Ashleys POV

we had been at warp tour for about an hour when the noises of sound check started to fill the grounds. i heard a female voice, it was beautiful! the whole band where amaxzing!
"dude whos that band?" i said to andy was he was walkin toward to bus. i was sat our side with cc talking
"Where's Wonderland, i think thats what she called it," he said he seemed like he had just seen a ghost
"she? who?" cc asked
"dont freak?" andy asekd raising an eyebrow, we nodded, "its Carolyn... she did it, thats her singing,"
"my carolyn? the one that got up and left and i never saw ever again? that one that broke m heart?" i queestioned. andy nodded and then i just got up and started walking towards the stage. the boys were by my said, jinxx, jake cc and andy.

Carolyn noticed me quickly and a huddle of guys from her band surrounded her and another girl. sh saw me and ran. i need to talk to her. i followed her while the rest of the band stopped to talk to the rest of the band.
i finally caught her up.
"Carolyn?" i questioned. she had changed, she had grown up.
"A-Ashley..." why did she seem worried, scared even to say myname?
"i need to explain,"
"yeah. needed to four years ago!" then she started to walk away
i grabbed her soft hand and pulled her behind a tour bus i need to talk to her. but first i kissed her

i grabbed her waist and pulled her into me, i put one hand on her face and then started to kiss her. she kiss me back but soon cut it off.
"what was that?" she said push me away
"something i forgot made me fall so in love, made me feel something. it was somethig i took for granted." i answered
"yeah, miss fucking barbie enjoyed it though didnt she?! yeah i saw you! why do you think i left?! you were cheating on me...not exactly piratively either was it!" she shouted
"it wasnt liek that! it was nothing like that! that was my fucking crazy ex! Jem, came here cornered me back stage and started kissing me, she came on to me!"
"yeah sure, so you just stopped it when jake saw me right? yeah get caught and have to stop!"
"no! CC had managed to get her off me and then i was about to come and explain it when i saw you and you ran!"
"and you never thought to run after me..." she asked and suddenly a huge lump emeregd in my throat
"didnt think so.." she tried to walk away again after answering her own questiom
"of course i did. that show i had to play five minutes aafter i saw you go, i walked off half way. i tried to get to you and i couldnt find you... i asked alex when i couldnt find you at all and he said you were on a plane....i was about to fly out to find you,"
"and what stopped you. ash we may have still been toegter right now but no...you didnt stop me," tears ran down her face, "i waited for months about two years actually for you to find me, and you didnt...i want you to show me you cared and you didnt show... i want you to still care and you obviously didnt..." what she said, it ripped me apart and shattered my heart.

i fucked it up...she was the one. she was mine.i ruined it. i was such a idiot...how could i let someone so special slip away.. she was the one that got away