After a long weekend filled with trouble and two days off work I decided it was time to go back. As usual they day went by at a normal pace, but today however, I was looking forward to something. My first official date with Andy. I wasn't sure were he was taking me, all he told me was to dress nice. "What's nice?" I asked him. "Whatever you think it is..." he told me. I remembered the conversation we had yesterday. After my day was over I went home and found my roommate crying on floor. "Maria! What's wrong?" I ran to her. Like I said before Maria was my only friend I kept from back in the day. My rebellious teenage years. Filled with stress, drama, heartbreak, but one thing especially, pain! My mine raced and I was a teenager again. Sitting in my room listening to Slipknot, my parents banging on the door telling me to put the music down. Like always being afraid to get hurt, I put it down. Sitting in the dark cold floor that was my misery, crying till I was out of tears. Hearing my parents scream at each other till they couldn't take it and one of them storms out the door. My dad drinking his pain away every single night, calling my mom and I names. But most painful, hearing my parents scream at me, "If we would have known you were going to be emo, we would have never had you!" those words cut through me like a knife. I would always cut after they told me that. Till one day being home alone, I snuck into the family room and went on the lap top. I got on YouTube and clicked on a video. The video that changed my life forever. Knives & Pens by Black Veil Brides. I fell in love. I searched more by them! They had five songs out, The Gunsling, This Prayer For You, Hello My Hate, and A Devil For Me. However they had an album coming out. 'We Stitch These Wounds' Every since the moment I listend to Kinves & Pens, I haven't harmed myself. Till this day, and I forever thank them. I was back to reality. My 25 year old self. Maria still crying by my side. "What's wrong?" I asked again. "Ray!" she screamed. Ray was an old friend from back in the day. I wasn't close to him, but we did talk here and there. He was extremely cute. The type a girl falls for easily. He was charming too, always a flirt. His one flaw, as soon as you got to know him, he turned into a dick! "What about Ray?" "He killed himself!" she screamed. I froze. Ray? But he never cared about anything people would say. He was himself and he loved it. Everyone loved him! No one cared for his looks! "What! Why! When! Where! How!" I screamed. "He committed suicide. Cause he's mom told him the same thing your parents told you. Two days ago, he hung himself in his room!" her tears were slowly stopping. Oh my god! I couldn't speak. I just couldn't! "It's ok Maria. Everything will be ok." I hugged her. She always loved him too. I sat there with Maria holding her till she fell asleep. I realized what time it was. Should I go out with Andy? Maria needed me right now, but she was asleep. And by the looks of it, she was gone for the night. I stood her up and her half asleep, half awake body walked to her bed. I laid her down, and she soon knocked out again. I set a glass of water on the night table next to her bed and quietly walked out. I didn't want to ditch Andy on our first date, so I went to get ready. I took shaved my legs, and took a quick shower. Wrapping myself in a towel I walked into my closet. Nice? He said something nice. I looked around and found the perfect thing. A short, white, lace top right about my belly. A black strapless bra under it. A black tight leather skirt from my waste down to my mid thigh. About an inch of my belly showed. Paired with some black spiked pumps and a clutch. The London flag decorated with rhinestones on the clutch. I started with my hair, I decided to go wavy. He always saw my hair straight. I went with a wave and put it all to one side, held with a red flower pin. My makeup was simple. Simple golden eyes shadow that matched my skin tone, some eyeliner on my waterline, and long eye lashed. My lips made a huge statment, blood red. I looked in the mirror and was satisfied. I was walking out when I felt my phone vibrate. 'Walk out to your balcony. -Andy ♥' I read and smiled. I walked out and saw Andy down by the street holding flowers. Roses, red roses. He looked so handsome. Black jeans, with nice shoes. Black dress hanging out from the bottom, not tucked in. And a black tie. Thank god I wore this! He looked up at me and smiled. He was perfect. I gave him the single that I would be down in a minute. I ran back inside and out the door. Down the stares and outside, into his arms. He gave me the flower. "For the most beautiful women in the world." he said as I reached for them, and kissed me. "Nice lips" he whispered, and winked at me. Yes! I hoped he would like them. Even wearing huge heels, he was still towering over me. He walked me to his car and opened the door for me. He went around and turned his car on, and drove out into the street. "So now can I know were we are going?" I asked him. He gave me a smirk. "No. Not yet." he winked again. I wasn't the most patient person, but I tried this time. After what felt like ages, but was only about twenty minutes, he entered the parking lot to a restaurant. A fancy restaurant. "Andy this place is beautiful!" I smiled. "I know. I had to bay extra to get a reservation for today." he walked out and around to open my door. As I got out I felt a cold chill. I would forget a jacket. We made our way in, Andy had his arm around my waste, touching my bare skin. "Reservation is under Andy Biersack." he said to the front man. He nodded. "Right this way." He led us to our table, all the way in the back, away from everyone. This was going to be a great night.