteria for food then straight back up again. Ash you need out of this hospital in general." Jinxx argued.
"I will leave the hospital."
It wasn't a lie. I'm going to leave the hospital.
Right when the doctors start to turn off the life support.
I will not stay and watch my love's life taken away.
I refuse to see it happen. It would almost be as bad as killing her myself.
"Ashley, you need to get out immediately. Like today. Within the next 10 minutes," Jinxx stated " go and get clean clothes, real food to eat, some real sleep. Rain isn't going anywhere, you can leave for a few hours."
"Jinxx I'm not leaving until they are going to flip the switch!" I yelled.
I NEED to spend as much time holding her hand, looking at her beautiful face, and playing with her hair as I can.
"Ash if there's anything you need to be here for, it's that. That's the time to give your final goodbyes. The last chance to say everything that needs to be said." He replied calmly.
"I don't want to see them taking her life away."
"Think of things like this. If she isn't strong enough to come out of a coma that means her life is already gone, and keeping her on life support is keeping her in pain." Jinxx spoke softly.
As much as I hate to admit it, Jinxx is probably right.
To think we are keeping Rain in pain makes me feel as if my heart is being squeezed tightly, only able to make a painful throbbing ache that travels deep to my core.
Is my Rain too far gone to be saved?
Since being put into a coma she's gotten worse, at least from what I've been told.
Is it really too late, is this the battle she won't be able to fight through?

Notes

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I got really poetic there for a second