Feeder.

*Kia’s POV*
The first night I was taken, Andy had beaten me with a belt. After, I could hear arguing, monstrous angry voice’s flooded the bus. In the moment, I was too much in shock to listen to what they said, I was to broken to care && I wanted to die.I now know that it was Ashley && Andy yelling. That Ashley was pissed Andy had treated me that way. After the screaming stopped, Ashley came to me. He sat on the bunk across from me. I looked up at him, my blood shot eye’s begging him. I was shaking in absolute terror, I couldn’t take anymore abuse.

He pulled a pocket knife out of his near skin tight leather pants && I closed my eyes, inhaling deeply as I thought he had come to kill me. He hadn’t, he had come to help me. He looked at me && with sad eyes he spoke “I’m not going to hurt you, I swear it. But please be quiet. If you make noise Andy will come back again. Just please, I’m just going to untie you && take you to shower.” His voice was steady && strong.

I didn’t say anything, but I stayed perfectly still && quiet as he cut the belts. A friction burn shows me to this day exactly where they had been. He picked me up && carried me to the bathroom, I hated the contact but I wouldn’t have been able to walk alone && to protest I would’ve had to make noise. He sat me on the toilet, I yelped quietly as the abused skin made contact with the hard white seat lid. Ashley looked down at me && watched as I used the opposite hand to rub my sore burnt wrists, I was crying silently && tears like rivers flowed down my face. Ashley looked away && maneuvered around the small space to turn on the shower. He took a towel down from a cabinet above the toilet && placed it bunched up over the edge of the sink. Then he turned around, closed the door && left.

I think I was in the bathroom for hours. I remember sitting on the toilet was too painful, so I slide down && curled into the fetal position on the floor. I cried for a long time on the floor && I cried for a long time in the shower. I had to bite at my knuckles as the warm water stung my body. I had cuts && little hole punches all over my backside, a friction burn around both my ankles, as well as in between where my dress was cut out around my waist && of course I had a bite mark. My first of hundreds of bite marks.

When I finally got out, Ashley had laid out a shirt for me, I didn’t want to wear his cloths, but I also didn’t want to anger him. Not to mention, my dress was crunchy with dried blood. I pulled it on, then opened the door to find him sitting on the floor infront of the bathroom. He stood promptly && motioned for me to follow, I did so, walking gingerly as my whole body hurt. I slept in an empty bunk that night, Ashley slept in the bunk acoss from me.

I know now that he hadn’t slept at all. He had watched me, all night. He had watched me && cried.

That night was just the first time he saved me. Just the first time he’d come to carry a bleeding or beaten me to shower or to bed. I wanted to hate him. I still want to hate him. He’s the reason Im here. Had he controlled himself, I’d be home on Coney, teaching my now 1st graders the beginnings of en pointe. I wouldn’t have had to sit in the living room, surrounded by my captors && watch my mom cry on TV. I choked on my tears as she begged for me to come home, as my dad told the nation I was so loved && so missed. Had he not spoken up, I could’ve at least been dead. Dead with my beloved Nate && my brother.

But, I cant hate him. I’ve tried to, believe me, I still try. I want to hate him, even though he refuses to feed from me. Even though he sleeps on the floor on his nights with me, so I don’t feel uncomfortable with a man sleeping next to me. Even after he bought me a ton of modest dresses && cloths, so I wouldn’t have to walk around in just everyone else’s shirts && a pair of underwear.

He has been so kind, taking care of my needs && providing an abuse free, bloodshed free, peaceful space in this huge hell. Now, Jake && Jinxx are kind too, they don’t beat me or use force,but they have always fed from me without hesitation, always just allowed Andy or CC to use or punish me however they see fit. Ashley hasn’t once fed from me since I’ve been here, save the first bite that created this hell for me. He fights Andy && CC to the nail to try && protect me. && He wasn’t always successful, I’ve still been humiliated && punished a ton of times, but at least he tries && at least he helps me after.

He smiles at me when he sees me. His smile can stop the earth’s spinning && I’ve found that, for brief moments, it stops the pain. His laugh is contagious && some nights, when we stay up talking or watching movies in his room, I don’t feel like a feeder. I feel like I’m a teenage girl again.A teenage girl talking to her crush on the subway ride home. A feeling which I often hate myself for.

“Kia.” A voice && a knock interrupted my daydreaming. It was Jake.

“Yes?” I stand up && open the door, He & Ashley stood in front of me, a huge smile plastered on both their face’s. I rolled my eyes at their goofy grins, looking behind them && seeing no one, I couldn’t help but smile back. “What?” I ask. Ash grabbed my hand, && pulled me forward as Jake walked ahead of us.

“We have a surprise for you.” Jake said looking back at me. “&& not just us either, everyone. Andy, CC Jinxx, We all worked on it together.” My feet slowed && a knot in my stomach formed, I hate surprises, especially surprises from people who are only nice or even decent to me less than half the time. Ashley noticed my change in pace && squeezed my hand reassuringly. His smile beaming. I shyly smiled back, as we reached the top of the staircase that led to the basement.

I hate the basement. Once, when I first got here CC bit down particularly hard && in my pain, I cried out && hit him. He tied my up and pushed me down the 5 step staircase. I broke three ribs && was locked down there in the pitch black for 2 days, it felt like a year though.
I hesitated at the top step, but Ashley just pulled me along. I gulped && took a calming breath as we reached the bottom of the stairs, I could hear Andy && Jinxx talking behind the closed door.

“Close your eyes” Ashley whispered in my ear.

“No” I whispered back, careful to not let anyone else hear my small disobedience.

“Kia, please, this is special” He said. I sighed && closed my eyes tightly, a grin developing on my face. I heard the door open && Ashley’s strong hands led me in the room by the shoulders. I stood in the middle of the room, waiting with closed eyes.

“Baby doll” Andy spoke “You’ve been a good girl, well mostly good” He chuckled “for almost 3 months now. We put together something for you, for you to use whenever. But the basement door always locks, so if you want to keep this privilege, I suggest you continue with the good behavior” He said.

“Andy.” Ashley scolded him. “Kia’s fine. She always behaves fine. Don’t use this gift as a threat” He spoke.

“Oh, come one” CC said. “Just show it to her already.” I rocked on my heals. This smell was familiar to me. It smelt like oak floors && glass cleaner.

“Open up, buttercup” Andy chimed. My eyes sprang open && my heart stopped.

Notes

A nice, Semi- happy chapter with a lot of back story. I'll probably do 1 or 2 more happy, drama free chapters but don't get used to it. Kia's suffering isn't over yet, I've got worse things planned for this poor girl.. && more intimate moments between her && Ashley. Please, let me know what you think. Any guesses as to what they built for her?.. (: