My Fallen Angel
Chapter 14
I wake up in a strange building and it’s very hot. I sit up slowly as my head is pounding and look around. Everything is either red or black and I recognise some of the contents. From where, I don’t know, but it all looks so familiar. I try to stand up, but my head is hurting so bad and as I try it starts to hurt more.
“You’re awake, daughter” I hear a gruff voice say
A man walks in with wings almost like mine, but where mine are red his are black, and where mine are black his are red. I look at him cautiously before fully realising what he said
“Daughter?” I question
“Of course you don’t know me, you’ve been on Earth with your mother your entire life, how could I forget?”
“I haven’t live with my mother since I was almost three and I had a father, so who are you?”
“I’m your real father, that pathetic human only claimed you as his because he was dating the girl I had mated with”
Just then another demon walks in with wings like Nick’s. He looks like a servant of sorts “My Lord, I was instructed to bring this to you”
He hands the man who’s been talking to me something that looks like medicine
“Thank you, you may leave now” The man says and the servant, I’m assuming, makes his leave “Here, take this”
I look at it curiously, but don’t take it as I was told
“It’ll make you feel better. It’s kind of like medicine that you have on Earth”
I just look at it sceptically
“Or don’t, I’m only trying to help. I haven’t seen my daughter twenty-six years”
“Who are you?” I ask
“I’m your father, Lucifer, you’ve probably heard about me since your mother became really religious after me mated, something about cleansing herself”
I remember the dream I had when that demon hunter kept calling me a princess and somehow I feel this isn’t a dream
“Wait, so my mother knew I was a demon?”
“Yes, but she had hoped that baptising you would somehow take that away and when you showed your wings for the first time, she freaked out”
“This isn’t a dream is it?”
“No, when you tried to kill yourself, your spirit was sent here so that it could heal”
“Then why didn’t I come here when I stabbed myself in the stomach four and half years ago?”
“Because you had not died”
“Wait; hold up, I’m dead?”
“No, well, you died so your spirit came here, but being the princess, you could heal yourself. You’re alive in a traitor demon’s home”
“Trait- Oh god, Nick, he’s probably freaking out right now!”
“No, he knows you’re the princess and therefore knows you can heal yourself”
“Wait, he knows?” I ask somewhat horrified “Why didn’t he tell me?”
“Of course he knows, you and I are the only ones with red and black wings and everyone knows that the princess would be twenty-six in human years, he’d be foolish not to know”
“Don’t call him foolish and don’t ever call him a traitor” I say the last part in a growl
“Well he is, but I suppose if you don’t wish him to be, we can have that title removed from his name”
“You’re oddly kind for a demon lord”
“You’re my daughter and I’ve never even met you, any parent would be behaving this way. We’re not that different from humans, in fact humans are more like us than angels, no matter how similar humans think they are to angels” He says ‘angels’ each time like it’s a curse word “Which reminds me, that damned angel you’re seeing has got to go”
“But he’s not even an angel anymore” I protest, instantly seeing the father like figure in him
“Fallen or not, they’re scum and you should never associate yourself with the likes of him”
“But”
“No”
“He’s the only person I’ve ever loved and the only person to not treat me like total trash, aside from Belle”
Lucifer seems taken aback by this statement
“Does he not know of your true nature yet?” He asks
“About me being a demon? Yes, yes he does”
“Then he’s gaining your trust so he can kill you later”
“No he’s not” I scream “He loves me too and I know it”
“But the princess can’t marry an angel”
“I’m not the princess, stop calling me that, I’ve never even been here before, this is the first I’m hearing of being any kind of royalty, and I love him” I yell as loud as I can and a guard rushes in
“Are you hurt, My Lord?” The guard questions
“No, now leave” Lucifer says with hate all over his voice
“You’re even worse than my other father”
Lucifer looks genuinely hurt by this comment “I didn’t mean to upset you I-“
“Well you did” I cut him off “I’m leaving”
“And just how do you plan on doing that?”
“I don’t know, I’ll figure it out”
“I know you will, you always were clever, just like your mother” Is that... tears?
“Don’t ever speak of my mother” I yell at him and suddenly everything before me disappears
I wake up in an apartment.
