Razer blades and pencils

The guys where going to be gone for a year and three months they had ben gone for just one month
i was walking to school with keagan we spent every day to gather but we where not dating yet
" what's wrong" he asked
"nothing" I said looking down
"actually it's not nothing I miss my friends" I said I was holding back tears
" have you cut" he asked
"no but that's non of your bossiness" I said
"my literal brother Erick used to cut so if you ever need some one who has ben throw it or someone who know what you feel like he is willing to help" he said
" I I really just need I I don't know what I need" I said but I knew what I needed and it was him
we walked the rest of the way in silence

--time spike after school--

" do you want to go meet up with some of my freinds" keagan asked
"sure" I said we got to the place and there was this blonde she ran up to keagan warped her arms around him and kissed him a long slow pasenit kiss
I felt my heart. Tear to shreds I wanted to scream
"uh I just remembers I have to uh um to uh go" I said I truned around and toke when step when I herd
"oh baby I love you"
i rolled my eyes and started to run I ran all the home I got in my room slaked the door stood with my back agents the wall and I slide down to the floor my eyes filled with tears I screamed in pain and I cried oceans of tears as thought my eyes where the Amazon river I sat up and pulled up my sleeve I ran my hand gently over the scars
" why would he love a girl with these scars I'm no good he would never love a emo depressed pice if shite like me" I said throw tries I grabbed my blade and cut the deepest cut I have ever cut I looked down the blood conning out so fast I knew I would have to give my self stitches I got up and grabbed a sowing kit and sword my self back together then I cried myself to sleep

i was awaken by my phone it was andy he wanted to face time I clicked accepted before realizing what my face looked like
"he-waoh was wrong with your face " Andy said
"what" I said rubbing my eyes
"what happened " he asked
i remembers and I started to cry again
"hey hey it's okay tell me what happend want to help ". He said
"h-h-he has a girlfriend I though we where going some where what the fuck and h-h-he was so perfect I love h-h-him why dint h-h-he tell me why dose h-h-he h-h-have a girl friend" I said throw tears
"hey hey it's okay there's plenty of fish in the sea he's not your frist love and he's not your last"andy said
"I don't want somebody else I want him" I said softly
my phone started to ring it was keagan I answered
"park now" was all he said then he hung up
I texted andy I had to go then I finked my make up and raid my skate board to the park he ran to me and hugged me
"Chrissy Mansfield my heart longs for you every seconded I am not with you is painful you are all I every want to see I would give up my finger tips to touched my eyes to seer you I can paint you picture perfect even if I where blonde you are my heart my soul I need you I want you you are my light my warmth you smile is as bright as the sun your eyes are like beautiful sunsets you are the reason to live I loveyou chrissy Mansfield be my girlfriend" he said
"but that girl" I asked
"I difrent know she was going to be there we broke up 2 months ago but she won't leave me alone but don't worry about her I love you always have always will" he said
"are you going to kiss me or not keagan lindbloom" I said
we kissed

Notes

So yah that happend