Unsung Heroes

Previously:
“Do you want kids?”

I almost stabbed myself in the side of my head with my hair straightener, in surprise.
Did Ashley Purdy just ask me if I want kids? Ashley Purdy, the bassist of Black Veil Brides, who is known for – before me – being a ladies’ man who doesn’t do commitment or relationships, let alone children?
Very slowly I turned to look at him, uncertain that what he said was what I had heard.
“I’m sorry, I must have misheard you. I thought I heard you ask me if I wanted kids?”
He looked kind of hurt and kind of surprised at the same time.
“I… I did ask you that,” he said quietly. “Why is that so surprising?” Did he honestly not know?
“You’re Ashley Purdy, who before me was a well-known ladies’ man and anti-commitment.”
“Okay, but even then, do you?” He was relentless.
I took a deep breath.
Do I want kids? I mean… I guess I do. I haven’t really thought about it. I like to think in the moment of my life and I don’t really plan long-term things like that. In Brazil, though, family is vastly important to people. For everyone, it’s a huge deal because family values are such a big part of life. You love your mamãe and respect your papai no matter what… unless you’re me who barely remembers their parents and lived with my evil grandparents. Thankfully I had aunts and uncles and cousins that I could talk to, but I still lived with my vovó and vovô so… yeah.
“Um… I don’t know,” I said quietly. “I mean, where I ’m from, it’s basically expected of you to have a family, but I didn’t really grow up with parents, I had my grandparents, and I hated them and I still hate them to this day. I had cousinswho were younger than me that I looked after, so it’s not like I don’t know how or don’t have the patience or hate kids, but I never really thought about it. I don’t not want kids, but I’m not gonna turn into that crazy lady in her mid-twenties or early thirties who’s like MUST HAVE CHILDREN!”
Ash was applying his eyeliner and listening to me talk, and laughed slightly when I raised my voice at the end.
“Why do you ask, Ash? I never pegged you for someone who thought about having kids.”
He shrugged. “I don’t know, I guess I was thinking about our relationship, and how it’s been going. It’s been hard for me with relationships in the past, you know that, and this is by far the best relationship that I have ever been in, and I don’t know, I’ve been thinking about that a lot, lately. With my previous relationships, it was kind of like those girls were good for the moment and to have fun with, not a fully committed, long-term relationship.”
I raised an eyebrow. “Are you saying you want to have kids? Ashley, we haven’t even been dating for a year, it’s a bit soon to think of kids. We don’t even live together.”
He shrugged again. “I know, but if something happened where you got pregnant, what would you do?”
I pursued my lips. “Keep it. Kick you in the balls for getting me pregnant, but keep it and I’d expect you to stick around. You put me in the mess, you better do your part to take care of it.”
He laughed nervously. “Indy, if I ever get you pregnant, I promise I’ll stick around, but I might start wearing a cup around you.”
I snorted. “Well, I’m on the pill, so we should be fine for a while.”
“What if it doesn’t work?”
I rolled my eyes. “Then I guess we’re all fucked.”
Ash laughed a bit stronger and took my hand, pulling me from the bathroom.“Come on, we’re gonna be late, and I have a couple of interviews and a meet and greet before the show.”
Grabbing my phone and wallet, I followed Ash out of the bus.

Turns out, Little Rock is even worse than Texas in terms of heat. I was getting hot and sweaty within the first couple of hours. Thank god my clothes weren’t that heavy this time around, and I remembered to put on sunscreen this time. Didn’t stop me from standing basically solely in the shade and putting the side of my water bottle against my neck.
The interviews were fast and were either of two or three band members together, all of them, or them by themselves. There was even a run-in with Bryan Stars. There was no interview with him scheduled this time around, but it was nice meeting him and he told me that he wished me and Ash the best in the future, which was nice of him – though it did make me think of Ash’s question this morning, which freaked me out pretty badly.
When the band went to sound check, I opted to look around more. Maya decided that she wanted to stay with Jinxx and the band during soundcheck, preferring to not wander too far. She had grown pretty attached to Jinxx, surprisingly, but he didn’t seem to mind. Whatever; if they make each other happy, fantastic.
Walking around the tour, I ran into Ronnie Radke and Chris Motionless, who actually knew who I was from Ash’s social media sites, and were thrilled to talk to me, while I tried my hardest not to full on fangirl in front of them because the lead singers of two of my favorite bands were talking to me.
“So, you’re Ashley’s girlfriend, huh?” Ronnie drawled, crossing his arms and looking me up and down, almost like he was sizing me up.
I smiled shyly. “Yeah, that would be me; Indigo, but people call me Indy.” I stuck out my hand and shook both of theirs firmly. They both had giant hands – Jesus what was it with big hands with guys?
Chris smirked slightly. “I gotta say, I was pretty surprised to hear that he’d actually decided to do monogamy for a change.”
I snorted. “Yeah, I was surprised, too. I would have thought he’d have gone for someone with longer legs and bigger boobs.”
“And less brains,” Ronnie added for me with a teasing smile.
I laughed. “Yeah, something like that.”
With a sudden spark of inspiration I held my arm out to them, and a pen. “I know this is weird, but I am a huge fan of both of your bands, could you please sign my arm? I don’t have any paper, and I’m leaving really early tomorrow morning.”
Laughing, they took the sharpie and signed the insides of my forearms. Chris took my left, and Ronnie took my right.
“You gonna get those tattooed?” Ronnie asked as he handed me my pen back.
I shrugged. “Maybe.”
Chris smirked. “That’s awesome.”
“You gonna check out our sets before you go?” Chris was so soft-spoken I had to strain to hear him.
“If I don’t get to it while I’m on this trip now, I’m going to be back in a couple weeks and I’ll check them out then, for sure.”
They each gave me a hug before moving to head back to their own buses to get ready for their shows.
I made my way quickly back over to the BVB meet and greet to see that they were just finishing up with the last couple people. When Ash saw me, a look of relief came over his face and as soon as he was done signing the cleavage of the last fan – a big, but fake, breasted woman with miles of legs and an obvious fake tan that he practically ignored, looking at me the entire time he was signing her tits – and then made his way around the table to me.
“Hey, beautiful,” he purred, pulling me to his chest. “I missed you, today.”
I put my arms around his neck and connected our foreheads. “I missed you, too. I wish you could have walked around with me.”
He smiled. “I wish you hung around and saw the fans. Most of them were so sweet. Some of them gave us letters and some were crying and…” He trailed off. “It’s so overwhelming, sometimes.”
I pulled back and kissed the tip of his nose. “I’m so proud of you, Ash. Black Veil Brides helps so many people, you have no idea how much it means to fans.”
Ash laughed lightly. “Oh, I think I got an idea. Three girls with really big tits came up to me and tried to get me to let them flash me.”
I raised an eyebrow. “Do I need to stake my claim on you, or something?” I was half-teasing, half-serious.
He snorted. “No, I think you’re good. If I need a shirt or something that says “Property of Indigo” on it, I’ll let you know.”
I giggled and poked at his forehead. “Naw, not a shirt… maybe a stamp or a tattoo on your forehead or something.”
His eyes widened. “How much have you had to drink, today?” He said almost nervously.
I snorted. “I had one beer, I promise! I’m just weird!”
He smiled, and then he saw the marks on my arms. “What’s that on your arm?”
I showed him the signatures. “Ran into Ronnie Radke and Chris Motionless and got them to sign my arms. Thinking of getting them tattooed on.”
He smiled. “Forever the fangirl, huh?”
I smiled innocently. “Never question the mind of a fangirl, Ash. It’ll just give you a headache.”
He smirked and suddenly I was over his shoulder, his arm around the back of my knees. My face was below his ass, and I almost collided with the back of his legs.
“Ashley Purdy!” I shouted. “What the fuck, man!”
Ash let out an “evil” laugh and proceeded to jog somewhere. Where? Who the fuck knows; all I could see were the back of his legs, his shadow, and the grass.
“Ash, you better put me down or you’ll regret it!”
Ash laughed. “Oh, I’m sure!” Did he forget my martial arts training?
I sighed and pinched his ass, making him jump and let go of me slightly, so I flipped over and wrapped my legs around his neck so that now he I was sitting on his shoulders. He stumbled under my weight for a second before securing his arms around my feet so that I wouldn’t fall off.
“Jesus, Indy!”
I laughed and wiggled my ass slightly on his shoulders so that my crotch was pressed right into the back of his neck. What can I say, I’m evil.
“Indy, a VERY warm part of you is touching the back of my neck and I’m trying VERY hard not to react to that considering you’re on my shoulders right now.”
Barking out a laugh, I moved back slightly to give him a bit more freedom, and he moved quickly to the backstage area of the stage that they were performing on. He ended up having to lower me because there were too many low bars I had to duck under or almost hit my head against.
During the show, I stayed with Maya again, and thankfully, this time, there wasn’t anyone saying shit in the audience. We just danced on the sidestage until the end of the set, and greeted our boys as they walked offstage. Because of the heat, they were all completely sweaty, and CC chased me around the back trying to give me a hug, but he reeked and was soaked in sweat.
“C’mon, Indy!” He laughed.The rest of the guys and Maya were standing there laughing at me.
“No way, CC! You want me anywhere NEAR you, take a fucking shower!” I laughed/screamed.
CC never caught up with me, stopping to breathe while I hid behind Maya, the only not sweaty person there.
“C’mon, baby, c’mere!” Ash tried to grab me next, but when I turned to run, he caught me around my waist with his large hands and pulled me to his front. I could feel the sweat on his chest going through my shirt.
“Ai, Ash, deixar de ir me!” I elbowed him in the gut, causing him to make an “oof!” sound and let go of me enough for me to escape from him.
Rubbing his gut and wincing slightly, Ash gave me a hurt, puppy dog expression and stuck out his lower lip at me, looking up at me through his lashes.
“Ash,” I warned. “That’s not gonna work on me.” I held up my hands to shield his face from me so that I wouldn’t see him. He just moved closer and started whimpering like a dog at me.
“Ash!” I whined, feeling my resolve start to give.
He got louder and was suddenly right in front of me, but dropped to his knees and wrapping his arms around my middle and resting his chin on my naval. I could hear everyone around us chuckling and giggling under their breath.
“Ash, that’s not gonna work!” When I said it that time, I was pretty unsure of what I said, and I could see that Ash recognized that in his eyes.
He turned his head into my stomach and nuzzled me, making me jump slightly when his hair tickled me. I rested my right hand on his shoulder and the other on the top of his sweaty hair.
“Ash, you look like a begging child, I hope you’re aware of that.”
“I know,” his voice sounded muffled and vibrated against my stomach. I looked up to see that Andy was laughing silently, Jinxx was laughing behind his hand, CC was bent over laughing, Jake was the only one laughing out loud, but quietly. Maya was giggling and smirking at us.
“Ash, if you want attention, go take a shower! Stop acting like a child!” I laughed, pushing him off of me gently. He stumbled back slightly on his knees and then stood up, groaning slightly. He looked at me through half-shut eyes.
“Hmmm…. NAH,” he cuddled back up to my stomach, so I dropped to my knees and pushed him away.
“Ash, you smell like B.O. and you’re sweaty. Go rinse off and then you can cuddle me all you want.” I pushed him back by his forehead with my fingers when he tried to move closer to me.
I could hear the band and Maya and Juliet – who’d joined us – chuckling and snickering under their breath at our display. I don’t think they’ve ever really seen Ashley do domestic.
He pouted sarcastically, but let up, standing and moving to stretch his arms high over his head, a few joints in his back popping as he did so. Holding a hand out to me, he pulled me up to my feet, and when he tried to go in for a hug, again, I pushed him away by his forehead again.
He rolled his eyes, but grabbed his stuff and started making his way back to the bus, the rest of us following behind him. Running to catch up to him, I kept up with his brisk pace and grabbed his hand. He looked mildly surprised, but shrugged nonetheless and continued to walk.
When we hit the bus, all the guys started clamoring over each other, trying to be the first to the shower. They were all stuck in the doorway.
“Guys, I need the shower!”
“Only to cuddle with your girl, Purdy, some of us actually STINK!”
“Fuck that, if I don’t get clean now, I’m going to freak cause I feel like a fucking pig!”
“Fuck you, I need to get clean!”
“No, me!”
“Me!”
Oh, God, this was annoying.
Finally, Jinxx forced his way in front of everyone and ran into the bathroom, shutting and locking the door. The rest of the band sort of collapsed in the doorway on top of each other, which looked pretty funny as all I could see were four pairs of skinny jean clad legs, boots, and skinny asses on top of each other in the doorway.
I couldn’t help it; I burst out laughing to the point where I collapsed on the ground, holding my stomach and trying not to piss my pants with laughter. Maya was bent over doing the same, and Juliet had put a hand on the side of the bus to hold herself up while she laughed.
“You guys look so fucking stupid!” Juliet choked out.
Laughing too hard to speak, I pulled myself up and climbed over all of them, grabbing onto the waistbands of Jake and Andy’s pants to pull myself through the door. Turning, I saw that Ash and CC were both basically resigned, probably because they were being crushed.
I moved closer and grasped Jake’s arm, pulling him forward and making him yelp in surprise. He wasn’t exactly weightless, either, so it wasn’t easy to pull him in. CC, who’d been under him, breathed deeply and jumped up, only to get knocked over when Andy fell off of Ash and into CC. CC had to grab onto my arm so he wouldn’t fall and hurt himself by falling off of the steps and onto the ground, which was a good three foot drop.
“Ow!” Andy groaned and pulled himself up, rubbing the side of his head.
Ash pulled himself up and groaned when the sudden sound of Jinxx turning the shower on started, and he leaned against the doorframe so that Maya and Juliet could squeeze by.
I smiled sympathetically. “Better luck next time, Ashes.”
He looked up at me suddenly and raised an eyebrow. “‘Ashes?’” He repeated. “You never call me that.”
I shrugged. “Is there a law that says I can’t? I mean, we all know Jinxx’s law about his name, but is there one about yours?”
He shrugged and walked in to move around me and sit on the edge of the table. Andy sat down next to him and laid down on the table. I heard Juliet make a noise of disgust that mirrored my wrinkled nose.
“What?” Andy whined. “I’m tired!”
“Andy, you eat at that table, and now it’s covered in your back sweat!” Maya sounded like she wanted to puke.
Andy rolled back up and sat in the chair. “It that better?”
Juliet made a face and grabbed a paper towel and wetted it with water – there wasn’t any Windex – and wiped down where Andy’s back had been and made a dramatic gesture of throwing it away.
At that moment, Jinxx came out of the bathroom in a towel, holding his stage clothes close to his chest and he slipped quickly into the back and shut the door.
Ash leapt up and ran into the bathroom before anyone else could get there before him,
Maya watched him with a raised eyebrow.
“Excuse me a moment,” she said quietly, and then she followed after him quickly.
I snorted and moved to sit on the couch and crossed my legs under me.
CC sat at the table by me, pulling a cigarette from a crumpled pack and lighting it with a lighter he pulled from his pocket, reaching behind him to open the window. He slid across the booth and blew smoke out the window.
“Ugh, that might have been THE hottest gig we’ve ever done!” He sighed as he breathed out.
Andy sat across from him, and held his hand out for a cigarette that CC provided with the back and then lighting for him.
I wrinkled my nose at the smell but didn’t say anything. I just pulled my phone from my pocket and went to the website on my airline, checking in online.
“Whatcha doing?” Andy said, breathing out a puff out smoke.
“Checking into my flight for me and Maya.”
CC winced. “So… it’ll be another two fucking weeks of Ashley and now Jinxx being all mopey?” He winced and took a drag of his cigarette.
I sighed. “Yeah, until I come back in two weeks. I’m going to try and get Maya to be here more often so that her and my crazy ex doesn’t try anything.”
Andy raised an eyebrow. “Oh yeah, she’s the one who cheated on you with your ex. How come you’re friends with her, again?”