‘Nick’s’ I think
I sit up slowly and hold my head since it’s pounding here too
“Jessicka, you’re awake” Nick says happily
“Yea. Why didn’t you ever tell me I was royalty?”
“What”
“Don’t play stupid. I talked to my- Lucifer while I was asleep here”
“I figured you had” He says and looks down
“So why didn’t you tell me?”
“I don’t know... I guess I just felt like you’d abandon me or something”
“I wouldn’t have” I say “I have to talk to Andy, please don’t tell Annabelle, she’d only blame herself”
“Don’t worry, I won’t tell anyone”
“Thanks” I say and leave. I close the door and stand there for a moment, just outside Nick’s apartment
He really is a great friend and I understand why he wouldn’t tell me I was royalty, with what he went through while he was in Hell, but I can’t worry about him right now because he’s fine. He knew I wouldn’t have died, that’s why he was so eerily calm when he found me, but Andy is probably worried sick right now.
I walk away from Nick’s door, down the stairs and out the door and head for Andy’s place. I had just left without telling him anything, so of course he’d be worried, he’s kind like that, but I don’t know if I can tell him. The truth, the whole truth. About what I’ve done, what I’ve been through and how my anger had, as I thought, solved everything, how if it weren’t for me being a demon, I would’ve been dead a long time ago. Tell him about how I cope with everything through violence and hate. Tell him about how I’ve solved everything with rage and claws.
Could I really tell him all that? Or would I just get scared of being left alone again and say nothing?
There’s no doubt that I can trust him, but would he really stay with me, knowing what I’ve done to anyway who ever even had the passing thought of hurting me?
Could I tell him without hurting him too?
Would those voices come back? The voices I haven’t heard in five and a half years
Would I lose control again?
Before I know it I’m at Andy’s apartment complex and I’m headed up the stairs, thoughts still bombarding my mind.
I stop just outside his door and knock, lightly, probably hoping he won’t hear me, but he answers anyway, with a warm hug and a soft kiss on the head
“I was so worried, Jess, I’m so glad you’re okay” He says as we walk into his living area
“I have something I need to tell you” I say
“You’re awake, daughter” I hear a gruff voice say
A man walks in with wings almost like mine, but where mine are red his are black, and where mine are black his are red. I look at him cautiously before fully realising what he said
“Daughter?” I question
“Of course you don’t know me, you’ve been on Earth with your mother your entire life, how could I forget?”
“I haven’t live with my mother since I was almost three and I had a father, so who are you?”
“I’m your real father, that pathetic human only claimed you as his because he was dating the girl I had mated with”
Just then another demon walks in with wings like Nick’s. He looks like a servant of sorts “My Lord, I was instructed to bring this to you”
He hands the man who’s been talking to me something that looks like medicine
“Thank you, you may leave now” The man says and the servant, I’m assuming, makes his leave “Here, take this”
I look at it curiously, but don’t take it as I was told
“It’ll make you feel better. It’s kind of like medicine that you have on Earth”
I just look at it sceptically
“Or don’t, I’m only trying to help. I haven’t seen my daughter twenty-six years”
“Who are you?” I ask
“I’m your father, Lucifer, you’ve probably heard about me since your mother became really religious after me mated, something about cleansing herself”
I remember the dream I had when that demon hunter kept calling me a princess and somehow I feel this isn’t a dream
“Wait, so my mother knew I was a demon?”
“Yes, but she had hoped that baptising you would somehow take that away and when you showed your wings for the first time, she freaked out”
“This isn’t a dream is it?”
“No, when you tried to kill yourself, your spirit was sent here so that it could heal”
“Then why didn’t I come here when I stabbed myself in the stomach four and half years ago?”
“Because you had not died”
“Wait; hold up, I’m dead?”
“No, well, you died so your spirit came here, but being the princess, you could heal yourself. You’re alive in a traitor demon’s home”
“Trait- Oh god, Nick, he’s probably freaking out right now!”
“No, he knows you’re the princess and therefore knows you can heal yourself”
“Wait, he knows?” I ask somewhat horrified “Why didn’t he tell me?”
