Our pain will shine our light to, those who understand

Okay i am absolutely not freaking out!
Because this is absolutely not happening!
No no no no no. This isn't a thing, this isn't happening. I did not just hear that. I did not just hear your father giving up, the man who has pushed you since you first heard him on the radio, the man who has raised you for a year give up. Admit defeat.
"What do you mean you give up?" i hissed my teeth gritted together.
"Cassara you don't understand, for the past month i have been doing everything in my power to stop this from happening. To stop her from being taken away. Solicitors. Court. I even checked the god damn laws. I cannot do anything, they won."
"A MONTH A WHOLE FUCKING MONTH! So you're just going to give up? give up on your daughter?"
"No..i'm ju"
"Just what Dad! It sounds a lot like you are giving up! Do you not know what they have done to her? Made her do to herself?"
"What did she do?" he whispered concern plastered to his face, his eyes mirroring his face. Oh he doesn't know? Of course he doesn't I'm the only one she showed. Great. Good going Cass you're a real smart one. Turing on my heels i stomped away but quickly spun around, "I'm no giving up, i promise." CC whispered a tear trailing down his face. Knowing he was telling the truth, and despite my outburst i knew we wouldn't give up i mean our family is too strong. Not saying a word i walked up the stairs, passing Veronicka's room but quickly deciding to step in. "Hey Nicky i was just wondering, oh shit forgot you has your friends over, i'll go."
"No need Cass, this is Rebecca but everyone calls her Red and this is Jack, Jack, Red this is my sister Cassara!" Veronicka spoke directing who was who a small hello leaving both of them as did i.
"Well i'm gonna leave you too it, nice meeting you. Oh and nice to see you have a smile on your face Nick!" i replied as i walked out a small smile gracing my face knowing she was happy and not crying her eyes out like she had been for the past five days. Ugh why can't my life be easy, i have had only like 3 hours of sleep in the last 48 hours and to be honest i'm absolutely shattered.
Bouncing down on my bed my eyes shut as i let out a breathe, happy for the silence when my door burst open. "I need your help!"
"For gods sake Andrew what now?" i questioned.
"I'm taking Juliet on a date and i don't know if i should wear this or this." Andy rushed throwing two similar shirts onto me.
"Wear this one with your black tie, some skinny jeans and your boots maybe a leather jacket and she should swoon." i directed not even looking up but picking up the first one in my grasp which turned out the be a plain white shirt.
"Thanks Cass you're the best."
With that he planted a rushed kiss on my head then bolted out of the room. "You know it." I whispered to myself. Finally peace, "BAMBI I NEED YOU!" ..or not.
"For fuck sake Purdy" i grumbled pulling myself from my cosy bed and through to his room. Throwing his bedroom door open i stood in front of his massive queen sized bed, my eye brow raised as if to say what the fuck do you need Ashley?
"Pass the remote please." He spoke putting on his puppy dog eyes while making grabby hands towards the remote that sat 2 meters away from him. Picking up the black controller i threw it at him with all the strength i had, successfully hitting his crotch. Strutting out the room not caring about the wounded rock stars whining. Moving like a zombie into Andy's room i soon demanded one of his t-shirts as they fit me best, "Yo Biersack can i borrow one of your t-shirts preferably one that hasn't been attacked by scissors."
"Yeah grab one from my closet BUT NOT THE BATMAN ONE!" He screamed in return from his place in his en-suit most likely stressing over his appearance despite it always looking flawless. Chuckling myself i sorted through his clothes quickly finding my favourite one which i often took for comfort when sleeping i trailed back to my room quickly tearing off my clothes and changing into the top and some cotton shorts. Planting myself back onto my now blue duvet, my cosiest blankets around me like a burrito of warmth.

Finally i'm done, Ashley and Andy are settled, Jake and Jinxx are out, Veronicka is happy and Dad is down the stairs who could possibly bother my slumber now i thought to myself. Turing on my side i closed my eyes when...MY LOVE FOR YOU WAS BULLET PROOF BUT YOU'RE THE ONE WHO SHOT ME!
Oh fuck me! "WHAT!" I snarled into the phone.
"Woah calm down Cass it's just me!" Austin spoke his voice soothing.
"I'm just really tired okay?" i mentioned.
"Yeah.."
"So if you don't mind me asking why are you phoning me?"
"Just wanted to make sure you're okay, i mean after everything that's going on i thou.."
"I'm Fine. Don't worry!"
"I know you're speaking bull shit Cass your not fine, so don't pretend to me. I know yu all too well. But i'll let you sleep, I will come round tomorrow."
"Kay."
"Okay Bye babe."
"Yeah bye."
With that he ended the call, god i sounded like a bitch. Well i guess i will deal with that tomorrow, I'm too tired to even care. Closing my eyes with ease sleep quickly taking me under into a world filled with unicorns and rainbows.

Notes

OOOOHHHH DRAMA !

- Em xx