Forever Us

“Why uhm… Why’d you leave, Sky?” He asked and bit his lip once again.

My hands started to shake and get sweaty. God, why’d he have to ask that one question I’ve been avoiding ever since I heard his name again recently. My mind started to race. God damn it. I bit my lip and looked down at the ground.

“What?” I tried playing stupid.

“You know, Sky…” He said softly.

“I left for my reasons, Andrew.” I caught myself after I said his name.

“What were your reasons, Skylar?” He made my full name obvious.

“I’ve kept them to myself obviously, so why don’t we just keep it that way? Besides, why do you even car-” I started.

“Really? Why would I care? Well, Skylar, maybe because you and I both know Aaron probably has something to do with this, doesn’t he?” He furrowed his brow.

“Why do you mean? Don’t bring Aaron into this, Andrew.” I said. Fuck…

“Well, sorry to tell you this, darling, but that’s not really a one person thing, if you get what I mean.” He was trying to be serious but I saw a small smirk tug on the corners of his mouth.

“Maybe you should go…” I said and looked towards the door.

“No, Andy! Don’t go! Don’t let her do this!” All the sudden I heard Aaron yell from the couch. What the fuck? When was he awake? Did he hear enough to know what was going on right now?

“She’s right, I should probably go.” Andy said and walked over to Aaron. He bent down and looked him in the eyes. “Thanks so much for meeting me, man. Hopefully I’ll see you sometime later, okay?” He kissed the top of his head.

Andy stood back up, nodded a silent ‘goodbye’ to me and left. This time it hurt to be on the receiving end of the goodbye, but I knew it was for the best of us. I bit my lip and I felt my eyes start to cloud with emotions, tears. I didn’t want Aaron to see me this way, then that would only lead to questions, and questions only lead to complete madness in my case.

“Please, j-just watch cartoons or something, please…” I said to Aaron and turned to walk upstairs. He didn’t respond but I heard him sit down whever cartoon was on next for him to watch. I slowly climbed the stairs back up to my room. I grabbed the door handle and stood there for a few seconds. I felt weak. I couldn’t even open a door anymore without wanting to break down apparently. I finally pushed open the door and closed it behind me, I was going to lock it, but decided not to incase Aaron were to need something. I sat down on my bed and memories came flooding in again. I missed Andy, I really… Really missed Andy, I just… he’s not what’s best for me or Aaron. Aaron needed a stable father that was constantly around to help for whatever he needed, and I failed to provide such for him. Jesus, now this was just bringing back memories and reminding me of how much I’ve failed as a parent. Sometimes I feel like I should’ve… Like I should’ve given him up for adoption or something; it might be the best thing for him, and it may not, I never will know because now that I’ve passed up that opportunity Aaron and I have just become closer and closer, almost as if we were best friends now, even though he’s still so young, but he’s one of the very few people I can trust anymore. I used to trust Andy with my life, now it’s like he was a completely different person, yet so much of the same. I don’t know what to think about anything anymore. I need him back. No I don’t…yes I do. I don’t know. I slowly started to sob into my hands, the ones that used to be continuously intertwined with Andy’s.
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