“Of course he knows, you and I are the only ones with red and black wings and everyone knows that the princess would be twenty-six in human years, he’d be foolish not to know”
“Don’t call him foolish and don’t ever call him a traitor” I say the last part in a growl
“Well he is, but I suppose if you don’t wish him to be, we can have that title removed from his name”
“You’re oddly kind for a demon lord”
“You’re my daughter and I’ve never even met you, any parent would be behaving this way. We’re not that different from humans, in fact humans are more like us than angels, no matter how similar humans think they are to angels” He says ‘angels’ each time like it’s a curse word “Which reminds me, that damned angel you’re seeing has got to go”
“But he’s not even an angel anymore” I protest, instantly seeing the father like figure in him
“Fallen or not, they’re scum and you should never associate yourself with the likes of him”
“But”
“No”
“He’s the only person I’ve ever loved and the only person to not treat me like total trash, aside from Belle”
Lucifer seems taken aback by this statement
“Does he not know of your true nature yet?” He asks
“About me being a demon? Yes, yes he does”
“Then he’s gaining your trust so he can kill you later”
“No he’s not” I scream “He loves me too and I know it”
“But the princess can’t marry an angel”
“I’m not the princess, stop calling me that, I’ve never even been here before, this is the first I’m hearing of being any kind of royalty, and I love him” I yell as loud as I can and a guard rushes in
“Are you hurt, My Lord?” The guard questions
“No, now leave” Lucifer says with hate all over his voice
“You’re even worse than my other father”
Lucifer looks genuinely hurt by this comment “I didn’t mean to upset you I-“
“Well you did” I cut him off “I’m leaving”
“And just how do you plan on doing that?”
“I don’t know, I’ll figure it out”
“I know you will, you always were clever, just like your mother” Is that... tears?
“Don’t ever speak of my mother” I yell at him and suddenly everything before me disappears
I wake up in an apartment.
‘Nick’s’ I think
I sit up slowly and hold my head since it’s pounding here too
“Jessicka, you’re awake” Nick says happily
“Yea. Why didn’t you ever tell me I was royalty?”
“What”
“Don’t play stupid. I talked to my- Lucifer while I was asleep here”
“I figured you had” He says and looks down
“So why didn’t you tell me?”
“I don’t know... I guess I just felt like you’d abandon me or something”
“I wouldn’t have” I say “I have to talk to Andy, please don’t tell Annabelle, she’d only blame herself”
“Don’t worry, I won’t tell anyone”
“Thanks” I say and leave. I close the door and stand there for a moment, just outside Nick’s apartment
He really is a great friend and I understand why he wouldn’t tell me I was royalty, with what he went through while he was in Hell, but I can’t worry about him right now because he’s fine. He knew I wouldn’t have died, that’s why he was so eerily calm when he found me, but Andy is probably worried sick right now.
I walk away from Nick’s door, down the stairs and out the door and head for Andy’s place. I had just left without telling him anything, so of course he’d be worried, he’s kind like that, but I don’t know if I can tell him. The truth, the whole truth. About what I’ve done, what I’ve been through and how my anger had, as I thought, solved everything, how if it weren’t for me being a demon, I would’ve been dead a long time ago. Tell him about how I cope with everything through violence and hate. Tell him about how I’ve solved everything with rage and claws.
Could I really tell him all that? Or would I just get scared of being left alone again and say nothing?
There’s no doubt that I can trust him, but would he really stay with me, knowing what I’ve done to anyway who ever even had the passing thought of hurting me?
Could I tell him without hurting him too?
Would those voices come back? The voices I haven’t heard in five and a half years
Would I lose control again?
Before I know it I’m at Andy’s apartment complex and I’m headed up the stairs, thoughts still bombarding my mind.
I stop just outside his door and knock, lightly, probably hoping he won’t hear me, but he answers anyway, with a warm hug and a soft kiss on the head
“I was so worried, Jess, I’m so glad you’re okay” He says as we walk into his living area
“I have something I need to tell you” I say
Notes
Another chapter up, I hope you guys like it.
What do you think will happen next chapter? Will she tell him or just run again?
Thanks for reading. I love you all and remember to always stay strong
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8/21/15