Razer blades and pencils

in the last 5 days alot happened one i got in a fight with the guys about keagan and then keagan got mad at them now they hate keagan and keagan hates them and then keagan got mad at me for siding with the guys and not him two kendra and raven are mad at me for not spending enough time with them three my parents are mad at me for going to that alternative club again they are mad at me because of how i look they went in my room and tour down my pictures on my walls four every one at school hates me and the teaches wont even talk to me i don't know why five my siblings treat me like an out chest and the cherry on tope is on my twitter and instagrem people are being bullies for lack of better words i literally had no one to tern to

I laid on my bed it was midnight on a friday then i got up and got a bag but all my money in it clothes chargers drawing stuff then i got dressed put on a hoodie and climbed out my window I was running away I did not know where I was going I just knew I was going away I had to get away about 2 hours latter I was in downtown denver sitting on the side of a restaurant then i got a text form my mom asking where I was i did not tell here andy was the next person to text
"your parent's told me you ran away are you okay plz chrissy you need to go home it's not safe at lest tell me your okay"Andy
"i'm okay but I am not going home i cant"I said
"why"andy
I did not reply insted i grabed my blade and cut my self i felt better when I was done I watched as the blood ran down my arm then Andy texted me agien
"plz talk to me"andy
"i can't"
"you can always talk to me"andy
"theres nothing to talk about"
"somethings bothering you and I want to help we all do Chrissy in life there are going to be times when you feel alone and even when people hate you they still love you if your teachers wont talk to you give them time to think if your boyfriend is mad if he really loves you and I know he dose he will come around and your family loves you they just need time to get used to you being different and yeah sometimes we get made at you but look I came around why because I car about you and so dose everyone else in your life Chrissy plz talk to me"andy
"how did you know about that"
"your friend Raven told me"Andy
"what else did she tell you"
"well the one thing I forgot to mention was the cyberbullying but if that happens just delete your account"Andy
"and running form your problems dos not work trust me I have tried"Andy
a group of guys walked by and looked at me they stopped and walked over to me
"what you doin alone at this hour girl" one of them said he must of ben the leader of there group
"trying to run away form my problems" I said
"like what kind of problems" another asked
"well my family thinks I am crazy because i am different and everyone at school hates me they call me emo bith my boyfriend is mad at me as well and people are bulling me one my social accounts" I said
"we where all once misfits but running dose not help join us where the misfits just a bunch of 15 kids that are rejects I'm Max this is Zach Jordan Richie ben and megan whats your name" Max said
"I'm Chrissy" I said
"then come on come with us to our hang out don't worry we don't do any drugs no acholol no sex nothing like that" Max said offering a hand I toke it
we walked to a abandoned building they had couches and lights with a howl bunch of food and drinks there where arcade games a foam bit a pool table they all sat down
"and by the way Chrissy we all went back to the people we left we meet every night here at 7 till 10 and yeah so this is how we are going to do this say your name age and what your are your favorite band and movie I will go first Im Max I'm 15 I am punk my favorite band is greenday and I love the breakfast club" Max said
"uh I'm zach i'm 16 I'm am a goth I love sonic youth and my favorite movie is hell boy" he said
"jorden 15 i am what you call sense love paramour and my favorite movie would have to be jaws" he said
"Richie 16 i am steam punk love percie the veil and i am not into movies" he said
"then name is ben 15 punk i love 5 finger death punch and favorite movie is rocky" he said
"i'm meagan i'm 15 im goth my favorite band is sleeping with siren's and my favorite movie is Eragon" she said
"uh um I'm Chrissy i'm 15 Im emo i love black veil brides and my favorite movie is the avenger's" I said
after that we talked and talked then i got a call form Andy I answered it
"dude I'm fine Im with some cool people I'll go home at well It ten so I'm going home now okay"
"well then I guess i am no longer needed so yeah get home safe text me when you get home kay well actually don't becuses we have a show bye" he said The misfits walked me home then my parents yelled at me and grounded me to my room for a month
I went to my room played knives and pens then went to sleep

the next day when 7 came I snuck out of the house and when I was half way to the misfits andy called
"you lifted again why" Andy yelled
"i have to go to a group thing that last's till ten" I said
"but Chrissy your grounded" Andy said
"I don't car" I said then I hung up

it was 9 and we where talking about our school when my mom and dad walked intot he room
"CHRISTINE MARRIE MANSFIELD YOU GET YOUR ASS INTO THE CAR RIGHT NOW" my dad yelled
every one stood up and looked at me
"how the hell did you find me" I said
"that dose not mater you have bigger things to worry about" my dad yelled walking closer to me
"uh I am not leaving till you tell me how you found me" I said
"yes you are young lady" my dad yelled
"you can't tell me what to do" I screamed
"yes i can you are my daughter and it is my job to keep you safe teach you how to take car of yourself and make sure you can live in this world until you are 18 " he said
" and maybe we can fix you so society wont have to" my mom added
"what the hell do you mean by fix me" I screamed
"society wont accepte you if you keep dressing like you do sweetie" my mom said
"I dont give a fuck what society accept's as long as my friends accept me i'm good" I said
"how do you think your get a job" my dad said standing inches form my face
"I don't know and I don't car just leave me alone' I sad
he garbed my wrist started to pull me away form my friends
"let go of me you dirty basterd" I yelled puling my arm from his grasp he spun around and slapped me so hard I fell to the ground my nose started to bleed my face burned I looked up at him and yelled
"how do you think soctiy feels about you beating your kids what in the hell makes you think i would go with you back to that prison you call a house every one there thinks I am crazy I will not let you people treat me like a outcast any longer you people will start giving me some respect"
"you want respect you ern it and sneaking out calling us names disobeying rules and all the other shite you pull is not helping if you want respect you start treating us like we are your parents and start helping this family cause right now you have us on our knees you take and take but you don't give you will start helping you will start being apart of this family and you will start acting like a 15 year old" my mom yelled
"i here alot of you will in there but i will what I want damite" I said
"you watch your mouth young lady now get your ass in the car" my dad yelled
"no I wont'I said blood now covered my shirt and pants as well the floor
my dad garbed me by the hair and started to drag me to the car
"stop it now your hurting her stop it" Max yelled running towards me my stopped him
"this is not your fight to fight young man stand down" she said
my dad throw me in the car and they drove me home when I got to my room I saw that they put bars on my window they then locked me in my room

I sat down and cried and cried Andy kept texting me all five of them did but I could not talk to them I cut my self thill my arm was nothing but blood I walked to my window and opened it and puled on the bars to see how strong they where i realized i would not be getting out of here I looked at my phone
'are you okay"Andy
"what happened"Jake
"how are you your parent's seemed really mad when they asked us where you where" Ashely
"I'm sorry but I had to tell them I am so worried about you" Raven
rage flooded my veins I screamed in pure anger I called Raven and when she did not answer I lifted this message
"I trusted you you where my friend why would you do that no I don't want to know I cant believe you would stab me in the back like that how could you be so cruel you have no idea what you have done not only have you sacrificed our friendship you got me looked in my room my face bruised I can't believe you raven kendal how could you be so heartless i hate you I never want to see your face again don't you ever talk to me again the sound of your voice would make me sick I never want to see you again this is the last you will here form me" I yelled
'then i cried some more

Notes

alot happend