I'm Not Afraid

Seraphine's Point of View

I woke up to an empty bed and cold bed. Needless to say I was pretty disappointed. I was hoping to wake up in Andy's arms but instead I woke up alone. I heaved a sigh and forced myself out of my bed to get some breakfast.

I heaved a bored sigh and made my way for the kitchen. The house was pretty quiet if Andy was home. He usually had music playing but today the house was quiet. I went into the kitchen and poured myself a bowl of Fruit Loops. As I ate, I noticed that Andy's keys were not in the bowl on the kitchen counter.

"I guess I'm home alone." I rinsed my bowl and went back upstairs. I grabbed my outfit for the day and went to Andy's bathroom to use his big bath tub to take a bubble bath. I filled up the tub with water and bubbles before I removed my clothes and climbed in.

"Stay for tonight if you want to
I can show you what my dreams are made of
As I'm dreaming of your face.
I've been away for a long time, such a long time
And I miss you there
I can't imagine being anywhere else
I can't imagine being anywhere else but here

How the hell did you ever pick me?
Honestly, I could sing you a song
But I don't think words can express your beauty
It's singing to me
How the hell did we end up like this?
You bring out the beast in me
I fell in love from the moment we kissed
Since then we've been history

hey say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay as long as you need
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
Please stay forever with me

It goes to show, I hope that you know that you are
What my dreams are made of
Can't fall asleep, can't fall asleep
I lay in my bed awake, in my bed awake at night as I dream of you
I'll fall in love, you'll fall in love
It could mean everything, everything to me
I can't imagine being anywhere else

They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay as long as you need
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
Please stay forever with me

The way that we are
It's the reason I stay
As long as you're here with me
I know we'll be OK

The way that we are
It's the reason I stay
As long as you're here with me
I know I'll be OK

(I couldn't love just anyone, I was created to love just one baby)
They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
(I couldn't love just anyone, I was created to love just one girl)
Please stay as long as you need
(I couldn't love just anyone, I was created to love just one baby)
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
(I couldn't love just anyone, I was created to love just one girl)
Please stay forever with me." I sang to myself as I laid in the tub. This was actually really nice but I was really kicking myself that I forgot to bring in my iPod to listen to music. I loved seeing buy I found it a lot funner to sing along to the singer of the song rather than to hear my own voice.

"Sunshine, there ain't a thing that you can do that's gonna ruin my night.
(But, there's just something about)
This dizzy dreamer and her bleeding little blue boy.
Licking your fingers like you're done and,
You've decided there is so much more than me.
And baby, honestly it's harder breathing next to you, I shake.
I brought a gun and as the preacher tried to stop me.
Hold my heart it's beating for you anyway." I sang with my eyes closed. I was trying to imagine Vic Fuentes and Jeremy McKinnon singing in the bathroom with me which made it awkward but it was helping me relax.

"What if I can't forget you?
I'll burn your name into my throat.
I'll be the fire that'll catch you.
What's so good about picking up the pieces?
None of the colors ever light up anymore in this hole." Andy startled me as he did the screamo part. I opened my eyes and looked over to the door that led to the bedroom where Andy was standing. He smiled at me before he walked over to the toilet and sat on top of the lid. "You have a great voice."

"Thanks." I said looking at him. He eyed the bath tub and then got up.

"Well enjoy your bath." Andy said as he began walking to the door.

"Join me?" I asked him. He stopped dead in his tracks and turned to look at me. "Andy, please join me and keep me company."

"Seraphine." He practically growled. "If I join you, who knows what will happen." He took one last glance at me as if he was fighting with his inner demons and rushed out of the bathroom closing the door behind him. I nodded and let the water drain from the tub as I got out and wrapped a towel around my body. I dried off and got dressed before walking out of the bathroom to find Andy out on the balcony outside his room on the phone and smoking a cigarette.

