I wake up in the middle of the night to feel a bunch of regrets. Shit! I just had sex with Andy again. Even though I promised to myself it wouldn’t happen again. I look at the man, his arms are wrapped around me, he’s still fast asleep.
Of course it has been marvelous -as usual- but this time I feel even emptier than usual. I was supposed to say no. But I’m unable to do that. You won’t see him again right? my angel is right, I can’t even keep my own promises. I’m a piece of shit.

I try to get out of his grip but he wraps me even more. But I need to go! So I try again.
“Humm.. stay with me Ju..” my heart break. Even when he’s sleeping he still think about her.. I feel my eyes tearing up as I crawl out of bed. I quickly dress myself. How am I getting back to my car? I think about it for a while then decide to walk. It’s not that far right?

Yes. It’s that far. Twenty minutes later I’m halfway there. But I can’t give up now. The sun is almost there. So I don’t think I’ll be assaulted. But I also locked the door after myself, therefore I can’t get back. Then I don’t want to see Andy again!
So I walk another twenty minutes and arrived to my car I drive home.
Arrived Alex isn’t there -again?- and I curl up in my bed. Then I remember I still haven’t ate anything ‘today’, basically since it’s the morning already!

But I’m still not hungry. I still feel empty.

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I wake up with a terrible headache, looking at my phone I realize it’s 11 already. Shit! I need to get ready for 1PM.. Looking at my phone I see there are about twelve message. Eleven from Andy. I open the one from Matt.

‘Matt: Hi Angie, don’t forget me at 1PM, see you at Barry’s restaurant’

I smile and nod to myself, then quickly reply. Now time for eleven message from Andy.. *sigh*

‘Andy: Angie where are you?’
‘Andy: Why didn’t you wake me up?
‘Andy: Did you go alone? Walking?
‘Andy: Are you alive? Please tell me you’re fine
‘Andy: Did someone hurt you?
‘Andy: Are you okay? Did you arrive home fine?
‘Andy: Why don’t you reply? Did I do something wrong? Please tell me?
‘Andy: Well, you must be sleeping or you didn’t see my text..
‘Andy: I miss you. I wanted to wake up with you next to me :(
‘Andy: I want to see you again please. Tell me if and when :)
‘Andy: Angie are you alive? You’re mad? Please reply..?

I smile a little. I know I said it already, but if things were different Andy would have been an awesome boyfriend. Caring, making you feel special. But I’m not special. I sigh a little, I think he kind of deserve an answer..

‘Angie: Hi Andy, I was sleeping. I’m fine don’t worry’

Time to press send, my heart race, what if Juliet finds the text and Andy never want to see me again? I shouldn’t ever send him a text. But I don’t know if he’s waiting, maybe he’s a little -just a little- worried? I don’t know. My mind is a mess. I’m freaking out. I’m scared, my heart is beating too fast and my hands are getting wet.. Just for a text? What is happening to me? What’s with this sensibility?
I feel my head spinning then everything goes black.

Notes

Oh my God there's so much drama coming :'(
How are you guys?