I'm Not Afraid

Seraphine's Point of View

"This is a dream." I whispered as I walked into the office to start putting away as Andy made a phone call to his band mates to have them come over to help us. As I opened on of the boxes Andy came in humming Rebel Love Song to himself. He smiled at me before grabbing a different box to unpack.

"Why do you have so many books?" He asked me.

"You know a wise man once said that books are very good because they are thick and you can hurt some with them."

"Marilyn Manson is a very wise man." Andy laughed as we move books into the new bookshelf at our house. I smiled at him but my smile faded as I thought about something I've wanted to ask him for awhile now.

"Andy?"

"Hmmm." He stopped and looked over at me.

"Who did you write Rebel Love Song about?" I watched him as his eyes went wide and his cheeks grew a shade of pink. He turned away from me and headed for the door just as the doorbell rang letting us know that the guys were here to help.

"You." Was the only thing he said before leaving me alone in the office. I sat in the desk chair as I tried to collect my thoughts. As the sounds of the guys approached the office I jumped to my feet and continued putting away books. The door opened and I turned to smile at the guys.

"Hey fellas." I smiled at them happily.

"You look really nice." Jinxx laughed. I looked at them and they were all amused with the exception of Andy, he looked like a ghost was in front of him. I looked down a realized that I was in red lacey underwear and a crop top tank top with kitty slippers on.

"Well if you will all excuse me. I must get pants on, like, now." I said rushing out of the room. I got out of ear shot from the office and leaned against the wall. I was so embarrassed that the guys had seen me like that. I shut my eyes tight to keep myself from crying. I heaved a sigh and opened my eyes to find Andy standing in front of me and he was pretty close to me.

"Are you okay?" He asked me. I nodded quickly. "I wish you could stay like this all day long just not while they are over."

"Wh..what do you mean?" I asked him hoping that he would repeat himself.

"I love seeing you so... exposed. It's sexy." Andy said as he placed his hands on either side of my head and slowly began to push his body against mine. I looked up at him and tried to figure out what was going on in that head of his. He licked his bottom lip and smiled at me.

"So much sexual tension in these kids." Jake whispered loudly.

"They should just fuck." CC said. I closed my eyes and ducked under Andy's arms before running down the hallway to get to the stairs. As I ran I could hear someone following me quickly. I didn't want to even glance behind me because I knew what the guys would be doing; hip thrusting and other sexual things. I climbed the stairs as fast as my feet would take me but I tripped over the top step landing with a thud.

"Are you okay?" Andy asked me. I tried to catch my breath as I sat there on my knees with my head on the ground. Andy's hands met my hips and he held them. "Seraphine? Are you hurt?" I couldn't focus especially with his hands on my hips, a touch that I had yearned for.

"No." I finally said in a whisper. He heaved a sigh of relief before he removed his hands. I waited a couple seconds and looked up when I heard the stairs creek as he stepped on the floor next to my head.

"C'mon. Let's go and get you dressed." He held out his hand to me. I grabbed it and he helped me up. He led me to my room silently. He opened the door and we went inside.

"Andy." I said lowly as I climbed into my bed and under the covers. He looked over at me and smiled when he noticed that I had climbed into bed. He approached me and I noticed he was watching me intently.

"What's up, beautiful?" Andy asked as he sat on the edge of my bed. I pulled the blankets up to my chin and avoided eye contact with him.

"I don't want to go back in there with them." I said softly. He placed one of his hands on the bed on my right side and leaned against me.

"That is fine. You can stay in bed today." Andy said sadly. He looked like I had just kicked his puppy and it made my heart melt.

"I'm just far too embarrassed." I whispered hoping that he still heard me so that I would not have to repeat myself. "I completely forgot what I was wearing."

"I did too. I'm just so used to you dressing like this when you are at home that I forgot to tell you to change. It was my fault." Andy told me. I could tell that he felt really horrible about what had just happened.

"You can make it up to me." I said. His face went from a kid at a funeral to a singer as a show.

"How?" He asked me.

"When you are done for the day, you come and climb into bed with me and watch movies." I said with a yawn. He nodded and placed a kiss on my cheek.

"Take a nap. I'll wake you up when we are done." I nodded and shut my eyes as the weight on my bed disappeared. I smiled in the direction of the door one last time before I drifted off to sleep in a blissful slumber.

"Serah. Wake up." Andy said as his voice got closer to my bed. I groaned as I tried to open my eyes but it was impossible. "Do you still want to cuddle?" I nodded. "Watch movies?" I nodded again. "Have sexy time?" I opened my eyes and looked at him. He had the biggest smirk on his face. "I knew that would wake you up."

"How the hell do you go from sex God to virginal boy in a matter of hours?" I asked him. He gave me a confused look. "Earlier you were practically raping me with your eyes and now you are making sex jokes like a virginal boy. What changed?" He shrugged and climbed into my bed. It was at this time that I noticed he was in his briefs only. "Why are you almost naked?"

"I just got out of the shower and I didn't felt like putting on clothes." He laughed. "Plus the chances of me falling asleep right here are pretty high."

"Me too." I yawned.

"But you slept for like six hours." He laughed.

"So? I'm still tired." I shrugged and moved closer to his body and I moved against his body to cuddle him. "What are we watching?"

"Well we have the Tim Burton movies." He said with a yawn.

"Put one on." I smiled. He grabbed the TV remote and put on Sweeney Todd. He put his arm over me and neither one of us made it past the first song in the movie before we were asleep.

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