I rushed out of his room and went to the kitchen. I grabbed my car keys and went out to my car knowing that he would see me since his room over looked the spot where we parked our cars. I got into my car and started it only to see Andy watching me intently while he walked to the person on the phone. I turned up my radio and lit a cigarette before slowly backing out of the driveway while listening to Bring Me The Horizon. As I looked in my rear view mirror, I noticed that Andy was no longer standing on his balcony and the doors were open.

I drove to the one person who I knew could give me the best advice because this person was the coolest ever. I pulled into the driveway and noticed that he was sitting on the porch waiting for me. I got out of my car and walked up to him.

"Andy called." Vic smiled at me. I gave him a hug before he led me inside. "He still won't ask you to be his girlfriend?"

"No. We live together now, too." I said sitting on the couch between Mike and Jaime. "I mean it is so obvious that we like each other."

"Yeah. We have all seen it since you guys met back in 2011." Tony said.

"Yeah. Vic lost money because he said you guys would be together in 2012." Mike laughed. I looked at them in disbelief.

"Betting on a relationship? Seriously?" I asked them only for them to laugh. "But seriously what do I need to do?"

"Go home right now and kiss him." Jaime told me. The guys agreed and with that I was sent back on my way home to go and kiss Andy Biersack.

I pulled up to the house and I sat in my car for a moment before finding the strength to get up and go inside. I set my purse, phone, sunglasses and keys on the kitchen counter before heading towards the music that was coming from the make shift studio that was across from the office.

I slowly opened the door to find Andy was sitting at the switch board with his eyes shut and his head back on the edge of the chair. I removed my shoes outside the door and quietly approached him. I stared at him as I took in his features.

I pressed my lips and against him and gave him a kiss, a kiss that was tingling my lips. When I stood back to look at him, his eyes were wide and he had brought one of his hands to his lips. He tried to find the words to say but he was unable to find the words instead he pulled me onto his lip and gave me a proper kiss.

"Now that's a kiss." Andy smiled at me as he broke the kiss. I gave him a quick before giving him a hug. "Seraphine?"

"Andrew?"

"Will you do me the honor of being my girlfriend?" I looked at him for a bit before giving him the answering that we both there was coming.

"Yes! Of course." I smiled kissing him again.

"Now guess what we can do?" I looked at him. "Move all your stuff in my room so we can share and make that room into a guest room."

"Do we have to do that today?" I asked him. He shook his head.

"No. Today I have to work." He said sadly.

"Do you want me to go and take care of my business while you work?" I asked him.

"Only for a little bit. Once I'm done here I'll be yours for the rest of the day." He smiled at me. "I just need an hour or two."

"I will be elsewhere." I gave him a kiss before leaving. I spent the rest of the day by the pool after I had moved all my stuff to Andy's room because Andy got wrapped up in work and was too busy and couldn't step away.

"Have faith in me
Cause there are things that I've seen I don't believe
So cling to what you know and never let go
You should know things aren't always what they seem

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

I'm going crazy
Cause there are things in the streets I don't believe
So we'll pretend it's alright (pretend it's alright)
and stay in for the night
Oh what a world
I'll keep you safe here with me (with me)." I sang as I walked past the studio to see Andy sitting on the couch writing down lyrics.

"I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again." I removed my clothes and put on one of Andy's shirts that looked like a dress on me. I heaved a tired sigh as I put my dirty close in the hamper.

"They've got me on the outside, looking in
But I can't see at all
With the weight of the world on my shoulders,
They just wanna see me fall

They've got me on the outside, looking in
But I can't see at all
With the weight of the world on my shoulders,
They just wanna see me fall." I wiped off my make-up and took off my jewelry as I stared at myself in the mirror. It was dark outside now and I didn't even want to know what time it was.

"Have faith in me

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did (Go, Did)
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it (Fall, Meant It)
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again." I went back into the bedroom and climbed into the bed. I noticed that it smelt like Andy and that was when I realized how tired I really was.

"I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did." I sang before settling into the blankets to sleep hoping that Andy would come in and hold me.

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