I shrugged. “I don’t know – we have a long history together and she’s usually harmless. She was abused, and even if I was still mad at her, which I was, for a while, I wouldn’t abandon her out of spite if she’s being hurt. I’m usually a pretty forgiving person, and I don’t blame her, I blame him. He went to her, she didn’t go to him. She didn’t want to betray me. He beat her because I left him, and I will never forgive him for that.”
CC and Andy were staring at me and quietly smoking.
“Jesus, are that much of a forgiving person?” CC said disbelievingly.
I shrugged. “Depends on what happens, but usually, yeah, I am. I can’t hold grudges, it’s annoying and does nothing but give me headaches.”
“What gives you headaches?”
I turned to see that Ash had left the bathroom, a towel wrapped around his hips and his clothes under his arms. Ashley, I swear…
“Grudge-holding,” I said, getting up and walking over to him. “I can’t do it for long.”
Ash smiled and turned to go into the back.
“DON’T GO IN THERE!”
Ash jumped back and turned, startled at Jake’s sudden comment.
“Jesus Fuck, man!”
“Sorry, Ash, but I think Jinxx and Maya might be fucking, so don’t go back there!” Jake moved into the bathroom quickly, squeezing behind Ash.
Ash looked warily at the door and then at me. “What?” He croaked.
Laughing, I moved to lean against the door – ignoring the noises coming from behind it the best I could – and looked at Ash. "Jinxx went into the back butt naked and Maya followed him with a hungry look in her eye so I wouldn’t be surprised if they were fucking like rabbits right now, and I’m not just saying that because I can hear them.”
Ash’s eyes went wide. “Um, am I stuck sitting in a room with my band mates in a towel while my other band mate is fucking his girlfriend where I need to get by to get my clothes?”
The guys behind me all burst out laughing and I had to sit down I was laughing so hard.
The noises behind me stopped suddenly, and I heard what sounded like them collapsing on a bunk, and panting.
I reached behind me to knock on the door. “Can you guys close the curtains so Ash can get his clothes?”
I heard Andy and CC snickering. There was some rustling and I heard the rings on the curtain sliding so I know they were closing it. Moving out of the way, I let Ash walk by me and followed behind him. I could see that Jinxx and Maya were trying their damnest to not move the curtain, but I could see one of Jinxx’s knees and Maya’s elbow. I snickered and squeezed Jinxx’s knee, and he yelped and pulled his knee in.
Laughing, I followed Ash to the back and saw that he’d pulled on boxer-briefs and was pulling on black skinnies. He’d pulled out a Slayer band shirt, and it was lying on his mattress.
“So that’s what that looks like on the other side,” I said thoughtfully.
Ash turned to look at me with a raised eyebrow. “What?”
“When someone else is having sex on the bus, that’s what it looks like.”
Ash’s eyes went wide and he barked out a laugh. “Yeah, I guess so.” He pulled his shirt on and slipped his feet into his cowboy boots.
He held his arms up. “Can I have a cuddle now?” He pouted his lip, again. Awww.
I smiled and walked over to him. I wrapped my arms around his middle and he wrapped his around me, and hugged me tightly.
“Yay,” he said happily. “I like cuddles.”
I laughed. “You’re like a child.”
He pouted. “No, I’m a grown-ass man!”
Laughing, I pulled him in by his shirt so that our foreheads met. “I’m glad, otherwise you’d probably sue me for doing this.” I kissed him deeply, forcing him back a bit. His arms flew up so that his hands could cup the sides of my face, under my jaw, and cradle my head.
I pulled back and smiled.
“Maybe, later in life, I’d like kids.”
He smiled. “Little half-Native American half-Brazilian babies.”
I laughed. “They’d be the cutest fucking kids EVER!”
He laughed and pulled me into a hug. “I love you so much, Indy.”
I smiled and breathed in his cologne. “I love you too.”

Notes

Hi!!
I am SO SORRY that this took so long XP a lot's been happening so it's been hard for me to focus, but IT'S HERE NOW!
deixar de ir me -- means let go of me!

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