Forever Us
Don't Let Me Drown
SKYLAR'S POV
I woke up and sat up, stretching my arms above my head and yawning sleepily. I put my hands over my face, trying to wake up and wiped the spit off of the corner of my mouth and rubbed my eyes slightly. Suddenly I realized Andy wasn’t beside me as usual when I woke up. I looked around and didn’t see him anywhere. I got up and also noticed I was still in my regular clothes from yesterday. That’s funny, I don’t remember much from yesterday anyway. I opened up the bathroom door and he wasn’t in there either. He must be in the living room, making food or something for breakfast. I yawned once more and shuffled over to the door and opened it, seeing all of the guys awake and in the living room. “Good morning, baby.” I smiled cheerfully at him. Suddenly the room went dead silent and everyone looked down at their plates. Andy stood up and looked me in the eyes. I could feel as if his eyes were burning into mine. I started to shake and wonder what was wrong. I clenched my fists and bit my lip.
“We need to talk. Now.” He said sternly, furrowing his brow and nodding towards our bunk area. I nodded hesitantly and he pushed past me, leading the way into the bunk room. I followed behind him and he turned around, closing the door firmly behind me.
“W-What’s wrong?” My voice sounded shaky even though I was trying to be strong for him.
“I don’t know, Skylar! What the hell is wrong?!” He shouted, making me jump and gasp a bit.
“What do you mean?!” I shouted back, trying to stand my ground.
“Don’t fuck around with me, Skylar! You know exactly what I mean.” He emphasized ‘exactly’, tightening his jaw.
“I really don’t! What are you so upset about?!” I felt tears welling up in my eyes quickly.
“Really?! You don’t think I would be upset about the fact that we have a thing going on, and you kissed another guy?!” I jumped back. Kissed another guy?! What the hell was he talking about?!
“What?! I would never do that, and you know that, Andy! What the fuck are you saying to me right now?!” I could feel my heart beating faster than ever before and I knew my emotions were about to take control of me once again.
“Then why would Ella say you kissed Johnnie?!” He screamed, jumping towards me a bit, making me jump back and throw my hands up in front of me in defense, shaking like the coward I was. I looked back up at him after I waited a long time for the hit that never came. He had small tears in his eyes too. They weren’t the usual bright blue. They were dark. Furious. But with a tint of sadness and grief. K-Kissed Johnnie? I kissed Johnnie? Why would he say that? Was Ella just making up some bullshit? Why would she do this to me? Johnnie… who even the hell was Johnnie?! Suddenly faint memories came flashing back into my mind. Johnnie… Johnnie Guilbert! I remember all of the sudden now:
Suddenly he put one of his hands behind my neck and leaned in, kissing me slowly. I pulled away quickly and looked at him in disgust. Yes, he was attractive but I loved Andy,
I never even meant to kiss Johnnie! He kissed me! I pulled away! And Ella knows that too! Johnnie even admitted it!
“Andy, I swear! It’s not like that! Please, you have to believe me!” I suddenly threw myself at him, wrapping my arms around him and sobbing into his fresh t-shirt he had on. He didn’t do anything. Just stood there, stiff, cold, heartless.
“Let go of me.” He demanded.
“A-Andy, please…” I whimpered. It couldn’t end like this.
“Now.” He said sternly, I heard him sniff then put his hands on my shoulders and push me off lightly, making me stumble back. I looked up at him and he gave me one last glance before leaving the room and closing the door behind him. I sat there in silence for a second, still in shock about what had just happened then slowly fell to my knees, sobbing into my hands and balling up on the floor. I laid there and shook myself back and forth, trying to calm down. Then I remembered… Andy has a show today, that means he’ll be coming in here anytime to come get his clothes and get ready. I couldn’t let him see me like this. I sniffled and got up, walking into the bathroom and grabbing a tissue. I blew my nose then washed my face quickly. I stared into my ugly reflection for a while, drowning in my own self pity, then walked back into the bunk area, throwing the few clothes I had out back into my bag then zipping it up. I knew I couldn’t stay here anymore. I just couldn’t. I looked down… I had nowhere else to go. Everyone else hated me now. So I called the one person who would understand. I dialed his number and waited, listening to the ringing.
“H-Hello?” He answered.
