Happy Little Pill

The gentle sensation of his finger running along my arm, made me smile. I looked up into Andy's eyes and he was focusing on his finger and what it was doing. A smile spread across my face and I shifted a little to peck him on the nose. After kissing his nose, I bit my lip. His eyes moved and then were staring at me. A big smile came across his face and he kissed me full on the lips.

"You are extremely irresistible," he muttered and I smiled again.

"I know," I giggled and he wrapped his arms around me and rolled over so I was half on top of him.

"You know, we should probably actually write some songs today," he said.

"Probably," I muttered into his chest.

"When is your sister moving into her house?" Andy asked and I looked at him.

"Monday, I think," I said. He nodded and then slid out from under me and walked into his bathroom, leaving me laying where he previously was.

"Andy," I whined and heard him laugh from the bathroom.

"It's like nine in the morning anyways," he said as he came back into the room. I laid there on the bed for a second before climbing out and grabbing the shirt that was on the floor. It was Andy's and it was a dress on me. I walked out of the room and into my own and began to grab some clothes and a couple towels. Might as well take a shower. I'm pretty sure that Lauren is coming over today, with Charlie. I climbed in the shower and began doing my thing.

When I got out, I quickly got dressed and put my hair up into the towel. As I walked out into my bedroom, I saw my phone flashing, signalling I had a notification. I grabbed the phone and looked at it. One missed call from my mother. What does she want? I hit redial and waited for her to answer.

"Hello," I heard.

"Hey, you called me?" I asked.

"Look Sadee, I am sorry for how I acted at the studio yesterday," she said and I sat down on my bed.

"Well, I certainly hope you are," I said. She sniffled on the other line and I rolled my eyes.

"I never meant to hurt you, ever. I know you are pissed off at me for what I did when you were a kid, but it's in the past honey, can we move on?" She asked and I sighed.

"Can we move on? No, we cannot. I will always hate you. I know you love me, you are my mom, you have to. But I can't get over what happened. You've always put down my dreams of being a songwriter and now that I am one, you are trying to shut it down again," I said and scratched my arm.

"I am not trying to shut down your dreams," she said.

"Oh really? Then why did you really buy the label?" I asked.

"I told you, I wanted to broaden my horizons," she said.

"So go buy out Interscope, not this label. This label was the one thing that had nothing to do with you. Now, you're everywhere," I said.

"Sadee, please, I did nothing wrong," she said.

"You did nothing wrong? Really? What about that tour in 2000? And that stupid opening act that you were fucking? Well I didn't like him for more reasons than one," I said. She got quiet for a while before speaking again.

"I had no control over that," she said quietly and I chuckled.

"Yeah, you had no control over him kissing me, and absolutely no control over him hitting me when the tour was finished," I said.

"Please Sadee, I am sorry," she said.

"Save it, I don't care. Please, we will work in the same building, but I don't want to see you, talk to you, or listen to you," I said and hung up. I held the phone to my chest and felt the tears falling down my face. I took a breath and then got off of my bed and took the towel off of my head. As I brushed my hair out I stared at myself in the mirror. I look like my dad and it kills me everyday. He's gone because of my stupid mother. My hands were trembling and I looked at the ceiling. This is why I have PTSD, because of her. I got off the chair and left my room. As I walked down the stairs, I heard Andy talking to someone. Once I got to the bottom, I saw Lauren and Charlie. I walked into the room and sat down next to Andy. He smiled at me before continuing to talk.

"What's it like being in a band?" Charlie asked.

"It's awesome. I get to hang out with four of my best friends all the time and we joke around and write songs, what better life do you need?" Andy chuckled and I sighed. Lauren looked at me and then at the kitchen. I nodded and we both got up from our seats and walked into the kitchen. She sat down at the island and I looked at her while leaning on the counter.

"What's up?" She asked.

"Mom just called me," I said and Lauren's eyes got wide.

"Why?" She asked.

"Because she apparently wanted to apologize," I said and opened the fridge to grab something to eat.

"Did you accept?"

"No, I can't take an apology from her, not after all the shit she put me through," I said.

"What did she do?" Lauren asked.

"Let's just say, I was hurt by a few of her boyfriends," I said. Lauren's mouth dropped and I nodded.

"Exactly, and mom's excuse? I had no control over it," I said and Lauren laughed.

"The hell she didn't. I'm so sorry I wasn't there," she said and I shrugged.

"You were doing your own thing in college, it's fine," I said and Lauren shook her head.

"No it's not. If I were to have been there, you wouldn't have been hurt. You wouldn't have had to deal with mom or dad's death alone," she said.

"Don't you even try to blame yourself Lauren. You were living your life, now I'm living mine. I just have to see mom everyday at work, but whatever, I won't talk to her," I said and Lauren chuckled.

"So, are you and Andy really 'just friends'?" She asked with a smile. I set the container of food on the counter and smiled.

"Nope," I said and she smiled bigger and laughed.

"I knew it! You two are too close to be just friends," she said and I giggled.

"Yeah," I said and looked into the living room by Andy and Charlie. They were in a deep conversation and it made me smile more.

Notes

So yeah, kinda a filler chapter, kinda not. Hope you like it!!!