Forgive me.

God healthy food isn't cheap, I kept getting looked at like I had kidnapped my child or something, Rosie noticed too and layed her head on my chest, probably listening to my heartbeat, it always soothed her. Eventually she looked back up at me. "Mommy, market music sucks." I giggled and looked down at her, "yeah I know right!" I whisper, "mom one day we will make music that's better than this."I smile and nod and put Rosie down and hold her hand. After finally getting out and putting all the food in the bag we start walking, I give Rosie an apple to eat. "Mommy what time is it?" I look around and I see a man with a watch. "Excuse me sir? What time is it?" The man in a suit, a really nice suit, gave me a look, of disgust probably. "It's 6:30 uh... Miss.."
"Thank you sir." I pull up my denim jacket over my shoulders more and suddenly I hear a gentle thud. I quickly look down and see Rosie has dropped her apple. She drops to her knees and desperately tries to grab it and clean it. I hear whimpering. "Oh no baby don't eat that, it's dirty now." She looks up at me clutching the apple, tears streaming down her face, making her blue eyes sparkle. "Mommy I have to, you paid lots of money. I'm so clumsy I'm sorry!" I fell to one knee and looked her right in the eyes. "Darling it is absolutely okay, you hear me? Now I think I have some more fruit. Let me check.." I swing my bag off my shoulder and look through it. "Are you okay?" I look up and see andy. Electricity rips through me and I nearly drop onto my other knee. I quickly grab Rosie, dropping her apple once again, which rolls to Andy's foot and I hold her close, snuggling my face into her shoulder. And god fucking dammit. "Hey.. Aren't you.." "Ashley. Don't. My kid is here." Rosie starts wailing. I quickly hand her another apple, and she stops, sniffling. "Hey baby it's okay.. See there's another apple, don't ever feel bad about these things ok? I love you"
"I love you too mommy." I see other tall men in front of me. Fuck. CC, jinxx and jake are there too, I hear whispering and suddenly I feel quite pathetic on the floor. I pick my daughter and my backpack up and stand infront of them. She whispers to me, "mommy are they your band?"
"Yeah sweety, I'm a bit scared." CC finally speaks up. "Who are you?" I look him in the eye and I bounce a little so I can hold Rosie on my hip a bit easier. "I'm faith."
"Why are you out here?"
"Where else would I be?"
"Home?"
I look down and my baby snuggles her face into my neck, and mumbles. "We don't have one."
Ccs pov
We cannot leave them out here. We can't. Nope. I don't give a fuck what the guys will say. "Okay... Girls do you want to come home with us. Only a few days. Then we are getting a hotel for you, and a job. Got it?" The guys turn to look at me, but I stand my ground, the little girl jumps out of faiths hands and runs to me. She starts to hug my legs. I pick her up and she's crying. "Thank you thank you thank you." I wipe her tears away with my thumb and.. Her skin is so soft how is this even possible. I saw faith adjust her jacket so her neck showed a little more, which was black and blue. She looks at Ashley, as if he had to explain. "CC we can't take her in." I ignore him. "Ashley why does she have all these bruises."
"I.. uh.. um."
"Ashley!"
"Okay last night she jumped andy and grabbed a fifty. So I pushed her onto the ground and must've bruised her up." I look at her. "You JUMPED andy?!"
"Yeah... I um..." And I look at ash. "And you let her get away?! I mean c'mon ash she couldn'tve gotten away with you..." He looked back at me a little embarrassed, I laugh so hard I nearly drop the little girl. Speaking of her.. "What's your name darling?"
"My name is Rosie!" Rosie... Cute. "Okay faith. You give a fifty back we take you in." She rummages through her bag and hands andy a few notes. "I'm sorry." They look each other right in the eyes and andy says back "don't worry about it. You've got a kid."
Fast forward
Faiths pov.
I can't believe this. this isn't happening. We were shown our bed and room for now and I unpacked the stuff, other than the bags of food. Rosie sticks close to me, always under my feet. As soon as she sees CC she runs to him and he picks her up "hello darling, you like your new room?"
