She hates love..... He loves hate
Lost memories part 4
***11grade***
Since the day Andy got with Alexa, she had his heart under lock and key, she told him horrible lies about scarlet, she may have brainwashed him, but his love for scarlet was still buried deep with in his heart, Alexa may have forced out all the memories, but the feelings remained.
Andy had become the most popular guy in school, and scarlet remained at the bottom He started treating her like shit because Alexa told him too and everyone else already was, he would notice the deep gashes in Scarlets wrist and Andy's heart ached for her, while his mind was to concerned about his popularity to give a shit about her. All good memory of her was lost, and replaced with the lies Alexa had told him.
Every time scarlet would see Andy, her heart would break a little bit more each and every time, until she didn't have a heart for anyone to break anymore. Scarlet swore that she would never love again.... Her heart had turned to stone, and unlike Andy, Scarlets heart had no remainder of feeling for him or Anyone else.... No love, just hate and regret. Though Andy's love for her hid deep within his heart, he never admitted to himself that he still loved her.
(And after all those years, he forgot, and scarlet broke her promise for Darren)
"Hey it's slutty scarlet!" One of Andy's friends yelled out to the young virgin as she walked by
She didn't bother to even look up to see who had said it, she didn't care anymore.
"Dude come on just leave her alone" Andy said out of no where, but of course scarlet didn't hear it and all his 'friends' turned to look at him in shock
"Andy's in love with scarlet the harlot!" One of the juvenile acting teenagers said and every one around Andy laughed at him for sticking up for scarlet.
"Wait till Alexa finds out!" One of them said and Andy had to restrain himself from colliding his fist with the boys face
"Shut the fuck up! I don't love her! Look at her she's a pathetic nobody!" Andy said with no problem, when deep down a part of his heart broke at his own words.... But his mind and body ignored it
"Oh yea? Prove it!" One of the boys said in a challenging tone towards Andy
"I will!" He said and started walking towards scarlet, his group of 'friends' following close behind
"Look who it is, scarlet the harlot." Andy said in a smug tone and she cringed at the sound of his voice.
"Fuck off Andrew, why don't you and your minions just leave" She remarked quickly then began to walk away.
She didn't get far because someone grabbed a fistful of her beautiful red hair and yanked her back. She looked up expecting to see Andy, but instead saw one of his friends mark
He pulled her back and threw her at Andy, she crashed into his tall slim fit figure. He looked down at her with a smile that frightened yet relaxed scarlet at the same time. Andy wasn't listening to the yells that his heart was telling him to stop, instead he listened to his brain that Alexa basically had control over.
He gently caressed her cheek with his thumb before withdrawing his hand high above his head and forcing it to Scarlets soft skin, she fell to the floor, fighting back tears. A welt started to form on her cheek and it made the horrendous teenage boys around her smile and laugh.
Andy bent down next to scarlet and cuffed her chin, he could see the terror and fury laced in her eyes, without thinking. He quickly pressed his lips up against hers, they both sat there in shock for a few seconds before Andy walked off with his friends, not a single one questioned him about the kiss, they were all just surprised and proud that he slapped her. Scarlet laid on the floor for a few seconds, then when she tried to get up she discovered that she had sprained her wrist...bad
Great, my moms going to kill me, we can't afford a brace for my wrist, so this was going to be a slow painful process, that is if my oh so loving mother doesn't do anything to fuck it up even more.
She thought to herself, hoping her abusive mother wouldn't find out
The rest of the day was pure hell for scarlet. On her way home she was attacked by Alexa and her friends, the last thing she remembered before blacking out, was her sprained wrist being twisted.
Scarlet woke up a few hours later, in the exact same place where she blacked out, only she was alone, it was getting dark and her wrist was without a doubt broken. She slowly made her way home, praying to god that her mother wasn't there!
When she got home, she discovered that her awful mother was still out
Thank god! Now I can get this over with.
Scarlet thought to herself. She quickly ran upstairs to her room, she locked and shut the door behind her.
"Last time ill be doing that..".
Scarlet said as tears started to fall from her eyes, but her face remained emotionless.
