I am In Love With -A-killer

Dearest Andy

Okay, so this might be weird seeing i am doing this in context of a letter and not my mouth. So i am sorry if this will be a bit teenagerish but this is the best way how i can describe my feelings.

On January 18th a man saved me from a football, it was you. Your hair all messy; or i could not remember it was years ago, but in that moment in time i fell for you. I feel so deep and so hard i think i broke something. My heart. But i knew you would mend it someday, even though it only be in my dreams, but little did i know you would do it in reality as well.
The reason i am writing the letter is because if i say these words i would just break down and cry in front of you. Yes you have seen me at my weakest but i never want to be not strong in front of you. Don't ask me why but that is just the way i am.
I remember many things. Our kiss. The hill and not to mention the prom. Even though back than i consider this to be the worst year of my life now i know it was the best. You noticed me. I mean me. Come on Samantha Simms geek girl with pasta all over her hair by the locker.

Andrew i know you do not do sappy romance crap, trust me i do. And even this a love letter this is also a i am sorry and a thank you letter all rapped up inside on cocoon. I might as well say it now. Before its to late.

I love you. I really do. I thought i did not know what it is but you make me see differ in so many ways. That Eight letters and three words were hard for you but you said it, and mot importantly you felt it, and not towards any one else but to me, like i said come on! me?
I should thank the Lord that i have someone like you but instead i take you for granted, not to say thank you. Or even i am sorry. For some reason i feel like a bad wife to you.
I would die for you, hell i almost had died for you but if i was in that situation yet again i would not even blink twice, i would save you rather than save my life.

It is true yes i was planning to kill you cause yet again i was thinking like a teenager and not your wife, i want to shoot you in your sleep cause i felt you had ruin my life, but you did not did you, i ruin my own by being to stupid to listen to Zandro or even to Milo. The only person i should of listen to was you and only you.
You showed me things i did not know exist. You know my body more than i know it. Andrew i can't live without you, i really can't, it breaks me to think that one day you will leave me, or even die. I don't wanna lose you Andy.

I want to go back to the way it is. The way it supposed to be.
Your love is a fire, Consuming my heart in its flame. A fire burning wild and free, Difficult to tame. You easily seduce me,With the sound of your voice,No matter how I feel, I have no choice. Whispering sweet words, As your fingers touch my skin. With a kiss from your lips,Let the love making begin. Only you know how, To give me this pleasure.Every time we make love, Are moments I will treasure.
I want the old me back and i want the old Andy back, no strings and no lies. No fights, No threats and no killing each other. Even though i know we can never normal at least we can do it try, try to be two people who fell in love.
And if you asking yourself why we fell in the first place? Its an easy question.
We were just meant to be.

I love you Andrew Dennis Biersack.

- Samantha, your loving wife.

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