"I love it! Uncey CC." Uncle CC?! Aw gosh this kid will be heartbroken. Adrenaline and excitement and anxiety fills every bone of my body. I stand there awkwardly, watching over her. Suddenly, I feel a hand on my shoulder, I spin around, startled. It's andy. "Can I talk to you?" I look at Rosie and she and CC are having a bawl. So I nod and walk with andy to his room, I sit down on his bed and look around, posters and logos and fan drawings fill the room. "I don't mean to be intrusive, but we really need answers if you're going to be staying here." I nod, and I feel as if I could pass out right then and there. I have been pushing the thought away that these guys are really... Those guys. The ones that dragged me out of the dust when no one else could. I open my mouth to speak and my lips are already quivering. "I fell pregnant, at 16 and my dad... He didn't like it. He started drinking more and it just got worse and worse. I knew a home like that wasn't good for my child and I had to leave. I mean, it probably isn't as good as it's supposed to be but it's better than her watching her mom get beaten. And slice herself up to bits." He looks straight at my eyes, as soon as I notice I look down at my hands, they were shaking and I tried to make them stop but they just got worse. I took a breath inwards and even andy could hear how much I was trembling. "Hey it's okay? Deep breath." I look back up at him and bite my lip. "I um. I really did love him ya know, I didn't do that whole I want to be Pregnant at 16 thing but it just happened. I didn't dare go to the other option." He pulled my into a hug, his arms wrapping around me, I feel myself tearing up a little and I try so hard not to cry. "Mommy!" I guess she found me, she runs and trys to jump on the bed, but slips and falls down. "Gosh dammit.." She mumbles, Andy starts to laugh and Rosie finds out if you get a running start it might work a bit better, so eventually she got up, then sits on Andy's lap. "Oh gosh." I say, "make yourself at home Rosie it's ok no biggy." I sniffle and wipe away tears, laughing. She giggles and andy wraps his muscular arms around her, she struggles out of them and climbs up onto his shoulders. "Andy!" She squeals, giggling. "Sing mommy a song. She loves your songs." OH GOD. I blush. I start to focus on my hands again, threading my fingers through my other fingers. "You listen to the band?"
"it got me through everything."
"AYE BOYS GET HERE!" Oh god no oh fuck. I can feel my stomach flipping, and I put a hand on it. A lump in my throat forms and I don't think ill be able to talk. The guys walk in. "What's up."
"They're fans." Jinxx and jake look at each other and whisper something. Ashley sits beside me. Way too close to me. Rosie runs to CC again and eventually he breaks the silence. "well that's awesome isn't it guys?" Jake, normally quiet. blurts out. "dude what if she's made up all this bullshit to get in." Rosie looks up at him and pouts. I stand up and grab her and walk out. Brushing past jake. I run to my room and set her down. I feel tears prick my eyes, my stomach has done a full 360 around 50 times and my leg is shaking, badly. I keep breathing and Rosie keeps trying to help me. "Mommy it's ok, jake is just mean, it's ok don't cry mommy.." I pull her onto my lap and I cuddle her tightly, she kisses my cheek and murmurs "I love you"
"I love you too baby, I'm okay." I am not. No where near. Does he really think that I am making up everything? Rosie grabs my wrist, making me cringe. "Don't do it."
"I promise I won't sweety." CC is at the door. He walks in and closes it. "Don't listen to him. We believe you." I look at him and I let all the pain and hurt show on my face, I can't hide it anymore. He sits on the bed beside me, and puts his arms around me and Rosie. "Don't worry faith. I am going to take care of you. I am not letting anyone hurt you again."
"Don't worry faith, as soon as the babies born I'll move in and take care of you.. I'm not letting anyone hurt you again."
"I love you drake."
"Yeah darling I know."
It's so different to back then. It was real. "Uncey is this our home?"
"Yeah sweety, it is now."

Notes

Woo here you go, hope you like it, tried to fix up the sentences and stuff ^__^