She reached into her side drawer and got out a pice of paper, a pen, and her favorite knife, among a wide collection she held of daggers and knifes, this one was not only her favorite, but her most prized possession.... After all, her best friend gave it to her.
"Hello beautiful, you will end my pain once again, only this time it will be forever gone" She spoke the words with no hesitation, no tears, just relief and happiness
She grabbed the pen and paper, and began to write what she thought and hoped to be the last thing she ever did.
To who it may concern, which I doubt it will, I killed myself... Duh... I don't need to explain why, because nobody will care to know. But I guess I might as well say something as to why I ended my pathetic worthless life. It's kinda like an equation... Take, tainted blood. Broken heart, torn flesh, words of others, the fist of the students and the hands of my own mother. Add those up, subtract my happiness and multiple by hell.... And you'll get why I did this to myself.
Scarlet folded the note and wrote "Cruel equation" on one side, and her initials on the back. She took the knife and brought it to her wrist, she pressed it in her skin, causing a bit of blood to drip out, then in one swift move, she slides it across her wrist, deeper then she had ever done before, blood instantly spilled out, and a lot of it, she took the knife and repeated the dreadful action on her other wrist. Just as she was about to slit her throat, hoping that would ending it all, there was a knock at the front door, she ignored it and went back to literally tearing herself apart. After she had slit both wrist, her neck and thighs, she was still alive, still breathing, still bleeding. She wanted it to end already, just to get it over with! She drew the knife high above her head, both hands gripping it tightly, then at an almost inhuman speed, the jabbed the blade deep in her lower abdomen, and twisted it. she was sure she punctured an organ because she felt blood splatter the back of her throat.
She didn't hear It at the time, but her name was called throughout the house, The handle to her door started to shake rapidly, but Scarlet didn't notice. Her vision became blurry fast and it started to become harder for her to breath....
The door bust open, and just as scarlet was about to black out, she caught a glimpse of the blue eyed boy that once loved her.
Since the day Andy got with Alexa, she had his heart under lock and key, she told him horrible lies about scarlet, she may have brainwashed him, but his love for scarlet was still buried deep with in his heart, Alexa may have forced out all the memories, but the feelings remained.
Andy had become the most popular guy in school, and scarlet remained at the bottom He started treating her like shit because Alexa told him too and everyone else already was, he would notice the deep gashes in Scarlets wrist and Andy's heart ached for her, while his mind was to concerned about his popularity to give a shit about her. All good memory of her was lost, and replaced with the lies Alexa had told him.
Every time scarlet would see Andy, her heart would break a little bit more each and every time, until she didn't have a heart for anyone to break anymore. Scarlet swore that she would never love again.... Her heart had turned to stone, and unlike Andy, Scarlets heart had no remainder of feeling for him or Anyone else.... No love, just hate and regret. Though Andy's love for her hid deep within his heart, he never admitted to himself that he still loved her.
(And after all those years, he forgot, and scarlet broke her promise for Darren)
"Hey it's slutty scarlet!" One of Andy's friends yelled out to the young virgin as she walked by
She didn't bother to even look up to see who had said it, she didn't care anymore.
"Dude come on just leave her alone" Andy said out of no where, but of course scarlet didn't hear it and all his 'friends' turned to look at him in shock
"Andy's in love with scarlet the harlot!" One of the juvenile acting teenagers said and every one around Andy laughed at him for sticking up for scarlet.
"Wait till Alexa finds out!" One of them said and Andy had to restrain himself from colliding his fist with the boys face
"Shut the fuck up! I don't love her! Look at her she's a pathetic nobody!" Andy said with no problem, when deep down a part of his heart broke at his own words.... But his mind and body ignored it
"Oh yea? Prove it!" One of the boys said in a challenging tone towards Andy
"I will!" He said and started walking towards scarlet, his group of 'friends' following close behind
"Look who it is, scarlet the harlot." Andy said in a smug tone and she cringed at the sound of his voice.
"Fuck off Andrew, why don't you and your minions just leave" She remarked quickly then began to walk away.