“Hey, Johnnie…” I sighed.
I woke up and sat up, stretching my arms above my head and yawning sleepily. I put my hands over my face, trying to wake up and wiped the spit off of the corner of my mouth and rubbed my eyes slightly. Suddenly I realized Andy wasn’t beside me as usual when I woke up. I looked around and didn’t see him anywhere. I got up and also noticed I was still in my regular clothes from yesterday. That’s funny, I don’t remember much from yesterday anyway. I opened up the bathroom door and he wasn’t in there either. He must be in the living room, making food or something for breakfast. I yawned once more and shuffled over to the door and opened it, seeing all of the guys awake and in the living room. “Good morning, baby.” I smiled cheerfully at him. Suddenly the room went dead silent and everyone looked down at their plates. Andy stood up and looked me in the eyes. I could feel as if his eyes were burning into mine. I started to shake and wonder what was wrong. I clenched my fists and bit my lip.
“We need to talk. Now.” He said sternly, furrowing his brow and nodding towards our bunk area. I nodded hesitantly and he pushed past me, leading the way into the bunk room. I followed behind him and he turned around, closing the door firmly behind me.
“W-What’s wrong?” My voice sounded shaky even though I was trying to be strong for him.
“I don’t know, Skylar! What the hell is wrong?!” He shouted, making me jump and gasp a bit.
“What do you mean?!” I shouted back, trying to stand my ground.
“Don’t fuck around with me, Skylar! You know exactly what I mean.” He emphasized ‘exactly’, tightening his jaw.
“I really don’t! What are you so upset about?!” I felt tears welling up in my eyes quickly.
“Really?! You don’t think I would be upset about the fact that we have a thing going on, and you kissed another guy?!” I jumped back. Kissed another guy?! What the hell was he talking about?!
“What?! I would never do that, and you know that, Andy! What the fuck are you saying to me right now?!” I could feel my heart beating faster than ever before and I knew my emotions were about to take control of me once again.
“Then why would Ella say you kissed Johnnie?!” He screamed, jumping towards me a bit, making me jump back and throw my hands up in front of me in defense, shaking like the coward I was. I looked back up at him after I waited a long time for the hit that never came. He had small tears in his eyes too. They weren’t the usual bright blue. They were dark. Furious. But with a tint of sadness and grief. K-Kissed Johnnie? I kissed Johnnie? Why would he say that? Was Ella just making up some bullshit? Why would she do this to me? Johnnie… who even the hell was Johnnie?! Suddenly faint memories came flashing back into my mind. Johnnie… Johnnie Guilbert! I remember all of the sudden now:
Suddenly he put one of his hands behind my neck and leaned in, kissing me slowly. I pulled away quickly and looked at him in disgust. Yes, he was attractive but I loved Andy,
I never even meant to kiss Johnnie! He kissed me! I pulled away! And Ella knows that too! Johnnie even admitted it!
“Andy, I swear! It’s not like that! Please, you have to believe me!” I suddenly threw myself at him, wrapping my arms around him and sobbing into his fresh t-shirt he had on. He didn’t do anything. Just stood there, stiff, cold, heartless.
“Let go of me.” He demanded.
“A-Andy, please…” I whimpered. It couldn’t end like this.
“Now.” He said sternly, I heard him sniff then put his hands on my shoulders and push me off lightly, making me stumble back. I looked up at him and he gave me one last glance before leaving the room and closing the door behind him. I sat there in silence for a second, still in shock about what had just happened then slowly fell to my knees, sobbing into my hands and balling up on the floor. I laid there and shook myself back and forth, trying to calm down. Then I remembered… Andy has a show today, that means he’ll be coming in here anytime to come get his clothes and get ready. I couldn’t let him see me like this. I sniffled and got up, walking into the bathroom and grabbing a tissue. I blew my nose then washed my face quickly. I stared into my ugly reflection for a while, drowning in my own self pity, then walked back into the bunk area, throwing the few clothes I had out back into my bag then zipping it up. I knew I couldn’t stay here anymore. I just couldn’t. I looked down… I had nowhere else to go. Everyone else hated me now. So I called the one person who would understand. I dialed his number and waited, listening to the ringing.
“H-Hello?” He answered.
“Hey, Johnnie…” I sighed.
Notes
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