Razer blades and pencils

it was the first day at my school sense what happened with Jasmine and I was nerves but the nice thing was the guys drove me to school but used my car to be discreet I got out of the car and waved goodbye then walked into the school every one looked at me if they where talking they stopped and watched me pass by but i held my head and smiled.

Then Keagan ran up up to me and griped me by the wrested and looked me in the eye and asked
"are you okay"
I gently removed my wrested from his grasped and rubbed the one that was cut because his grip was so strong it hurt
" I didn't know you cared" I said looking down at my wrest
"why woudent I your my biggest fan i see you at every game and i here you cheering plus your very beiutful" he said
he looked down at my hands
'did i hurt you?" he asked
"just your strong and i" I stopped i was afraid to tell him what I did
"don't worry im used to that my brother Eric dose it" he said he hugged me and i just stood there limb then i slowly wrapped my arms around him he gently pulled away when the bell rang
"I want to talk to you after school or at free period" he said as he walked away I then went to my first period but i was not there i mean I was sitting in the room but my mind was some where I did this all the way till free period I had to tell keagan that I was busy I spent free period video chatting with the guys we where trying to get as much time together before the went on there next tour in london they left next month that was only 2 weeks away
" I can't believe it he is so much nicer then I thought" I said
"most boys are like that" Andy said
"well when you learn more about him tell us" Jinxx said
"shouldn't you be studying" CC asked
"hey I am a straight A student mostly because Raven and Kendra study with me we help each other" I said a group of girls walked by and yelled mean things at me one of them said
"did you cut your self lately you emo horror" i yelled back
" i din't know you cared so much but no i have not by the way I love your hair" they flipped me off i just smiled and waved
"kids these days" I said to the guys
"yup kids can be cruel" Andy said
I toke a deep breath and started to think about just how cruel they could be I must of ben in a pretty deep trance because I herd the bell ring signaling the start of classes
"got to go I have a thing tonight so you don't have to pick me up bye" I turned off my laptop before they could respond the next few classes flew by and before I new it I was sitting in a park with Keagan
"so tell me about yourself" I said
"well I'm in a band with your friend Raven's boyfriend Scott I play lacrosse but you know that I like old indie rock and playing old fashion arcade games i like to ride my bmx bike and i am a total geek when it comes to comic supper heroes i love batman and dc comics and i love Pokemon what about you" he said
"well i don't play any sports but I am on the debate team so i am on a team i like heavy metal alot of scream type stuff i love to write and draw i like to ride my skate broad i am also a total geek as well but i am more of a marvel girl and I also play Pokemon but i am not that good I am way better at dudgeons and dragons" I said
"whats that" he asked
"its this rpg game it takes a alot of creativity and stuff its really fun" I said
'oh my brother dose that but i only know it as D&D" he said we talked till I was dark I looked at my phone it was 12:24
"oh shite I am so late my mom is going to kill me" I said standing up
"I'm sorry I really have to get going bye I will see you at school" I said I gripped my bag and started to run home Its a good thing I used to do do cross country becuse i would not have ben apply to run all the way home like it did
I slowly opened the door and walked up to my room i changed and walked to my bed and looked at my phone I had so manny textes form the guys I truned off my phone and went to sleep

over the next week me and keagan got so close but that monday came when I was driveing the guys to the airport keagan was there to and he was quit the howl ride there I pulled in to the parking and walked with the guys up to the door we hugged and I watched them leave I got back in the car and hugged keagan and I just started to cry i cryed for at least 30 mintuents and keagan drove me home I sat in my room I wanted to cut but i knew the boys would not want me to I just started to draw and but on there music I cryed myself to sleep that night

Notes

when I worte this I was listing to machine gun kelly look him up he is so cool he dose rap so if you like that knid of stuff look this man up he is so cool