Save Me From Myself
Covered By Your Grace
The car ride to the hotel was strangly quite. Although, I guess I actually understood. This was some pretty deep shit. I started to get lost in thought as I looked around. These amazing guys, saved my life again. And not only mine, but Paige's too. She couldn't stay there forever, and neither could I. And then where would we be? Out on the streets, with nowhere to go. Could I go back to my parents? Hah. Hell no. I'd rather die then go back there. But these guys... they made it so we wouldn't have to find out. They took us in. Two girls they barely know... I'd never be able to repay this debt. I was so grateful.
When we rolled up to the hotel, we all hopped out and swarmed inside. We rode the elevator up and walked down the hall till we stood outside Paig- or I gues... our room. Paige swiped her card, and we all stepped in.
Gasps of suprise came from some of the guys. "Paige, you've lived here for a year?" Jake asked. Paige just nodded and walked away to start packing.
I went over to my suitcase, and started to fold and put away stray clothing. A stray tear streamed down my cheek. Not a tear of sadness, but of happiness. I was finally gonna have a good home. Paige was finally going to be around people, who do nothing but love her. And I as well. Another wave of gratefulnes washed over me. My god. My saviors. I wish I could do something to repay this ultamite act of kindness, but I had nothing. I'd just be good. I'd follow rules backstage. I wouldn't bother them unless necessary. And I wouldn't be in their way. That was at least a start. Another tear fell down my face.
Suddenly, I felt a hand lift up my chin. Andy stood in front of me, worry and sadness on his face. "Don't cry," he said softly, "please." I just nodded, and yet another tear fell. -Geez I was a mess- He whiped away my tear, and pulled me into a hug. "Be strong," he said.
I held on to him, emotions of all kind swirling through me. Happiness, sadness, worry, regret, gratefulness.
"I will..." was all I said.
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Only after Paige was done packing did Andy pull away from the hug. I didn't want him to let go. It felt good to finally be held by someone who cared. I felt important for once. I smiled as best as I could, though anyone with a brain could tell it was forced. But I did it just to show him I was ok. And I was.
He half smiled, walked past me, and picked up my bag, zipped and ready to go.
"Oh!" I said alarmingly. "Y-you don't have to carry anything! I can get it."
He laughed. "It's alright, I got it. You go on. Be with Paige. She could probably use your support."
I nodded, happily, and walked over to Paige. I locked my arm around hers, and she held on. She laid her head on my shoulder as we walked. "It's a new beginning." She murmured. I sighed. "It's a new start." I agreed. We walked in-step to the car, and she placed her bags in the trunk. We stepped into the backseat of the car together. Andy sat next to us. Jinx, Ashley, sat in the middle while Jake sat in the passenger seat and CC drove. Andy placed his hand on my thigh. It felt comforting. He kept his hand there for the whole drive.
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Jinxx opened up the tour bus door. We all stepped inside. And I swear, the minute I looked around, my heart stopped.
It. Looked. So. PERFECT!
What I guess was the living room, had a large, black leather couch. There was a flatscreen, and even a minifridge next to the couch. The beds were smallish, but everything else was amazing. It was like my dream place. Posters of awesome bands, huge tvs, mini fridges, instruments everywhere. Ugh, I was in heaven. I must have been oggle eyed, cause soon I felt someone tapping my shoulder. I snapped back to reality.
"Emily?" Andy said. "You alright? Look kinda zoned out there."
I shook my head. "I'm fine. Its just... this place, it's so perfect!" Andy chuckled. "I'm glad you like it. I wouldn't want you to be unhappy here." He winked and walked over to a bed. I lightly blushed and softly smiled. He set my stuff down on top. "You'll be bunking across from me if thats ok?" I blushed a darker shade of pink. Luckily, he was faced away from me. "Ya." I replied. "Ya that's fine." I tried to cover my blush, and walked over to my bag. "Thanks." I said, trying to act casual. I pulled myself up to the bed, and sat crisscross on the edge. "For everything."
"It's no problem. We're happy to help." He shrugged.
"No..." I said. I guess he'd have to know sometime. "Thank you, for saving my life. I... I probably wouldn't be here if it weren't for you..."
He looked confused. "What do you mean?"
"I mean..." I trailed off. I just couldn't do it. His face showed he understood.
"It's alright." He reassured me. "You can tell me anything. But only when you're ready. I'm not gonna pressure you into saying anything you're not ready to tell me." I nodded.
He smiled. "Alright now we gotta get to the others, they went off somewhere without us!" He grabbed onto my wrists to help me off. Pain suddenly shot though me. Fuck! I thought. My cuts! I can't beieve I forgot. I let out a small cry of agony. Andy quickly let go, and shock consumed his face. I stood up, ducking my head and softly rubbing my wrist. Well... that was a sure shitty way of him finding out. I looked back up, and could tell he wasnt happy. Worry, shock, and a glint of anger was his expression. What happened next, went by in almost a blur.
you should totally continue, this story is amazing! its one of my favorites!
4/21/15