Bullets in a Music Box

The bus bounced its way along the road from New York state to Pennsylvania. As I laid in the bunk, my mind kept wandering. It's been two days since Zara threatened to tell Andy and I've been avoiding her, I've been avoiding everyone actually. Jackson has been his stupid normal self, which pissed me off. How in the hell does he think this is okay? No, how in the hell does he think that just because Andy wasn't in the room that fucking me was okay? I rolled over to face the wall in the bunk and sighed. Andy had gotten up from the bunk a while ago, I pretended to be sleeping. Good thing he thinks that all I need is sleep. The curtain behind me moved and I heard someone cough.

"Zara, what do you want?" I asked.

"Are you going to tell him?" She asked. I sighed and rolled over to face her.

"Yeah, I just need to build up some courage," I said.

"Well, we get to the hotel in two hours, tell him then," she said.

"Okay," I sighed and tried to hide my face in my arm. Zara put her hand on my shoulder and rubbed it.

"No matter what happens, I'll be here for you," she said. I nodded and she left, closing the curtain behind her. I have to tell him today, or I won't do it. I'm such a coward. A sigh left my lips before I climbed out of the bunk and went to the living area, where only Callum resided.

"Where's the band?" I asked.

"Back room. They're doing some sort of band meeting with Tyler," he said. I nodded before sitting down next to him and pulling my legs to my chest and pulling my sleeves down over my hands.

"Cold?" He asked.

"You could say that," I said.

"Ah, now I get it," he said and I sighed again.

"I'm going to tell him today," I said.

"Good, he needs to know," he said. I looked at Callum and swallowed.

"What if he leaves me?" I asked.

"Well, I wouldn't blame him," he started and my jaw fell.

"What?" I asked.

"What I mean is that, yes Andy loves you so much that I don't even understand it. But he is also the kind of person who, once he's hurt, he doesn't forgive easily," he explained and I sighed.

"I know that. I told you about Juliet, right?" I asked and he nodded.

"Exactly," I said and then I heard a few footsteps from the back of the bus. Oh shit, here they come. Ashley was first and he smiled at me and I smiled back, but still hugged my knees. Then it was Andy. He's going to hate me so bad in a few short hours. Andy sat down next to me and kissed the side of my head.

"Good morning," he smiled.

"Morning. Thanks for letting me sleep," I said.

"You weren't sleeping Sadee. But I know you've been stressed so I let you have some time alone," he whispered to me and I looked at my hand. I sighed and rested my head on his shoulder. These next two hours are going to suck.



When the bus stopped near the hotel in Philly, I sighed, for the hundredth time today. We all grabbed our bags and walked into the hotel, got our room keys and went up to the rooms. I have to tell Andy, now. He was laying on the bed, on his phone, and I was in the chair, my nerves eating at me. How am I going to say this? Wait, Zara said she'd be there with me when I tell him. I pulled out of my phone and text her. I'm pretty sure she's relaxing with CC, but at this point, I don't care.

She responded quickly and within a minute or two, she knocked on the door. My stomach was in knots as I walked to the door and opened it. She gave me a sympathetic look and walked into the room. I hung by the door for a few seconds before taking a breath and closing the door. As I walked back into the room, Andy was giving us a weird look.

"What's going on?" He sat up on the bed. I looked at Zara before swallowing and sighing. When I looked back at Andy, he had pure confusion and worry on his face. I sat down on the bed and looked at him.

"I have to tell you something," I started and he looked at me.

"Okay?" He was wary, which is completely understandable.

"I did something really bad," I said quietly as I felt the tears begin. Oh no.

"What did you do?" He asked.

"Um, you remember in New York when I was too drunk to function?" I asked.

"Yeah, I told Jackson to take you up to the room, why?" He asked.

"Well, something really bad happened, and I, don't know how to say it," I said through my now free falling tears.

"What happened Sadee?" He asked. How he hasn't guessed it yet, I haven't no idea.

"Um, well," I paused as the tears fell.

"Tell him Sadee," I heard from behind me. I took a deep breath and looked up at the ceiling before looking at Andy. He was really scared and was staring at me intently.

"What happened Sadee?" He asked quieter this time.

"I had sex with Jackson," I blurted and his face contorted into extreme confusion before turning mad.

"You what?" He asked.

"I'm so sorry Andy. I blacked out so I'm not 100% sure it happened, but based on the fact that I was completely naked while in the same bed as a very naked Jackson, I connected the dots," I said.

"You had sex with Jackson?" He asked, his voice was confused.

"Andy, I know you're probably pissed right now, but trust me, Sadee has been beating herself up over this for the last like four days," Zara said. Andy looked at her then back at me, then back at her.

"I don't care Zara. Why are you even in here?" He asked.

"I'm in here because Sadee needs someone to be there for her, because I know you won't be," she said.

"Zara, I got it from here," I told her and she looked at me. I pointed to the door and she sighed.

"Text me if he gets violent," she said and left. Andy stared at me before turning away and hitting the wall. He's mad, it's only going to get worse from here.

Notes

Alrighty then, she told Andy, and this is just the beginning. I decided to post this chapter tonight because as I was writing the last chapter and this one, I changed a few things so I have to rewrite part of the shitstorm chapter. Sadee was originally not supposed to tell anyone, and she was going to be shit face drunk when she told Andy, but I changed a few things up and now Zara and Callum knew before she told Andy and she's sober, so, yeah. I'm going to post the shitstorm chapter on Sat or Sun, I haven't decided which. But expect awesome

And, I thought about what has happened in recent chapters, as in the whole Ashley thing and now the Jackson thing. And I realized, with the help of a trusty commenter, named Marliesaur, that the actual event that has happened with Jackson wasn't necessarily when Sadee fucked up, it was more or less when she didn't tell Andy right away. So yes, I've cleared that up. And based on the comments I got on the last chapter, I think you guys think it was a long time after the whole thing happened that she told Andy, or battled inside herself about it, but the last chapter was like two days after the whole thing and this one is four days later. So yes, it wasn't that long, but it was long enough.

QUESTION TIME: I seriously love, as I say in every A/N, the ideas you all give me for the story. If you post an idea, I will most likely put it in the story some way, so comment some ideas. You guys are awesome and have great ideas!!!

Sadee's Outfits:
(In the Bus)
http://www.polyvore.com/sadee_bullets_in_music_box/set?id=142374832

(At the Hotel)
http://www.polyvore.com/sadee_bullets_in_music_box/set?id=142375042

SMILES!!! (as always)