Done.
It’s done.
I killed my baby.
All by myself. The stupid bitch I’ve become.

I walk back home, feeling like a ghost. I’m a murderer. Why? Why can’t I fucking keep a ‘no’? Why did I let myself go that far for a man? Talking about this asshole, I take my phone and send him a ‘done’ text.
Andy instantly calls me. I ignore it. Like I want to hear your voice now?
He calls again. But I’m determined. A bit too late, but I won’t reply. No!

I walk to the park, I don’t want to face Alex yet. I don’t even know how I’m personally reacting to this..
Arrived, I walk to the lake. It’s beautiful. Life can be beautiful. But not for ‘stupid bitch’. I walk on the bridge. It’s pretty high. I look down.

Jump Angie. Get this over with. No more pain. No more hurt. Let’s meet our baby. You just have to jump...

I feel tears running down my cheeks as I look at ducks happily swimming on the water. Jumping? Why not?
Who cares? Who would care? Certainly not Andy… He doesn’t give a shit about you..
I sigh. The evil voice is right. It’s true. Nobody cares about me. Why not jumping? No more stupid Angie.. No more stupid bitch. No more feelings.
I’m so tired of my life. It’s been what? Three months since I met him? Three months of hell..

I grab the edge of the bridge as hard as I can, until my knuckles turn white. Why would I stay? Alex will hate me when she’ll know what I did. I do hate myself for what I’ve done. Andy couldn’t care less about me. Then my job? They’ll quickly find someone as -more?!- talented as I am.. Who need me? Who?

I feel my phone buzzing, this time it’s not Andy..
“Hey Alex..” no, I don’t want to see or hear from anyone right now.
“Angie where are you?
-There.
-Oh.. Uh.. Did you sleep home last night?” she ask, kind of embarrassed.
“Yes. I know about.. You and my boss. I don’t mind.” I can hear her squeal! When was the last time I was this happy?

“Uh.. Angie? I kind of don’t want people to know yet..
-As you want” she seems so happy.. Wow!
“Well, where are you ?I’ll pick you up.” I quickly reply then hung up. Goodbye little bridge. We’ll see each other soon..

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Alex is there in a matter of minutes. I silently climb in, not strong enough to tell her what I did. I’m a piece of shit.
Arrived home, my friend take care of me like a princess.. Like a pregnant woman. But I’m not pregnant anymore. And I hope I’ll never be again!
“Angie.. How was it with Mr Daddy?” I feel tears burning my eyes. There’s no more baby, no more daddy. I bite the inside of my cheek. Don’t cry.. Don’t cry!

“Uh.. Alex.. I.. Well.. It didn’t.. It wasn’t good. At all.” she looks at me, worried.
“Why? What did he say? How did he react?” I swallow. Why God? Why?
“He.. He asked me to abort.” Alex’s eyes grow wide.
“He really said that?!” No, in fact he told me to ‘get rid of it’...
“Yeah.. I knew he wouldn’t care.” I look down. Why do I love him that much?
“What.. What will you do Angie?” I feel the remaining piece of my heart break.

“I.. I did.” I whisper. Her mouth grow even wider than her eyes.
“Angie.. Don.. Don’t tell me you aborted already? But.. When? Why?” I look down.
“He told me to.
-And you did? But.. ANGELIQUE MURPHY WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU??? WHAT HAPPENED TO ‘ANGIE’?” she yells. I just stay here, looking down. Don’t you think I already feel like shit enough?

“Wh.. What has he done to you?”

Notes

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