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over the next few months I started to get better I got supper close with the misfits mostly Max my parents started to keep a very close eye on my also started spending alot of time with Keagan while spending time with the guys but in about a month that all changed here is how it happened.


on monday is when it started I got form home form school and started to study for a history test that I had tomorrow I got a text form Keagan
"same time same place tonight"Keagan
"can't got school"
"what come on plz"Keagan
"no means no have a good day"
"but"keagan
"I said good day"
with that he stopped talking to me I was studding for 15 minutes before the guys interrupted me with some text's
"we should hang out to day"Andy
"yeah what he said"CC
"I can't I have school stuff to do sorry"
"ow okay" Andy
I studied for 2 more hours before I looked at my phone it was 7 I wanted to go see the misfits but I was just not feeling it so I called Max and said
"hey sorry I can't make it I have school stuff I have to do I really just can't make it I' so sorry" I said over the phone
"okay the rest of the group is not going to like this news but fine if you must" he said
"okay bye" I said
I laid on my bed and looked at the big long scar form my attempt at suicide I ran my hand down it.
then my mom came it the room
"hey dinner's done if you want to come down and eat with the family"
"oh sorry I already ate" I said not looking at her
I herd my dad yell form down stairs
"how many times do I have to tell you eat with the goddam family" he was now in my room pulling me by my hair he thrust me off my bed and then to the floor
"oh honey stop it plz" my mom said I kept my head down and held in my crys I heard me dad leave and my mom garbed my wrist and puled me up
"you better stop making him mad " she said
she lifted and I sat back down on my bed I out my stuff away and went to bed




at school I did not hang out with Keagan or my teacher friends instead I spent my spare time in the library drawing the cover art for Black Veil Brides 4 when I got home I spent my time alone accept when I was fighting with my parents when 7 rolled around I did not go

I really was just want to be by myself most of the time my friends did not like it but I did not really car on day when I was at the park Keagan found me there

"hey fancy seeing you here how are you" he said
I turned up my music and ignored him he sat down by me and warped his arm around me I looked up form my drawing and kissed him on the cheek then i left
mow just the persons of another person made me mad and Andy was picking up on that he called me
"hey are you okay I've noticed you have ben ignoring everyone" he asked
"yeah I'm fine" I said
"if I was not I would tell you" I added
"are you sure " he asked
"yes I am Andy I know that I am fine that is one of the things i know okay" I said
"I will take your word for it" he said
there was a long pause before someone said something
"andy I hate to do this to you but I have to go" I said
"okay just be safe plz I really car about you" he said
"i will bye" I said then I hung up the phone I was on a bus going to down town I was going to walk around there and draw some buildings
when I got home I walked in on my parents yelling at my brother for ditching school
I walked by with my bag slung over my shoulder
"and you where have you ben all day I have ben calling you all day" my dad said
"sorry dad I was downtown and my phone died on the way there I wont let it happen again" I said trying to hard not to anger him more
"what ever you emo horror" he said he toke a swig out of the beer he was holding
"oh you think It's okay to call me that well you have got another thing coming for you I said kenning him in the stomic then when he was dudbled over I dug me elbow deep in his back just missing his spine on per pus I did not want to hurt him to bad then he was no the ground I toke his bar from his hand and drank it I had done it before I liked it then I walked right out the front door with the beer I went back to the bus I was going to check in a mottle and stay there I had about 350 form my job that no one knew about

When I got in my room I could tell this was supper crapy mottle that let people smoke because it looked horrible but you get what you paid for I pulled out my laptop and played some music while I showered when it was about midnight Andy called me
"did you run away again"he asked
"more of take the bus away but I had to get away from my parents but don't worry I am in a mottle and I am fine" I said proud of my self
"I'm picking you up and taking you to my place where are you" he asked
"uh yeah no" I said hanging up when he called me again I did not answer I stayed there for the weekend then I let Andy let me stay at his place because It was closer my to school
but we were almost never there at the same time witch I like half way throw the week I toke my stuff and went back to my house but I stayed in my room when people where home because I did not want them to know I was there
I stopped talking to people on the phone and by text at school I kept one head phone in and tried to ignore everyone as much as I could I spent most of my time in the park but I found a new park that keagan did not know of I had my own little tree that I liked to sit in that way I was up and out of everyones way

i sat in my tree humming to lost it all drawing a picture skeleton in a dress when someone throw a rock at my head it missed but i toke out my headphones and jumped out of the tree and looked around for the person that did the crime but instead I found the guys the misfits and raven keagan and Kendra I sighed slowly turned around and broke into a dead sprint keagan was the only one who ran after me and as i was jumping over a bench I dropped my sketchbook but I did not stop to get it I really did not car I had several more at my house finally I lost Keagan yes I was that fast I got to my house and climbed in throw the window I checked my phone I had a million texted form all of them I did not reply to any of them I just laid on my bed and lest end to all the messages they left me
a few days later I found a howl knew park but with a twist it was a skate park they would never look for me there I sat under a ramp that know one used because of a huge crack in it I was drawing a horse made of fire I went there every after noon but I was carful to look around every 5 or so minutes to make sure I was not ambushed by my friends
I was one day there and out of know where it stared rain cats and dogs so hard I was drenched in seconds I guikly but my book away and pulled my hood up and started to walk home when I hard some one call my name I looked around but could not see any one then I herd it again some what louder then before I trended around to see andy
"need a ride home" he asked
"no I'm fine to walk home but thanks for asking
I quikly walked away when he garbed my arm
"Andy stop it I don't want a ride home just leave me alone" I said trying to pull my hand free but he was just to strong he pulled me closer
"I'm not asking any more Chrissy you have ben avoiding everyone for so long we are all worried about you especial after what you did we just want our Chrissy back" he said shoving me in his car
"where are you staying" he asked
"at my house but my family dose not know I'm there'" I said
"do you want me to take you there" he asked
"honsitly I don't car" I said I pulled my wet hair out of my face and tucked it behind my ear
"I'm taking you to my place kay" he said
:o I did not say anything after about 30 minutes I asked Andy
"how did you find me there"
"I know a guy" he said
"really" I said
"yup thats my story and I am sticking to it okay" he said
I laughed
"there it is I missed that laugh" he said
I smiled when we got to his house he let me shower frist then gave me some of his clothes while he washed mine

Notes

i know this is now way to leave you dudes but I have stuff I have to do and i don't know how to stop and save it