She didn't get far because someone grabbed a fistful of her beautiful red hair and yanked her back. She looked up expecting to see Andy, but instead saw one of his friends mark
He pulled her back and threw her at Andy, she crashed into his tall slim fit figure. He looked down at her with a smile that frightened yet relaxed scarlet at the same time. Andy wasn't listening to the yells that his heart was telling him to stop, instead he listened to his brain that Alexa basically had control over.
He gently caressed her cheek with his thumb before withdrawing his hand high above his head and forcing it to Scarlets soft skin, she fell to the floor, fighting back tears. A welt started to form on her cheek and it made the horrendous teenage boys around her smile and laugh.
Andy bent down next to scarlet and cuffed her chin, he could see the terror and fury laced in her eyes, without thinking. He quickly pressed his lips up against hers, they both sat there in shock for a few seconds before Andy walked off with his friends, not a single one questioned him about the kiss, they were all just surprised and proud that he slapped her. Scarlet laid on the floor for a few seconds, then when she tried to get up she discovered that she had sprained her wrist...bad
Great, my moms going to kill me, we can't afford a brace for my wrist, so this was going to be a slow painful process, that is if my oh so loving mother doesn't do anything to fuck it up even more.
She thought to herself, hoping her abusive mother wouldn't find out
The rest of the day was pure hell for scarlet. On her way home she was attacked by Alexa and her friends, the last thing she remembered before blacking out, was her sprained wrist being twisted.
Scarlet woke up a few hours later, in the exact same place where she blacked out, only she was alone, it was getting dark and her wrist was without a doubt broken. She slowly made her way home, praying to god that her mother wasn't there!
When she got home, she discovered that her awful mother was still out
Thank god! Now I can get this over with.
Scarlet thought to herself. She quickly ran upstairs to her room, she locked and shut the door behind her.
"Last time ill be doing that..".
Scarlet said as tears started to fall from her eyes, but her face remained emotionless.
She reached into her side drawer and got out a pice of paper, a pen, and her favorite knife, among a wide collection she held of daggers and knifes, this one was not only her favorite, but her most prized possession.... After all, her best friend gave it to her.
"Hello beautiful, you will end my pain once again, only this time it will be forever gone" She spoke the words with no hesitation, no tears, just relief and happiness
She grabbed the pen and paper, and began to write what she thought and hoped to be the last thing she ever did.
To who it may concern, which I doubt it will, I killed myself... Duh... I don't need to explain why, because nobody will care to know. But I guess I might as well say something as to why I ended my pathetic worthless life. It's kinda like an equation... Take, tainted blood. Broken heart, torn flesh, words of others, the fist of the students and the hands of my own mother. Add those up, subtract my happiness and multiple by hell.... And you'll get why I did this to myself.
Scarlet folded the note and wrote "Cruel equation" on one side, and her initials on the back. She took the knife and brought it to her wrist, she pressed it in her skin, causing a bit of blood to drip out, then in one swift move, she slides it across her wrist, deeper then she had ever done before, blood instantly spilled out, and a lot of it, she took the knife and repeated the dreadful action on her other wrist. Just as she was about to slit her throat, hoping that would ending it all, there was a knock at the front door, she ignored it and went back to literally tearing herself apart. After she had slit both wrist, her neck and thighs, she was still alive, still breathing, still bleeding. She wanted it to end already, just to get it over with! She drew the knife high above her head, both hands gripping it tightly, then at an almost inhuman speed, the jabbed the blade deep in her lower abdomen, and twisted it. she was sure she punctured an organ because she felt blood splatter the back of her throat.
She didn't hear It at the time, but her name was called throughout the house, The handle to her door started to shake rapidly, but Scarlet didn't notice. Her vision became blurry fast and it started to become harder for her to breath....
The door bust open, and just as scarlet was about to black out, she caught a glimpse of the blue eyed boy that once loved her.
Notes
DONT KILL ME PLZ!!! I know it's kinda confusing, but I've been having brain blocks.... I have the story planned out in my head, it's just the writing I'm having trouble with.... Keep in mind that Andy dosnt remember this and scarlet only remembers the suicide, not their friendship.
I'm sorry that happened! :(
7/26/16